myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1993-05-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Here
Member Since
• 2005-05-30
Occupation
• Life preserver :)
Real Name
• Belina

Personal

Achievements
• http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said
Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
Favorite Anime
• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
Goals
• Make it out of here in one piece
Hobbies
• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
Talents
• :)

myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Hey, guys.
Thanks so much for all the comments.They really helped.
I'm just really going through some deep shit right now.
Like... I don't know what to call it. It's not really so much a self-loathing complex as much as it is an identity crises. See, I'm a completely different person depending on who I'm with and where I am. I've got a million different roles, and that means I gotta be a million different people to fill them all properly. In school, I gotta be the serious, professional, helpful student. At home, I gotta be the fun but responsible oldest sibling and/or second mother. With my friends, I gotta be the insane, funny, witty cynic with a heart of gold.
But when I'm stuck in just one role--in the dreamy-eyed, in love, oh-so-sickeningly obsessed girlfriend role--it completely throws me off, and interferes with all the other parts I have to be. And, well, it's just frustrating, you know?
Because each and every role I play, no matter how diverse or seemingly contradictory, is a crucial part of who I am, and I don't want to lose it.
Anyway, thanks for listening.
ily all
~Belinda
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