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• 1993-05-02
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• 2005-05-30
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• Belina

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• http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said
Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
Favorite Anime
• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
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• Make it out of here in one piece
Hobbies
• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
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myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I'm too sexy for my lack-of-car!
Thats right,I'm too sexy for my nothing!(I'll alert you the moment I start making sense.) So,are you all in the mood for a story? And when I say "story",I mean,like,3/4 paragraphs of words.So,its actually more of a preview,to see your reaction(s) to my latest thing/story.And it has nothing to with Sword Hearts,which I'm still working on.Anyway,I hope I don't regret this,but-here it is,my excuse for a project....

Am I strange? Of course I am.There shouldn't be a doubt about it,yet there is.I have no idea why there is.Everyone assures me I'm "strange".And I know they're right,I never rebled against the "EMO freak/cynical Basket Case" lable.And I honestly couldn't care less about all the other kids talking behind my back.Why? Because it is just such a riot that they think they're doing something "sneaky",something melicious.They think they're getting away with such a cruel,hurtful crime,that they're hurting me,that they're just SO powerful-when,in fact,the entier reason they do it,is because they're afraid of me; a mentally and physically ill,fragile six-teen-year-old girl.And the best part is,they think I don't know! Then again,it could just be my paranoia.I'm not completely sure.But there are deffinately people who gossip about me.I mean,I'm in high-school,therefore-gossip involving me in some embarassing,horrid way is unavoidable.

They probably call me things like "freak",and "psycho".Just because I know they're intentions,they're fears,they're motives-EVERYTHING.And that scares them beyond belief.Insults and fake indifferance are their only defence.They recongnize my ability,and they hate me for it.But I can't help it;I can't remember a time when I didn't have this ability.This ability to "read" people,just by looking at their eyes.Even when they don't show any out-ward sign at all,I know exactly what they're feeling,and what they intend to do about it.In fact,I can find out anything,except their exact thoughts.So,the idea that, in some strange way,I'm "normal",is probably only there,because my mind is playing tricks on me again.

And my mind playing tricks on me is proof that I'm strange,a regular BasketCase.Just as everyone else assumes.But I sappose you've heard that before,right? I mean,every teenager and young adult on the internet claims to be insane and/or world-dominating.But I'm one of the few who actually means it.And this "book",as it someday might be called,is nothing more then an explaination in the form of a story.So,don't worry.It shouldn't be too long.You'll be able to get back to reading your precious Harry Potter soon.But before that,I suppose you want me to tell you my name,right? Well,I'll use an alias,seeing as there are going to be secrets reveiled in this story that should never be told.And,I hate my real name,anyway.Its such a flashy,arogant name.I don't know why,but I find something very wrong with being named after a city/state.But don't be offended if your named after a place,as well.No doubt your name is still far better then mine.Really,why couldn't they have named me something normal,like "Paris",or "Londen"? I'd even settle for Marylynn or York.But,no,they just HAD to be original,didn't they! Oh well...I sappose it doesn't matter.

My alias,what should it be...? Let's see,what am I? Smart....Eloquent....Masochistic...Decieving....Oh,I know.Here it is,my alias-Mask.Yes,so very fitting of my personality.Or,at least,the one the rest of the world allows themselvs to see.Its actually more of a mood then a personality. Being insane can do that to you.The truth is,everything on the outside,not just the looks,but the lable(s),is just a mask,a shield to protect whatever is left of me thats real.Protect whatevers left of thats real from drowning in the remnents of "the Sickness."As a very wise lyricist once wrote,"We were meant to live for so much more.Have we lost ourselves? Someware we live inside." Thats me.Almost lost.Living someware inside.
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Well,ummmmmmm,that wasn't SO bad,was it? Please say "yes,it was okay." I know it was filled with drama,but...ALL NON-COMEDIES INVOLVING TEEENAGERS ARE DRAMATIC!!! I'm going to stop talking before...Well,May the awesomeness of anime be with you in a world of Care Bears..~Shadowme(Yuki Cold)~

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