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• 2005-05-30
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• Belina

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Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
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• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
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• Make it out of here in one piece
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• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
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myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Sunday, August 7, 2011

A priest once told me apathy can kill you. I see what he means but is it really that much better to want to die?

Yeah, I know happiness is a factor somewhere in the equation, but my periods of joy are pure mania. No, not really the insane kind, but short, fragile, and unspeakably intense. All my highs usually lead to lows.

My therapist said I'm afraid to let myself be happy and she's right, but I am for good reason. Every time I soar, I end up crashing and the cycle just gets old after a while, you know?

Sometimes-like this one-I just want to be morose without being miserable, content without being over-joyed. It's so much less exhausting that way. I know it's a cowardly way to live but can't the world just let me dwell in the in-between for a little longer?

ily
~Belinda
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