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Birthday
• 1993-05-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Here
Member Since
• 2005-05-30
Occupation
• Life preserver :)
Real Name
• Belina

Personal

Achievements
• http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said
Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
Favorite Anime
• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
Goals
• Make it out of here in one piece
Hobbies
• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
Talents
• :)

myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

blahhhhh
Been counting the days til school starts up.
Tis driving me insane. I keep having fantasies about Dannyko. ''-__- Damn this obsessive, masochistic nature of mine...!
Anyway, I just wish the school-year would start up again so I could get emotionally shot down by that Bitch again and therefore never have to get my hopes up again. It's just torturing myself to hope for even the smallest tryst. All I'm asking for this time is that the kid finishes me off so I can stop driving myself insane.
After all, even if did turn into something worth talking about, God knows I'm better off alone. Every heart I'm entrusted with, I break. Every single relationship, I screwed up. I just don't think it's worth it anymore. And that's fine.
Because, honestly, I can take being dateless and sexless. I've been "tolerating" it all my life and you what? I kinda like it. I'm happier this way. I'm free.
And the only time I'm ever lonely or ever crave something more is when I start comparing myself to other people, to those who are never single and are perfectly happy to be tied down to another person.
But I'm not them. And I never will be. I think I finally learned to accept that.

I also think that as soon as I come back and read this, I'm going to have a total "OH MY GAWRSH, WHAT WAS I THINKING WHEN I WROTE THIS OVER-EMOTIONAL BULLSHIT?!" moment. I personally blame the manga. I've been reading soap opera-esque, yaoi romances all day. '-__-

iLY
~Shadowme~
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