I'm so happy! ^_^ My senior talent show is tomorrow! Midterms were highly stressful, but this makes up for the emotional trauma (half-joke) of the past few weeks. For my senior talent show we're doing the Hare Hare Yukai, as the grand finale of the show. It's going to be amazing! We practiced really hard so our syncing is pretty good (not perfect, but pretty good). Also, we have Zovi. He's our awesome friend and adorable mascot-character, dancing Yuki's role. Dancing Mikuru's role is my best friend Ambi-chan (who I've ranted about quite a few times in the past, she even joined my rant once). 2 other friends, who shall remain anonymous, are dancing as Kyon and Koizumi. As for Haruhi, the lead, that's me! The 3 major dancers, Me, Ambi, Zovi are all wearing sailor fuku. I have a Haruhi costume (which I cheated and bought off the internet), Ambi and Zovi both sewed their sailor fuku (they're talented), but are dressing as their own original characters. I'm so happy and hyped up and excited right now. I'm up at 1am posting because I can't sleep due to being overexcited. ^__^ Wow, emotional roller coaster these past few weeks. Uguu... I'm going to try and sleep again (probably won't succeed, it'll take another hour to fully wind down).
~xanth~
If you're unfamiliar with the dance, this is it! Although we did make a few modifications, we stayed pretty true to the original. ^_^
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
Uguu... it's late again... I don't wake up till noon on weekends, at which point, I'm afraid no one will know that I've posted, which defeats the purpose of me sharing my thoughts with everyone. So therefore I post at just after midnight... tired =__= If I posted at noon instead, would you guys still know?
Anime
*Created a MyAnimeList a while ago... I've decided to share. ^_^ Almost everything in the list is commented, so click more if you wish to see.
* Downloaded a bunch of stuff in uTorrent a few days ago..
** Finished Vampire Knight
** Finished Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan
** Finished rewatching Higurashi no Naku Koro ni Kai (does a very good job with explanations, though it lacks the horror element of the first series/season)
** Finished downloading Kanon (2006) again... I accidentally deleted that at some point TAT
** Perfect Blue should be done by now, so I'll start that once I get home
** Set up Clannad After Story to auto-download as new eps come out \(^o^)/ (I heavily recommend this anime. It's the best romance I've seen!)
Stress
Unfortunately, I'm still horribly stressed, for no good reason. Life just seems to be getting to me. Very small things seem to set me off. Uguu! I almost cried in front of my teacher because I wasn't able to finish my ultra-mega-big project on time, which triggered my nerves. Gao! It was so embarrassing! >_< I'm usually so much better than this!
Facebook
I finally got pressured into creating a Facebook account, when someone asked me for the millionth time "Do you have a Facebook?" Or some such. (I'm both too paranoid and too shy to put up a link here, I hope that you can forgive me! >.<) This is still my homepage though! ^_^ I don't plan on leaving anytime soon, I assure you! I love this place, even if I'm a bit of a hermit. ^////^; Wow, I've been on here since... 7th grade? I initially joined this with some friends, because it was unblocked at the school. It's blocked now, and I was Xanth591 then, but it's been a long time! I'll probably still be here next year when I start college. Hope I get accepted into my target! >/////<
Desktop
I forgot to show this to you guys! I made this before new year, and haven't bothered to refresh the screen shot. ^_^; I wanted to show it off to you guys because I feel proud of it. I want you to look at the customization NOT the wallpaper (that's downloaded)
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
Well... it's finally '09... The start of many new things. Also... they finally blocked MyO at my school. ;_; *sigh* And it's been unblocked as long as I can remember... Uguu... I'm tired right now... perhaps I'll finish posting in the morning... =_______=zzzzzZZZZZZ Midterms are coming up... and college applications... senior year is stressful and tiring. T___T I'll try to come back when I wake up tomorrow... if I can drag myself out of bed early enough... *falls asleep on keyboard*
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
I'm so exhausted these days. =__________= School is just extremely draining, as is college applications. TAT To be honest I haven't seen anyone outside of school (online or off) in like a month. I'm not sure what to say about my life these days. To be honest, there isn't much of one. I had a nervous breakdown last month. Since then, I haven't had the energy to feel nervous. Just constantly tired. Slightly dressive I guess. I feel like I've fallen into a funk and that I don't know how to break myself out of it. I'm sorry. You probably don't want to hear me ramble about how bad my obviously wonderful life is. I have no excuse to feel bad, and to whine and complain and carry on like I do. I have so much to be grateful for. I don't even have problems really. It's all in my head.
Halloween
Well Halloween went well. I got to see one of my Uncles and his cute babies. ^////^ They were really adorable. And! I got to dress up as Haruhi Suzumiya for Halloween! -^^- I wish I had a picture of myself to show you guys (actually I'm sure I do somewhere... I'm just not sure where...
