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Welcome to my site archives. 10 posts are listed per page.
*sigh* I'm at the library right now. Finally managed to get out of this house. So why do I feel so imprisoned? I just wanna get outta this damn town. Which is okay, because we're going to Hershey park tomorrow. I only have 18 mins left on this damn library computer. Actually, 17 and counting. This totally sucks. I'm about to throw up... Comments (4) |
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Saturday, June 16, 2007
I dunnnn feeeeeeeeel goooooooooooooood!
*deep breath* I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. FIRST I'M SEETHING WITH HATRED, NOW I'M SEETHING WITH JEALOUSY. HAVING A BIT OF A FLASH-BACK RIGHT NOW... CAN'T GET OVER WHAT SOME KID DID TO ME A YEAR AGO. I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING ABOUT IT, SO I'M JUST GONNA RHYME ABOUT.
This is for making me care.
This is for what we couldn't share.
This is for making me feel ashamed.
And this is for all the games you played.
Don't know, I'm just not feeling like dealing with it today.
So when I put my fists and kicks to your cuts, please try to understand that it's exactly what you deserve.
And when I re-open your cuts and you lose the feeling in your gut, would you still be able to say you have it better than me?
Wasted intros and wounded egos.Sound familiar?
Revange? No, just a bit of creative karma.
This is for putting me through all the drama.
This is for telling me there's everything or something wrong with me.
This is for inviting me in just to kick me out.
And this is for all the millenia of self-doubt.
UH-HUH. IT'S ANGRY, IT'S ANGSTY, IT'S HATEFUL, AND IT'S THERE. CHOKE ON IT. I'M GONNA GO SQUASH SOME SKULLS NOW. EROS!~Shadowme Comments (4) |
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Thursday, June 14, 2007
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I AM SEEEEEEEEEEETHING WITH HATRED RIGHT NOW. T-T
THIS CALLS FOR INCOHERENT POETRY...
The note says that I lost my point, but I never really had it.
Hallucinating? No, just wishful thinking that might be a little too convincing.
And in this dark stage, I'm just one last descent away from being a certified basket case.
They say it's just a phase, a temporary craze.
But when I'm this unsustained, good luck getting me outta this daze.
When the truth hurts this much, it's just not worth escaping the haze.
Whatever keeps me sane, whatever keeps you unfeigned. Comments (3) |
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
HARNESS THE POWER OF 400 BABIES!!!
Oy. My mom had to have surgeory today to get her kidney-stone out. Right now, she's upstairs, sleeping. Shyeah, she's pretty wiped out. Anyway, I guess I'll reply to comments now.
lost soal: Well, either way thanks. Sanity is over-rated.
Aaya:Hell yeah, that retreat would be SO freakin' relieving. I'd totally go too. And don't worry about the kidd-napping, if you leave my parents a nice note saying where I am and why you took me and all that, then I'm sure they wouldn't sue you. Much.
Shallow Heart: I know. The mall makes me dizzy. It's just so damn big!
redmoonchick: Yeah, let's all go away and start that retreat for depressed otaku Aaya was talking about. Three cheers for sweet relief!
Stefani/A13: Oh, yeah, vacation! Good idea, where should we go?
And now for the youtube/Heavan-sent distraction of the day!
*SIGH* I feel like a freakin' starving artist. No worse than that, I feel like a starving attention whore who WANTS to be an artist.*kicks bottle-cap* Let's all slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful...
-__- Oy.....EVERYTHINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *breaks down in tears* My family is so fucking loud.And I'm so,so,so,so, soooooooooo sick of this place. I don't know, I just need a break from it. From my family, from my home, from my anxiety, from my story... Basically, I need a break from life. It doesn't have to be anything fancy or nothing, for all I care it can be as trivial as going pants-shopping at the mall. But for Gods sake, PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAASE GET ME OUTTA HERE!!! My brothers trying to read over my shoulder now. No wait, nevermind. Anyway... Make with the distractions, youtube!
