Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas, guys.

I got Folie a Deux, 100+ amounts of make-up, and Guitar Hero World Tour.
:))))))))))))) Wheeeeeeeeeeeee.


Also, a few weeks ago, I FINALLY finished reading Twilight, so now I can know what the hell everybody's talking about and not be all "wTF?!" at all you guy's Twilight references. Go me.

However, I do have bad news: I don't think I'll be posting more chapters of The Catalyst anytime soon.
Kinda in a rut with that shit, at the moment. '^^ Sorry, guys. *ish a whore for ruining Christmas* However, I do have one story to post that nobody ever got to read, and I really think you guys might like it. It's not exactly finished, but oh well. If you wanna read it, just PM me, and I'll send it to you.

I love you all. God bless.
~Love, Belinda
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Monday, December 22, 2008

So. My internet is FINALLY working again.
Meaning, you guys now have a perfectly valid reason to beat my sorry ass if I fail to update regularly.
Anyway, I missed you like no cheap allegory could describe and sooooooo, I shall now reply to all your comment love.

Fading Dreams: Haha. That's what everybody keeps telling me, but if the only guys who are right for me are the ones who like me before I like them, then I am either destined for a rapist pig or the convent. Which really wouldn't be so bad, except for the fact that I'm a complete hormonal sack of lust and romance. Yeah, I'd never thought I'd say this, but brown eyes are quite sexy. Or, at least, they are on him. Right up there with you on the daily bullshit, btw. I think I might be getting a fever from having to wait in negative something degree weather for my bus this morning.ily2 bby.

Megan: *scoff* Figures. But, hey, I guess the best things are the ones worth waiting for, right? Or, at the least, that's what I always tell myself. Missed you too.

Cassie:Um... Does one week later count as soon...? lol

Yeah, so anyway...
Here's what I've been up to:

Freezing to death in pre-dawn, December-at-it's-worst weather.

Wondering if That Guy got an over-night nose-job. His face looks incredibly, drastically different somehow.

Shivering ceaselessly.

Wishing Adam would just get over himself and jump up my butt... Or something. I don't know. I've been alone so long, I've completely reverted back to my primal, cave-women instincts. If those goes on much longer, I just might have to club the first smexy guy I see and drag him back to my cave. (Ehheh. Date-rape.'-_- Gawd, I'm pathetic.)

Feeling, once again, like a total emo whore sellout because I like Fallout Boy and Panic.

Getting dirty looks from Jordan The Pale Arab.

Being eyed suspiciously by the angel of death. (A.K.A. Dean)

And now just because I have nothing left to post, let's see what That Guy's been up to:

Declaring myspace gay.

Sulking about Bobby's new girlfriend.

Once again making me want to stomp his balls into fine, microscopic, useless bits of powder.

In other words: pretty much nothing has changed for him.
ok, ily all <33333333333333
~Love,Belinda

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Thursday, December 18, 2008

lol
I'm on a "blind date" right now. In school, of all places! XD This kid in my math class, Sean, tried to set me up with his friend, Charlie, but to be honest: Well... There's just nothing there.
Charlie's impossibly shy, so being around him is hella awkward, because I'm kinda shy too.
This new kid, Adam, however... Oh em jizzles.
I don't even know how to describe it. I just met him today in my resource class, but he can send shivers down my back just from clearing his throat or muttering something incoherently under his breath.
And it doesn't really make any sense, because he doesn't even look that great. Hell, he's butt ugly compared to That Guy, but... I dunno. I just can't think straight when I'm around him. Besides, he has the most beutiful, piercing, brown eyes.

In other news: That Guy and Ashley, this chick in my biology class, are probably going to start dating soon. ''''-__- Which, is a total insult to me, because one: Ashley can be God-awful annoying and two: she looks exactly like me, only shorter and with longer hair. Yeah, I nearly cried because of it yesterday, but whatever. I'm done caring. It's not worth the effort it takes to sigh over it.
Oh. And I'm using the computer in school, so, yes, my home computer/internet is still busted. *sob* I miss you guys. ;~;
How have you all been, anyway???? I mean, you know, besides emo and angsty and all that shiz?

I gotta go.
Bye. ily all
~Love, Belinda
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Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Hey. Just wanted to let you all know that my internet is STILL fucked up, so I STILL can't get on on a daily basis. T_T
The only reason I'm on now is because I managed to kiss up to my brothers ass enough to let me use his smexy computer for, like, 5 minutes.So it's not that I don't love you guys, because let me a assure you: I am dying inside from MyO withdraw with each passing day. I love you guys like a fat kid loves cake. Like the Amish love black. Like Goth stereo-types love death. Like my brother loves this computer. Like a potential serial killer/sniper loves first-person shooters.

Yeah. You get the point. So, anyway, I'm sorry I haven't been on and that I probably won't be on for, like, an eternity, but it simply cannot be helped. Now, real fast, things that have changed since I last updated:
1. This total douchebag of a freshman at my school, Dave, got a haircut that makes him look like a combination of an elf and a mutant canine just escaped from the clutches of the Demon Barber of Fleet Street.
2.Sebby's gonna be 16 tomorrow.
3. I am ghost. Actually, I've been a ghost, but I just last week figured out that I am literally emotionally dead inside and therefore might as well be completely dead.
4. Because I am dead, it turns out that nothing matters anymore. So to all those things I used to beat my head against the wall for the sake of, I have only this to say: I. DON'T. GIVE. A. FUCK.
Bring it on, bitches. Emotionally-speaking, I have nothing left to lose.

