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• Belina

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• Ever since Pokemon
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myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

So me and Margaret broke up... again. Part of me hopes that it stays that way for a while because I'm getting really tired of this on again off again ulcer-giving business.

Thanks to copious amounts of caffeine, shed tears, hugs from Josh, and Erikness of my buddy Erik, I am strangely enough for the moment okay. But I know that won't last. It never does. And Josh is going to be unavailable for all the cuddling and sexual healing I need on Thursday, so I need ideas for something that is mildly self-destructive and irresponsible.

Things I've already eliminated are:

1. Anything sexual. I'm way too bashful to buy a dildo (hell, I wouldn't even know where to buy one) and as I said Josh is going to be unavailable and there's no way I'm cheating on him, so, yeah, no sex.

2. Illegal drugs. I really don't have the money or the motivation to buy them. Plus I'd definitely get hooked on them and I've got enough issues and addictions as it is.

3.Cutting. I already tried it. Didn't make me feel better. Just hurt and messed my arm up.

I'll probably just end up writing suicide notes in my diary or something equally pathetic/stupid.

Le siiigh. I'm getting depressed again already. '-___-
ily
~Belinda
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