Thursday, April 19, 2012

http://www.greatschools.org/find-a-school/defining-your-ideal/121-school-uniforms.gs

This mouse keeps having muscle spasms. >.< Gargh!
Take your drugs and get over yourself!

Anyway, the uniform thing is for persuasive speech me and these 3 other girls have to do together.

What do you guys think of the issue? Personally, I wore a uniform the last two years of middle school and HATED it. It was uncomfortable, a pain in the ass to buy, people gave you shit if your shirt wasn't tucked in, and it didn't do anything for safety or discipline. No, the reason almost nobody ever had to be punished was because the school was run by mothers, and trust me, you do not want to piss off a mother.

A pre-requisite for being a women and baring children is being able to yell and whoop ass without even touching them.

My moms awesome, but when she's pissed, she can melt the flesh off your face with a single look. Fr srs.

Anyway, here are some other links. They're more for me than for yo guys, but if you're interested... *shrugs*

http://debatepedia.idebate.org/en/index.php/Debate:School_Uniform_(JUNIOR)

http://www.idebate.org/debatabase/topic_details.php?topicID=59
ily
~Belinda
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Tuesday, April 17, 2012

I really, really don't like this dude in my women's studies class right now.

We have an assignment to study how religion affects women in this country and he goes off on this tangent about how all the other denominations of Christianity are so superior to Catholicism because all the Church ever does is marginalize and oppress women and when I began to speak up, I couldn't get a word in edge-wise.

I wanted to be like, "Um, don't look now, O Thirteenth Apostle, but by talking over and shutting out everything I say, you're basically re-enacting the situation your faith supposedly makes you above."

I know the Church has a bad rep and history, and I know people have a right to disaprove and dissent, but how is that a viable excuse to shit all over my feelings and the feelings of other practicing Catholics?

Besides, if not for Catholicism, all other branches of Christianity wouldn't even exist.

And just because something can be used to oppress a group of people doesn't mean it should it can't also be used empower them. Look up Anna Julia Cooper. Look up Christine de Pizan.

They observed how well Jesus treated women and womens roles throughout the Gospels and were inspired by that to lobby for the education, enlightenment, safety, and respect of women.

Just because we believe that women are typically--keyword TYPICALLY--suited to different roles than men does not mean we believe they are less than men.

Have some/most of us believed that in the past? Yes. But so did Jews and Hindu's.

Things are changing. I hope they continue to change.
ily
~Belinda
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Monday, April 16, 2012

It seems we're all having mother issues/surprises right now... XD

I'm slowly beginning to realize that not only am I not my mother, I don't want to be my mother. Sure, I'd love to be like her in terms of compassion and strength and optimism, but she's so very not me. So very practical and 1950s and empirical and fragile and her taste in clothes is TERRIBLE.

It's getting easier and easier to disappoint her. Not in huge, heart-breaking, "I hate you" ways, but in little ways like not changing my shirt when she says I should or simply disagreeing with a piece of advice she gives me.

I still love her, I just... don't worship her anymore. Which is healthier, I guess. It just makes it harder or at least more complicated to live with her. She keeps treating me like her baby, expecting me to keep doing my part in the whole mother-daughter courtship dance: always acting in ways that would please her or gain her approval. Her approval just doesn't matter as much to me anymore. I can't help but be nervous about her reaction upon realizing that because like I said I still care. I don't want to hurt her.

But I don't want our relationship to keep resembling that of Margaret's and mine before we broke up. There was this strain, this forced smile, this continuous, failed effort to please one another. It was just painful and ultimately not worth the effort.

ANYWAY. I'm working on a health paper right now. Might go for a walk for a little bit because I'm kinda stuck and it's really nice out.
ily
~Belinda
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Thursday, April 12, 2012

So the rush continues!

Gotta stay after school for a project, gotta work on a paper for Health Class, gotta do some other thing I'm probably forgetting... Yeah.

Oh! And then there's my brothers school performance thing and confirmation meeting.

Oy. It's really not that much, but all I want to do is sleep. :P
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Wednesday, April 4, 2012

So Spring break started for me on Friday. I got two projects due. One is already half-way done, the other, I've got all the sources and information I need, I just have to put it into an outline and write it.

I should be okay, but it's still a drag to have to worry about. :P Oyyy.

My moms taking my siblings to see Mirror, Mirror today. I wanted to come, but I know if I did Josh would be sad because he wants to see it with me so I guess I'm staying home today.

In other news: I'm hungry. :(

I wish I had a car. I really don't feel like walking to Dunkin Donuts because my legs are still sore from walking along the river yesterday and I feel even less like cooking.

Oh well.

Usually this would be the time I'd say "today I will be productive" and then waste the whole day playing sims or reading vampire novels, so instead I'm going to say today I will do absolutely nothing and hope that the opposite happens. XD lmao

ily
~Belinda
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Thursday, March 29, 2012

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tiresias

Why did no one tell me about this when they were shoving Greek mythology down my throat all through middle school? They kept some of the best parts from me! >.<

I have a really good idea for a character in my story: a psychic cheif who only speaks in qoutes from famous classical literature and sacred texts, and ends every qoutation with "so says the man." I don't know whether to name her Jocusta (or is it Jocasta?) after Oedipus's mother or Tiresias after the blind prophet in Oedipus. The connotation of Jocasta/Jocusta fits her a lot better, but the story surrounding the name almost completely clashes. Tiresias captures her role in the story much more accurately, but it doesn't really fit her temperment. Perhaps I could combine them? Hmmmm...

Thoughts?

I only have today and tomorrow until spring break. ^.^ Not sure what I'll do with it. I aim to be productive, but I seldom follow through.

