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Friday, August 5, 2011

Lute, I think the point of the assignment was to surprise me with how much I'll change in a year or so. See, I still feel like I did when I was 16 but my therapist tells me I changed a lot since then so I guess it was sort of to prove her point.

Josh left a few hours ago to go to some birthday party for his brother. I couldn't come because my brothers play (The Rockin' Tale of Snow White) is tonight, but it doesn't start til around 7:30 so in the meantime I'm stuck here in this empty house with nothing to do but think and read books that make me think... This is not a good thing.

My mind doesn't always go to the best places when I think. Especially when I do it alone, for too long.

We're going away to North Carolina for a week and I'm scared out of my mind. A whole week without Josh. Yeah, I know it's probably pathetic I'm that attached to him but it's just how I am.

I mean, the two days I had to deal without him were torture. I survived, but they were torture. And now I have to go for a whole week?

I don't know about this. I don't have a choice but to go because my mom won't let me stay home alone, but I don't know about this. Things feel unstable enough already--not so much in my relationship with him but in everything else. Everything reeks of change and I don't know if I can handle it.

*sigh*
Sing it, Patrick.

I get so worried...
I get so alone...
ily
~Belinda
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