Monday, July 20, 2009

I
had
the
most
FABULOUSFUNERIFFICAWESOMESNUGGLYWARMFUZZYEPICGORGEOUS WEEKEND EVER!!!!!!!!!!!


And now it's over. :(

So. Work was murder today. I was running on about 4 and a half hours of sleep, my teeth felt like they were going to fall out of my mouth at any given moment, I couldn't think straight because I was so tired, and at one point it felt like I was getting feverish.
But I survived. Thank You, God. ^^

In other news, I've been talking to my ex's ex, Sammi.
If you all remember correctly, way back in I think late August of 2008, I began associating with a senior by the name of Dean Barris. We dated for about 5 days until he dumped me out of nowhere for some freshmen who looked exactly like me by the name of Ashley. After that--and I didn't hear about this until recently--he eventually dumped Ashley for her best friend Sammi. (Sammi's the one I've been talking to, btw.) A few months later, Dean proceeded to dump Sammi for some chick who looked like a a guy.
(Her and I were both offended.)

Anyway, as surprised as I am to say this, I actually really like Sammi. I thought I wouldn't because she was a freshmen and looked kinda like a scene kid stereotype, but she's actually really sweet.
Anyway, I'll talk to you guys later.
ily
~Belinda
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Saturday, July 18, 2009

Well, I'm gonna leave the keyboard plugged in after all. Robert's probably going to get on late at night when everyone's asleep and when mom and dad's not home, but whatever. I don't care.
Anyway, Shaun was supposed to pick me up to go to the movies about half an hour ago and I get the feeling I'll be waiting another 15 minutes if not more for him to show up. '-__- *sigh*
The worst part about him being late is not knowing when he's going to show up and being completely torn in knots with anxiety until he does.
Oy... '''''''''-___-

On another note, Adam Lambert recently--or not-so-recently--came out of the closet,and all I can say in commentary of this is:
NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! >.<
It's SO not fair! Why do all the gay guys have to be so drop-dead gorgeous? I mean, I'm not homophobic or anything, but I've gotta say, this is a definite flaw of homosexuality when it comes to guys: All the girls that love them have absolutely no chance. ;~; It sucks.

ily
~Belinda
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Thursday, July 16, 2009

Why can't I just take a pistol to my head and make it end?
My head won't stop careening, the walls won't stop teasing.
High pressure, low pressure--
I'm a damn insecurity button-presser!
Everything still hurts and it all screams so much of fake, I'm about to burst.
"Slow down," she says and soothes. "Take your eyes off the clock and your hands off the Glock. Deep breaths, get some rest. Get some rest."
I sigh, wishing I could be satisfied.
Honestly, I don't want to die,
I just keep forgetting what it means to be alive.
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Hey, guys.
I'm on the computer at work right now so I can't type long.
I've just gotten on to say I won't be on the computer for a about a week, because my brother got grounded so my mom had to unplug both keyboards and hide them under my pillow to make sure he didn't get on when she was wasn't home.
:(
Anyway, I'll miss you guys very much
ily all
~Belinda
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Is currently: Debating whether or not to cry myself to sleep in mourning of my beloved Panic! going from a quartet to a mere duo.

Was previously: Working my little heart at the library for 6 hours. (8 DOLLARS AN HOUR!!! ^.^)

Is currently listening to: My mommy playing with my little sister's Emma's parakeet. His name is Sunny and ironically he's pretty emo. He doesn't like anyone except Emma. lol

Was previously listening to: Shaun talking to me over the phone. God, how I miss him!

Is currently worrying about: My dad. The company he works for isn't doing so well and he REALLY needs to get a new job.

Was previously worried about: Nothing.

~Belinda
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Saturday, July 11, 2009

Hey, guys.
Seems like it's been forever. Nothing much has been happening lately, so you really haven't missing anything.
Shauns coming over today. Haven't seen him since Sunday, so it'll be nice to hang out with him.
I've been texting him practically all week though. I finally got free texting. Yaaaaaaaaay! :D

Oy... I'm really tired. Stayed up past midnight last night and I woke up at 7:30 to the sound of my sisters screaming at each other. ''-___-
Ahhhhhhhhhh, the joy of being surrounded by family!
~Belinda
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Monday, July 6, 2009

The heat, the heat is killing me
It would be so easy to just let go and never feel again,
But it's not worth it.
Because I know you wouldn't be there.
Can't sit still for a second--
I'm the worst case of live you can [never] catch.
These racing fingers are just something no one ever gets.
My skin is slithering off my bones again,
And this time the addiction's not enough to keep away the love.
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Friday, July 3, 2009

I'm scared.
I start my new job at the library on Monday and they STILL haven't given me my schedule. I don't know my hours yet! Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!

