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• Ever since Pokemon
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myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Spoke too soon on the party.

Mike's issues are driving me insane.

LOVE NEVER WANTED ME.

JGDGSJLDGJKLDSJGKLDSRJIL Everything fcking hurts! Couldn't sleep at all last night and now I feel like I'm rotting from the inside out. :(

Oy... I don't want to go into the whole "in love with semi-transsexual boy" again, but I guess in order to purge I have to.

After the mall, Mike showed up at the party, where I proceeded to basically be all over him because that's simply how I treat the guys I like and because he never protested.
And when I say "all over him," I don't mean anything really sexual, just a lot of hugging and putting my arm around him and harmless stuff like that.
I later found out the next day, however, that Mike briefly conversed about it with my best friend Margaret.
Basically, after I had rested my head on his chest for like ten or fifteen seconds, I had to leave the room because it was too noisy and I had to take a call from my dad.
While I was out of the room, Mike apparently looked upset, so Margaret asked him what was wrong, and he said something along the lines of, "I've got five girls looking to be with me and I don't want to be with any of them."

This pissed me off because one: I asked him almost throughout the entire course of the party if he was uncomfortable with the way I was treating him and he always said that it was fine.
If he wanted me to back off, he could've just told me and I would have!
Two: He always treated me like I was someone special to him--one of his very best friends--and then he goes ahead and refers to me as "problem girl number five." WHAT. THE. HELL!

I mean, I know I like him and he doesn't like me back but that doesn't mean he has to act as if he does.

In his defense, though, those probably weren't his exact words because Margaret has been known to misquote people a lot and I wasn't really in the room to hear him say it so I don't know if he was simply brooding over his own issues or actually expressing his distress over my clingy behavior. Twas probably the former. :/ I don't think he would be quite that vicious to do that to me.

Either way....Ugh. Complications!
ily
~Belinda
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