Thanksgiving
Not much to say here... I feasted on yams. ^///^ Yams are good.
Moved
My mom got us a new house for Halloween. It's much bigger. I have my own bedroom now. And there are several bathrooms (no more waiting on line for the one bathroom >_<) I already set up my computer in my bedroom along with a new wireless printer.
KAITO "鬼と娘" with English Lyric
A really cute (if slightly sad) song/story about a girl (Miku, who doesn't sing in this vid) who falls in love with an oni (Kaito, the singer). ^w^ This is a Vocaloid PV, so the singing is synthesized (there's no human singing this). But I think that makes it cool. ^w^
Miku Picture
I've been working on a picture of Hatsune Miku (featured in the video above with Kaito). Originally, it was only to practice shading (someone else drew the lineart) but it's coming out really nicely, so I wanted to share. -^^- I feel proud. As you can see though, I still have to go through the details. I really want feedback and constructive criticism. Do you have any suggestions for my shading, or perhaps slight improvements to the color scheme (contrast, etc)?
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
For those of you that come back to visit this page, what makes you decide to come back? I'm notoriously bad at maaintaining my social life, even online. I rarely go visit people... And I feel horribly guilty T-T
School
Uguu... It's only October, and I'm already struggling in several classes at school. T-T Senior year now. I'm applying to college, and trying to make the November 15 deadline for early action. I feel stressed and disheartened... φ(_ _)Zzz *exhausted* But on the bright side, I get to create a new web site for the local Middle School. Should be very very fun! ^w^ *cheers up* I forgot to fix my layout here though... Well, I think I know the problem and how to fix it.
Halloween
On the bright side, only 15 more days till Halloween! This year I've decided to cosplay as Haruhi Suzumiya the protagonist of the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu). It's going to be so much fun. I can't wait. \(^o^)/ I sorta cheated with the cosplay, though. ^^" I lack the knowledge of how to sew, so I ended up paying a large sum of money to order a pre-made costume off the internet, which just recently arrived in the mail. It should still be fun though. If I buy a long blue wig, I could be Konata from Lucky Star (Raki Suta) What are you guys dressing up as for Halloween (if at all)?
Halloween Video
Vocaloid Dark Woods Circus
Japanese(＆Romaji)＆English Lyric:
Rin:
森のね 奥の奥にあるんだ
morino ne okuno okuni arunda
Woods behind the back of it that way.
そのサーカス
sono CIRCUS
The circus
座長は 大きな目に
zachou wa ookina meni
Chairman is a big eyes and
高い背 １０メートル
takai se jyuu metre
10-meter-tall
ＣＡＳＴは みんな愉快
CAST wa minna yukai
CAST everyone is jolly
形は 変だけれど
katachi wa hen dakeredo
it is strange shapes but
とっても 楽しいんだ
tottemo tanosiinda
everyone is fan
暗い森のサーカス
kurai morino CIRCUS
Dark woods circus
Rin＆Len:
ふたつ頭ーーみせーーもの
hutatsu atama-------mono
Two of the head --------(show)
Miku:
異形の歌姫に
igyouno utahime ni
A deformed diva
KAITO:
冷たいもの食べるの 青い獣が
tsumetai mono taberu no aoi kemonoga
The blue beast to eat cold
Miku:
望まれて産まれてきた訳じゃない この身体
nozomarete umarete kitawake jyanai kono karada
enyone never hope that I was born, (undesirable) in this body
なんでそんな目で見ているの？
nande sonna mede miteiruno?
Why do you look at me, like that?
顔が腐っていく
kaoga kusatteku
My face is rotten
Len:
苦しいよ 苦しくて仕方がないと
kurusiiyo kurusikute sikataga naito
I am Painful, much Painful, but can't help everyone
彼女は言ったんだ
kanojyowa ittanda
She said it
それでもこのサーカスは 続くんだ
soredemo kono CIRCUS wa tsuzukunda
but Still, we will continue this circus
(えいえんに！)
(Forever!)
