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Birthday
• 1993-05-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Here
Member Since
• 2005-05-30
Occupation
• Life preserver :)
Real Name
• Belina

Personal

Achievements
• http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said
Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
Favorite Anime
• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
Goals
• Make it out of here in one piece
Hobbies
• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
Talents
• :)

myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Saturday, July 23, 2011

This is not just a fight with Margaret. This is permanent. It's over.
She's changed. I changed. I can't be her side kick anymore.

And while I know this is good for me and it was the right decision, it still hurts because I loved her. She was my best friend for thirteen years. We were sisters, comrades, a gay couple without the sex or the gayness.

So now I alternate from not feeling anything to breaking down in tears to having the urge to cut myself to occasionally wondering why I'm still alive.

You have to understand. She was a huge part of my life and now that she's gone there's this huge, gaping void in my life and my heart where she used to be.

And I'm sorry if I'm making anybody worry. That's not my intention. Most of the more dramatic stuff I say here is just to vent, to let it all out so I don't actually do any of it.

I'll be okay. It's going to take a while, but I'll be okay.

ily
~Belinda
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