Eeeeeeeee!
I don't wanna grow up yet.
Please save me. ;_;
~Belinda
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Saturday, June 27, 2009

I wish I could shut my playboy mouth
ANSWERS TO THINGS STEPHY RECENTLY ASKED ME:

1. Who's your favorite female singer?
It's a 3-way tye between Rihanna, Lady Gaga, and Kelly Clarkson.

2.Is there a language you'd like to learn?
Either Nihango (Japanese) or die Duetsch.

3.What's your favorite kind of clothes?
Sort of gothic, futuristic. Pretty much 90 percent of Hot Topic stuff.

4.Do you like flip-flops?
Yes'm. Not that much though. They hurt my feet if I wear them too long.

5. Do you like your hair-style?
Eh. It's alright, I guess. Truth be told, I'm never satisfied with my hair.

6. What color would you like to dye your hair?
Eh. I'm done with dye for a long, long time, if not forever. The last time I tried to dye my hair, my scalp started burning.

7.Do you paint your fingernails?
No, but I paint my toe-nails. They last longer.

8.After a shower, do you blowdry your hair?
Sometimes. Not usually. I'm too lazy to bother with that crap.

9. Do you like candles?
Yes. Especially the ones that keep mosquitoes away.

10. Do you like plants?
As long as I don't have to grow them, yes.

11. Do you like flowers?
Again: As long as I don't have to grow them. Flowers are plants, silly.

12. What's your favorite flower?
I don't know. I've never really thought about it before. Probably tulips, because they're the easiest to draw.

13. What's your favorite planet?
Earth. I haven't been to any of the other ones yet. lol

14. Do you plan to go to college.
Yes, ma'am.

15. Do you have a favorite quote or saying?
"YOU CAN LEAD A HORSE AWAY FROM YOUR WATER, BUT YOU CANNOT MAKE IT DIE OF SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION."

16. Who's your favorite author?
Hmmm... Good question. Honestly, I don't know. It changes every few weeks. Right now, I don't really have one.

17. Who's your favorite actor?
Leo DiCaprio (sp?) Mmm... Yummeh.

18. Who's your favorite actress?
Lindsay Lohan. I do not know why, but for some reason, no matter what she does, I always think she's one of the coolest people on the planet. I don't know, maybe it's just the characters she plays. *shrugs* In any case, ever since I saw her in Freaky Friday, she's been completely infallible to me.

19. Do you think you'd make a good actress?
Yup. Not only am I adorable as fuck, but I can also cry on command and... Basically, I can just really get deep into character.

20. Where's your favorite place to go on vacation?
FLORIDA~! lol I feel like such an old person, saying that.

21. What was your favorite TV show when you were little?
Barney and Thomas the Tank Engine. X3

22. What's your favorite TV show now?
It's a tie between Psych and The Mentalist, but the Mentalist ain't showing anymore.

23. If your room is all white, do you have posters or anything on the walls?
The walls...? Hell, I got stuff on the ceiling!

24. What's your favorite food?
Any kind of pasta. Especially shrimp Languini.
Tehe. My taste buds are so Italian.

25. What food do you hate?
Mushrooms. EWWWW, FUNGUS!! I also don't like sushi either. :P

26. Do you like rece's cups?
Yes, but alas: I am no longer allowed to eat chocolate, so I can't have them anymore.

27. What about M&M's?
Same.

28. Do you like fishing?
Don't know. Never been fishing.

29. Do you like seafood?
As long as it's not sushi, of course.

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Stephy: omg! *tackles, glomp* You're back! I missed you! lmao Headless ducks. XD Sorry, I know that's disturbing, but that just struck me as funny for some reason. My favorite kind of potato chip is sour cream and onion. My favorite cookies are snicker doodles. My room is entirely white, although I'd much rather it'd be seafoam green or powdery blue or something. I'm too lazy to change it though. lol I have wood floors. Yeah, certain shades of orange are okay. I like really bright colors. My favorite season is probably Spring, because that's when everything's all new and shiny. lol That probably didn't make any sense, but do you know what I mean? Everything seems to come back from the dead in Spring. I like cats, just because they're usually quieter than dogs. Vegetables... Hm.... My favorite is zucchini, just because they have a funny name. ^^ In school, I'm probably best at art. English is now just one big migraine after another. Gym class... The only reason I liked it was because of my very best friends were in my class. No, I don't particularly like my name. I don't why, but I don't really like any name ending in "duh." It sounds obnoxious for some reason. My eyes are hazel. And, no, I never burnt my finger on a cigarette. Any other questions? lol

Cassie: Um... Your bandslash fanfiction begs to differ. lol

Dude. I feel completely lost. I don't know what to do anymore. It's all so monotonous, and there's nothing I can do about it.
ily
~Belinda
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