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Damn. I'm tired.
Been studying Japanese all day.'''-__-
So let's see.
I've spent the Summer trying to learn German, Japanese, how to sing properly, and have spent at least 50 hours attempting to record a decent song. The results?
My brain itches and I now hate my voice with a passion about 20 times more intense than I did 3 months ago.
Oy.... Ambition is so, so lost on me.
Ich liebe sie. zuruck schulzeit, I guess.
<3, Belinda Comments (0) |
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
You've got nice lipstick. I like that.
I got the Cab's CD. It's awesome.
My personal favorite is "One of THOSE Nights." It sounds bloody amazing. I love this band.
Although, I must admit, they sound a little bit like the Backstreet Boys with guitars. XD But they make it work, so whatever.
Oh, and a few weeks ago, I saw the Dark Knight. LOVED IT. You what other BatMan-related production I love? This one:
Dayuuuumnnnnnnn
Found HE-WHO-MUST-NOT-NAMED'S myspace the other day. (No, not Lord Voldemort.''-__-)
BUT THAT'S ALL I'M GOING TO SAY ABOUT IT!!!
In other news, I woke up extremely early today. At, like, 3. Read some extremely crappy Gravitation fan fiction for a while, then went to watch this weird lawyer drama show, called The Practice. Most of the acting was pretty bad. I was like cracking up through the whole thing. XD
Also, I'm pretty sure the end of the world is coming, as, for once, NO ONE is breathing down my neck to get off the computer. (I know. Scary, right?)
A few minutes later...
No. Wait. Spoke too soon. My mom made me get off for a minute and now my little sister tells me she's still.
So, apparently, Armageddon has yet to arrive after all. What a relief.''-__-
Also, I've just realized that I haven't tortured any of with my depressing, incoherent poetry in ages. Well, sadly it's been a pretty uninspiring summer, so I've got nothing, poetry-wise.
But don't despair. I promise the school year will most likely be filled with so much adversity, I won't help but be able to write a lyrical, rhyming suicide note every day.^^ Comments (0) |
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
arrrrgh
I'm not okay.
Still can't stop thinking about Danny. It's driving me insane. I had a dream last night where I got my hair cut ultra short and Dan didn't recognize me, so he started talking to me about random shit. At one point in said dream, he thought I was a guy and I think he might've even gone a little gay for me. XD
Anyway, I'm bloody miserable now. I really, really can't take this, guys. Comments (0) |
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Tuesday, August 5, 2008
blahhhhh
Been counting the days til school starts up.
Tis driving me insane. I keep having fantasies about Dannyko. ''-__- Damn this obsessive, masochistic nature of mine...!
Anyway, I just wish the school-year would start up again so I could get emotionally shot down by that Bitch again and therefore never have to get my hopes up again. It's just torturing myself to hope for even the smallest tryst. All I'm asking for this time is that the kid finishes me off so I can stop driving myself insane.
After all, even if did turn into something worth talking about, God knows I'm better off alone. Every heart I'm entrusted with, I break. Every single relationship, I screwed up. I just don't think it's worth it anymore. And that's fine.
Because, honestly, I can take being dateless and sexless. I've been "tolerating" it all my life and you what? I kinda like it. I'm happier this way. I'm free.
And the only time I'm ever lonely or ever crave something more is when I start comparing myself to other people, to those who are never single and are perfectly happy to be tied down to another person.
But I'm not them. And I never will be. I think I finally learned to accept that.
I also think that as soon as I come back and read this, I'm going to have a total "OH MY GAWRSH, WHAT WAS I THINKING WHEN I WROTE THIS OVER-EMOTIONAL BULLSHIT?!" moment. I personally blame the manga. I've been reading soap opera-esque, yaoi romances all day. '-__-
Best break up ever
Just got off the phone with Hunter. He broke up with me.''-__- Beat me to the punch, the little bastard!
But in all honesty, I was never really that in love with him anyway. He was just too young and immature for me. Not to mention, I've had it up to my ears with this long distance relationship bullshit.
Although, I must admit, there's still a very bitter, angry, betrayed feeling somewhere deep inside me. This probably is either because 1: he broke up with me before I could do it to him or 2:when he dumped he used that oh-so-putridly over-used "If you love something, let it go" cliche. Probably the latter. I mean, let's face it: it makes absolutely no sense to tell someone you love them as you're breaking up with them.
But, on the brightest of bright sides: I am now free to dream of hot, steamy, erotic, continuous seckz with That Bitch without a single trace of guilt. I HAVE NO SHAME!!!!:P
oyyyyyyyyy
Major lurve drama, y'all.
I think Hunter's avoiding me. He hasn't called in forever. And whenever I try to call him, after about 2 seconds, he's always like "I gotta go." And he hasn't been returning my messages on myspace either.
Seriously.
Somethings definitely up. Comments (0) |
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Friday, August 1, 2008
lyrics, yo.
I never could roll with the punches.
So I might as well swing with my moods.
The boys eyes were always as dead as the anti-moon
But I never could resist their gravitational pull.
I learned from the best how to be casually obsessed.
He taught me this routine, so here's my recital
Well, us tragic poets were never meant to be stoics.
You can't utilize your blood, sweat, and tears if you don't know how to cry.
The only thing worse than the sighing is the silence.
Stuck in a psychological playground again
My mind is having mood-swings,
My emotions are sea-sawing.
I just can't seem to get my heart to sit still.
So prescribe me some Ritalin and try to hold me down.
Because God knows this is the closest you'll
ever get to holding me back.
The boys eyes were as brown and green as this Summer scene.
He never really did anything for me,
But he had his uses.
He was one of my most inspiring miser muses.
Oh, us tragic poets were never meant to be stoics.
How could I have utilized my blood, sweat, and tears if I never learned how to cry?
Really, I can take being denied 1000 times.
It's having to stare at these blank pages for more than a minute that kills me inside.
yuifvtuic
Working on the Catalyst again. The writers block demon has taken possession of me once more and I'm more or less completely stuck. Ergh...'''-___-
But, on the bright side, I have a slurpee.
It is bloody 4 o clock in the morning.
We got back from Hershey Park at midnight, but being the manic little writer I am, I got up at about 3 to work on The Catalyst. '''-__-
Well, nobody say i was never dedicated.
Thing is, though, I'm bloody starving, but I'm afraid to go downstairs to the kitchen because people might be sleeping down there. '''-__-
Oyyyyyyy...
First I'm a starving artist, now I'm a a starving AND sleep-deprived artist.
IT'S NOT FRICKIN FAIR, MAN!!! >,< Comments (0) |
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