The Catalyst, chaptor four (don't worry, this one's wicked short)
I think somewhere around mid-night, that night, I wrote this in my zombie-like state of sleep deprivation to make sure I didn’t forgot today and, well, just because I’m weird. Very weird. NOW LET THE CONFUSION AND SARCASTIC BABBLING/RHYMING BEGIN!
Reunited with a choke-hold ,ransomed without any gold.
You pretend you what it means, I’ll pretend it has a meaning. (Oh, incoherent poetry for the sardonically seething!)
“A barren womb,” “an abandoned tomb,” “This haunted room…”
It’s the same story with a different cover, but we’re only judging the book by it’s publisher. After all, the pages are too frayed to read and so is the author.
And, well, I admit and I confess: none of this really makes sense. It’s true, I know. Yeah, I know this.
But, it’s never what you show, it’s how you show it.
So give me a dream and some sleep, I’ll give you a master-piece.
Give you a dream and some peace, I’ll get me some sleep.
And, yeah, Mr.MadHatter of the Webzines, I know all about and your “secret dream.”
Well, aren’t we just bursting at the seams to cause some intrigue? And, whatever happened to “seen and not scene” ?
So Mr.Incoherent poet writes under the influence of Melatonin? But, of course, you ain’t telling.
Associating with theatrical fakes and wearing chronic head-aches. You look for the hidden meaning, and I’ll pretend there is one.
Uh-huh. Incoherent poetry, gangsta. And, for anyone who cares, after finishing this, I instantly collapsed then and there into my half-finished pile of home-work. The estimated time was 12:31. School’s at 5:00. And I have to wake up for it at 3:58. You do the math.
It's Jason Wenterzs (belated) birthday!
I just found out Fallout Boy was on TRL yesterday...AND I TOTALLY MISSED 'EM!!! ;~; Shyeah, apparently it was Pete Wentz's birthday. So, since this was the special event of the anniversary of everyones favorite "human mardi gras decoration," I figure this calls for a special belated birthday roast. LET THE WENTZ-ROASTING BEGIN!!!
"WHERE THE HECK IS MY DOOOOOOOOOOG?!?!" Lmao. Best FOB parody EVER. XD
Ahhh, Terrance the emo. Love ya, man. Well, I'd say that's enough Wentz bashing for 1 birthday, wouldn't you?... No? Too bad, I'm out. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PETERRRRRRRRRR,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PETERRRRRRRR!~Shadowmesta Comments (2) |
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Let the transformation begin!
I'm getting my hair cut (and re-dyed blue) today...And my bro showed me World of War craft just now. I GET KILLED BY A MOTHER-(FJFNIA)ING BANDIT!!! T.T juernhi8whf... And then I got pwned by a wolf. ;_; I DUN WANNA BE A WARRIOR NO MORE! *crawls under rock to escape bandits/wolves* Hide me... Comments (4) |
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Saturday, June 2, 2007
fwsfrs
Had a car-wash today... Twas fun. The ladys who organized said wash called us the dream-team because we washed the most cars. (20 or 19 cars!) And guess what: I also learned a new word:Bakayaru. Japanese for "basterd." XD
No more cookies for you
....You guys suck... *kicks comments*
No cookies for you. *takes away cookies*
And now for my semi-daily emo fest.
Shyeah... Feeling like a starving artist right now, but that's what I get for taking pride in my work, right?
By the way, I was doing research for my F.O.B. semi-fan fict (The Catalyst) by watching their interviews on youtube just now and I had the most horrifying thought: what if I met the band in person and they somehow came across said semi-fan fict then figured that Mobile Fallout Shelter was code for them?... Would laugh, cry, or kick my ass, I wonder? I mean, I know they're used to cruel criticism, but still... *shudders* Well, I'm gonna go look for Wentz yaoi on fanfiction.net. Eros! Comments (4) |
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!