You guys have any plans for Easter/Holy Week/Spring Break?
ily
~Belinda
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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

I was too scared to post this on my facebook page, but this fucking hilarious--especially because it's true. CONSIDER THE VAGINAS!!! COMFIFY THE PAPSMEARS!!!!!!!! DEATH TO ALL TAMPONS!!!!

lol
ily
~Belinda
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Sunday, March 25, 2012

Feel like I want to write something, but don't know what. I always want to be productive at the worst times.

I keep having a recurring dream of being stranded at McDonalds. Thoughts?

This is what the folks at dreammoods.com think:

McDonald
To see or dream that you are at McDonalds signifies happiness and a worry-free attitude. The dream also suggests that you are living large. Perhaps the dream is telling you to expand your thinking or horizons. Supersize it!�Alternatively, the dream may just mean you are hungry.

Yes, but what of the cashier with the lip ring who keeps giving me dirty looks? 0.o

Frankly, I think the dream is my subconscious mind's way of telling my conscious mind to tell me to get off my fat, lazy ass and go for a ten mile hike. Is that too direct. Possibly. Probably. Oh well.

I wanna see this movie:


It's probably going to make me cry. I've been crying over EVERYTHING lately. Books, movies, TV shows, dead pigeons in the road... lol I used to not be a total pansy, I swear!
But fr rlys: I've become a complete and utter girl. It's the college. In high school, everybody was cold and anti-social and you never really talked to or acknowledged anyone's existence unless you'd been actively conversing with them for a year or so. In college, practically EVERYONE talks to you: current class-mates, former classmates, current teachers, former teachers, people who sit a table away from you in the cafeteria everyday,complete strangers.

I once had this complete stranger come up to me out of nowhere and ask my advice on which math class he should take next semester.

Everyone is so open and trusting of one another, and I'm not used to it! Which is not to say I don't like it, it just throws me off. :/

I guess it's kind of brave to act that way. To smile and greet almost everyone you pass, just trusting they won't be a total dick and ignore you or say something shitty back... I realized I'm still scared--still scared on some level more than the usual person.

I can feel my shrink and my family pushing on me to be more open and optimistic, but... everything is just so loud, so incoherent and roaring and right around the corner. My biggest fear isn't that things will change, but that they won't. I don't want to be living forever in the house I grew up in, waiting for my life to start.

ily
~Belinda
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Friday, March 2, 2012

Speaking abesnt-heartedly, half-mindedly.
No, baby, I'm not lost, just tired.
Not asleep, just wish I was.

I don't recall ever marrying The Church so why is She always in my bed?
Once upon a time, we were best friends;
Now sometimes we don't even speak the same language.
I know She just wants to save my life after I die, but the thing is I'm not dead yet.
And no matter what the Bible says, I just can't bring myself to believe that all girls are either named Mary or Martha.
God always just called me Hon.

Gloria Steinem might call me brain-washed, but I really don't mind living in the shadow of the Cross in the middle of this Desert--even if I have to give up dying in an oasis.

I don't and can't know what is and isn't.
I only know what I've been told.
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Woke up with a heavy heart this morning. My limbs slowly grew even heavier. I've never been a morning person, but lately I've just been feeling downright sick. Almost threw up yesterday.

I think they're about to kick me out of this computer lab. Librarians are very bitchy here. :/ Rigid, no-nonesense white ladies...

It's freezing in here. >.<

ily
~Belinda
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Wednesday, February 29, 2012

There's been a lot of talk in Christian/conservative circles about abortion, sex ed, and how the two are linked. Always about how abortion is murder (which I agree with) and about how sex ed programs contribute to teen pregnancy and therefore exacerbate the abortion problem (which I don't).

However, abstinance programs aren't completely useless either. They're misleading and often misguided, but not altogether useless.

What needs to happen is a combination of the two: all the information about birth control in sex ed AND all the information about the emotional, psychological risks of sex.

Because what's happening now is, sex is either completely glorified or completely debased, and neither one of these views is true. People need to know what they're signing up for. They need to know about all the risks, all the precautions, all the things that could happen whether they have a "happy ending" or not.

I've heard stories from several married women about how even though they couldn't be more satisfied with their marriage, from time to time they're still haunted by ghosts of their ex-boyfriends/men they used to sleep with. Sex has the potential to bind you in some way to the one you sleep with forever--whether you want to be bound to them forever or not. Nobody tells you this in school, and they need to. If they did, maybe there would be more precaution and maybe abortion needn't be so necessary.

Also, people who protest abortion need to put their money where their mouths are and step up when it comes to things like pregnency centers and in-school day-cares. The stories I've heard of the mediocrity of pregnancy centers are terrible. They won't even give young mothers a crib! How can they expect these young women to birth and raise a baby when their own church won't even support them?

I know I for one, when and if I have financial stability, am going to invest as much money as I can to centers like this and harass the shit out of them until employees/volunteers get their heads out of their self-righteous asses and support the women they're trying to save. I mean, come on! Is it too much to ask to have a little sensitivity here?

Also, people bitch all day long about how in-school day-cares for teenage mothers encourage teen pregnency. I don't know about you, but I can't think of a single girl off the top of my head who sees that her school offers day-care and thinks to herself "Oh, I guess it's okay for me to have unsafe sex with whoever I want then."
No, in-school day-care is a resource for women/young girls who've already had children to get educated so they can make something of themselves without sacrificing the emotional/physical/psychological welfare of their child.

What it all comes down to is this: Women deserve better. They deserve better than shame and shunning from society, better than having to give their baby away to complete strangers or to have themselves cut open and their baby disected while still in the womb; and anyone who agrees with this seriously needs to step up and act on it.

I commend those who already do.

Also, I'm not necessarily saying every single girl who accidentally gets pregnant is a victim, but society plays a huge role in it both for those who are victims and those who aren't, and it definitely needs to take responsibility.

ily
~Belinda

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