Rin:
楽しいよ 楽しいよ
tanosiiyo tanosiiyo
It's fun, so fun
このサーカスは 楽しい
kono CIRCUS wa tanosii
This circus is fun
腐った実 溶ける目に
kusatta mi tokeru meni
Rotten fruit, to dissolve my eyes
爛れた 肌が映るの
tadareta hadaga utsuruno
My skin is fester ,on my eyes reflected
Miku:
しにたいよ しにたいよ
sinitaiyo sinitaiyo
I want to die, want to die
ここから出してください
kokokara dasite kudasai
Out of here, please
それは無理なことと 誰かが言っていた気がする
sorewa muri nakototo darekaga itteita kigasuru
It is impossible for anyone to say and feel
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
I'm nearly done with my new layout for homepage here on MyO... should be up sometime within the next few days... I finished the new layout (8/19/08). It took me about a week. (I apologize to Internet Explorer 6 and Mac Safari users... I'm working on it... T-T) I'm really really proud of it, and shall now proceed to fill your ears with volumes of bragging. ^___^ From the coding perspective, this is by 1000x my most advanced layout yet, save the website I created for my summer job. Look, the old MyO comments are back! This is because I've learned how to manipulate existing content, as well to automatically generate new stuff more to my liking. ^____________^ Wonderful, ne? I started to learn a new language this summer. But I'm still on a sentence-by-sentence level. I can't write paragraphs, or worse, pages! XD Yeah... I think computers make me a bit too excited. The only thing truly left for me to is to create some nice themes, since I don't want to be in solid colors forever (also, if I can't get this one to work, some of the new themes will be compatible with IE6/Safari)
Man, I miss this place. Although I really can't keep up with any form of social life, I'm still oddly attached to this place. ^^" You know, I first joined this website in 7th grade? I'll be starting my senior year of high school come September. (And I still have to write that d***ed college application essay) Crazy how time flies, isn't it?
So... what's happened since I last posted? Well, my birthday passed. School ended. I got my first boyfriend (parents don't approve T-T). I got my first paid job redesigning a local website. Looked up college information but procrastinated all writing. XD My father bought a house. My mother bought a bigger apartment. Have yet to move into either. My summer job ends this friday. Mother's birthday is next week. School starts again the week after. I forgot to sign up for my senior photo, and my AP test scores still haven't arrived in the mail (I've given up waiting, I'll ask my guidance councelor when school starts). So much has happened in the past few months, I rather wonder where all this time goes?
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
So much to say, but I'll say that later. Right now I'm working on a new layout. I take great pride in the fact that I create my layouts from scratch. This is just a rough sketch/preview using solid colors. Below is some dummy text to fill up the page. What do you think?
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
Yay! It's my birthday today! Yes, I realize, never seem to come here and post anymore. I've never been very good at maintaining a social life, online or off, but yay! It's my birthday! ^____^ *throws confetti up into the air* Cookies for all!! *hands out cookies for everyone* We're gonna go visit my grandma later today to jointly celebrate mother's day and my birthday.
New Computer
Well, for my birthday, I treated myself by installing a "new computer", the latest version of Ubuntu Linux. After the initial aggravation of setting up my internet (as it turned out I over looked something really simple -_-") everything went smoothly. So far, I'm pretty happy with it. I've already installed a bunch of new programs. Free stuff makes me happy. Especially when it's legal. Also, on my Windows, I managed to obtain administrator rights because up till now I've been using a guest account.
Crap
Well, in other aspects of my life. Things aren't that great. My relationship with my mother is getting worse. I don't know why.... T-T She just gets so angry. Even when I do everything I'm supposed to do, there's always something wrong. It's draining... She's angry again now. I don't understand why. T-T
I took my Bio AP, and my Bio SAT. My school grades sunk considerably in that time period. On the bright side, my US teacher said he'd let me make up my work for most of the credit because it was AP week, and I was under stress.
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
I don't know what to say. There have been a lot of ups and downs lately, and I've been rather depressed, which is why I haven't been talking to people. I can't guarantee I'll go back to talking to people anytime soon either.
Downs
On the down side, I've been bickering with my parents. My mother recently told me that she hated me. It makes me sad, because I love my parents, and I don't know what I've done to deserve hatred. T-T I don't know what to think. I feel that everyone around me is stressed out beyond belief. I don't know what or why, because my parents don't tell me when things are wrong, and it makes me paranoid. >_< I don't know what to do, because I want to make them better, only I don't think I can. Is there anything I can do? I'm only one person, and I'm not even out of high school yet. O_O
Ups
On the up side I got my first SAT back about an hour ago. I did insanely well on the reading and writing, yet rather bad at the math (I never did like math). XD I was very surprised that I did well on the essay. I had braced myself for a perfect zero, because I thought I was off-topic. Our topic was something along the lines of teamwork vs individualism, and I wrote about the utopian socialists. How are they related? That's a very good question! XD
One of my friends lent me an RPG, Tales of the Abyss, about two weeks ago. I've been having a lot of fun with it. I also bought the first .Hack game, and Xenosaga, although I haven't really played either yet.
Bye
The bell's ringing, and I have to go to physic now. I'll see you.
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
So... the big "superbowl sunday" was yesterday. Did I spend it watching the big football game? Nope! I spent it watching anime! -^^- Namely this weeks episode of Clannad, and more Death Note. As it turns out, I got bored of death note really quickly. I made it to season 2, only the new plotline doesn't look very promising. I enjoyed Clannad, as usual, it's what I based the new theme on. More specifically I based the new theme off the ending theme of Clannad, Dango Daikazoku. Well, I have to go to school now, so I'll see you all later! ♥
Dango Daikazoku
This is the inspiration behind the theme. Watch it! It's insanely cute! ^///^
