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Friday, August 26, 2011

I changed my mind.
Instead of committing suicide and being all over-dramatic and stuff like I was going to do five minutes ago, I'm just going to do what the majority of the population does and live an extremely pointless, unhealthy existence.

It's like committing suicide, but in ultra slow motion.

Then again, I might just be writing this to be satirical and morbidly comical. Maybe I'm just stupid enough to be over this by tomorrow and go on naively believing things will get better and maybe it's not stupidity at all. Maybe I just need to get over myself and cheer the hell up--let the doctors poke and prod me into a porcelain, plastic, and safety glass life; let the drugs transform me from the inside-out. Medicate myself into happiness--or maybe just oblivion.

But that's all long-term, future stuff.

For now, just fuck it. Fuck CCBC and employment and the space in my head where a bullet should go.

If I have to kill any more time, I really might just kill myself.
ily
~Belinda
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