ANNNNNNNNNNND, that's pretty much it.
ily
~Love, Belinda <3 ^_^
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I'm boreddddddd!
You make my outsides shudder, you make my insides shatter.
I, I just can't keep it together.
Once again transfixed by broken fixes,
I just can't keep my eyes open.
"I wish I was a fly on the wall"...?
No. I wish I was her hand on your chest,
I wish you were the bite-marks on my neck.
2 whole years of relentless obsession.
They say it isn't healthy.
But maybe health isn't for everyone.

...Shit. I gotta go, guys. Sorry about the pointless post. My family just got home and my brother's going to boot me off the computer any second now. Nothing's really changed since the last time I posted though.
Dan's still a douche. So's pretty much every guy at my school, for that matter.'''-__-
But on the bright side: Winter break starts the day after tomorrow. Tis gonna be epic, y'all.

ily
~Love, Belinda
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Friday, November 14, 2008

I know I look like shit, but that's only because I feel like shit too

What Role Do You Play In An Anime?
Hosted By theOtaku.com: Anime
Hahahaha...
Now if only I had a master. And kitty ears.

Which SOS Brigade Member Are You?
Hosted By theOtaku.com: Anime
lol
I'm an alien.

What Loveless Character Are You?
Hosted By theOtaku.com: Anime
PEOPLE LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE MYSELF?!!?
But... That's so mean!~ ;~; *sob*

Oyyyyy.... I'm siiiiiiiiiiick, guys. '-__-
Sooooooooo sick. And tired. And sick of being sick and tired.
ily
~Love, Belinda
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Hey, guys.
Sorry i haven't been by in a few days. I'm actually having computer trouble right now so i probably won't be on here for a while. Sorry.
ily honeymuffins
~belinda
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Monday, November 10, 2008

Jenny: I know. How bloody dare they choose Pete Wentz over you? I mean, what, just because you and Cassie don't have naked pics of yourselves on the interweb, you're not cool enough to rock out with All Time Low? Damn these emo kids and their porn addiction!
Not that I'm really surprised though. All Time Low is from Maryland. And guys from Maryland tend to suck. A lot. Like a vaccuum cleaner, only worse, because there's no cleaning involved.

Megan: Broadening your horizons...? Is such a thing even possible for you? Can your horizons even get any bigger? Srsly. You know, like, 847239806034789045374897910479233782698762864782936728963493291012378497590623789499999
bands. Variety is literally your middle name. Megan Variety Royer, that's what it says on your birth certificate. I know because I recently stole a copy. ^^ tehe. Stalking is fun.
Yeah, Remembering Sunday's good. Breakout! Breakout! was the soundtrack to my Summer last year.

Welllllllllll, let's see...
My weekend included: strumming absentmindedly on my daddy's guitar, blissfully eating nothing but Halloween candy, reading mountains of manga, and walking around in below-zero-degree weather with Margret.
My today included: almost missing the bus, nearly getting my leg amputated off by my bestfriend's boyfriend's psychotic ex, astronomical migraines, getting my soul raped by the row of girls that sits in front of me in Spanish, being bitched up by some teacher, having my confidence crushed for the millionth time this year, a meltdown over what he'll always have that I'll always want, and a set of dark circles around my eyes for only getting 4 or 5 hours of sleep.

So, in conclusion, kiddies: Monday is the Devil's day.
Now, I'm gonna go stuff myself with unfathomable multitudes of whatever sugar I can find, just to make sure I mutate into the fat-ass, pathetic, miserable ex-wife stereo-type I'm destined to become. (APOLOGIES TO EX-WIVES EVERYWHERE)
I love you guys.
Times like these, you're one of the precious few luxuries I have left.
~Love, Belinda
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Friday, November 7, 2008

junhuihbuibguigbbyu.........
I'm too tired to be meaningful. -.-
And, honestly, I would do responses to comments today, but that would actually require thinking and reading and I simply cannot bring myself to do anymore of THAT today. Soooo...
How was everybody's Friday?

Mine was okay. It's definitely better now that it's over. No, really, it was a perfectly average, non-traumatic day. It's just that I was a walking corpse throughout it. '-__- Hell, I honestly almost didn't even get up in the morning, I was so tired.
Oh, and we got H.D. today. 900 channels, and we have no idea what to watch. Maybe that's why kids like me are never trusted with variety in life: we're too indecisive. We'd never be able to make up our minds if we got to choose for ourselves. So our lives are left up to God's well. Or chance, for those of you who don't believe in God.

Oy... I've got Running From Lions by All Time Low stuck in my head. Well, just a fraction of it really, but it won't stop playing. "Don't forget, we've got unfinished business... Running from lions never felt like such a mistake. Running from lions never felt like such a mistake. Running from lions never felt like such a..."
And it's really weird, because those 2 lines are really far apart from each other in the song. Lol

I love that line.
"Like a deer in caught in the headlights, I won't know what hit me."
ily
~Love, Belinda
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008

School was actually pretty good today.
I had fun, shockingly enough. It was the first time in 2 months where I didn't feel completely insecure, as if I could break down at any given moment. For the first time in the longest time, it was "nothing to fear but fear itself."

But I feel really lonely right now. I always seem to feel all alone and cold at this time of the day. But MyO usually makes it worse for some reason. This site always feels dead to me whenever I log on these days. Mostly because the majority of my friends don't update anymore. :[
I miss them bitches.
lol Everyone has a life these days except me. Figures.

Hey, Lavi love, how you been?
How was the wedding?
How's Berlin?
In case you're curious, I'm going insane again.
But this time, it's only because I have nowhere else left to go.
Sick and tired of fore-feeding myself pills and pigeon-holes when the only thing I'm ever hungry for is you.
Half-way around the world, and your eyes still follow me everywhere I go.
But it's okay, keep staring right into me,
Just never go through.
Because I could never survive being nothing more than a ghost to you.
And logic says: I have nothing to gain from this.
But survey says: so what? I don't have anything to lose either.

ily
~Love, Belinda
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