myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

myO Still <3's You

Vitals

Birthday
• 1993-05-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Here
Member Since
• 2005-05-30
Occupation
• Life preserver :)
Real Name
• Belina

Personal

Achievements
• http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said
Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
Favorite Anime
• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
Goals
• Make it out of here in one piece
Hobbies
• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
Talents
• :)

myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

School was actually pretty good today.
I had fun, shockingly enough. It was the first time in 2 months where I didn't feel completely insecure, as if I could break down at any given moment. For the first time in the longest time, it was "nothing to fear but fear itself."

But I feel really lonely right now. I always seem to feel all alone and cold at this time of the day. But MyO usually makes it worse for some reason. This site always feels dead to me whenever I log on these days. Mostly because the majority of my friends don't update anymore. :[
I miss them bitches.
lol Everyone has a life these days except me. Figures.

Hey, Lavi love, how you been?
How was the wedding?
How's Berlin?
In case you're curious, I'm going insane again.
But this time, it's only because I have nowhere else left to go.
Sick and tired of fore-feeding myself pills and pigeon-holes when the only thing I'm ever hungry for is you.
Half-way around the world, and your eyes still follow me everywhere I go.
But it's okay, keep staring right into me,
Just never go through.
Because I could never survive being nothing more than a ghost to you.
And logic says: I have nothing to gain from this.
But survey says: so what? I don't have anything to lose either.

ily
~Love, Belinda
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