Once again, I'm so sorry that I'm neglecting my site at MyOtaku. I miss my blog. Sadly though, I don't think I'll be able to visit sites or anything tomorrow. Thank you so much for those of you who come to visit me, even though I've been so bad about this lately. ^^" I want to visit your sites... but I have to go visit friends of the family (again ><) tomorrow. And all the files for my completed website (for Web Design class) or due on Tuesday, and I still have a lot of work to do, since I'm handcoding everything (Macromedia Dreamweaver refused to install on my computer, stupid machine +_+)
I actually have a lot to post today, or more approriately, tonight. It's 1:52am right now. I just got back from a party. It was sorta weird, it felt like a birthday party, even though it wasn't. We didn't really do much at the party, mostly just hanging around talking.
*sigh* This is going to sound really random. I feel guilty. One of my friends broke up with her boyfriend, and I never found out until she started talking about him in the past tense at the party today. I didn't know what to say to her, so I just sat there like an idiot not saying anything. I can't explain why this makes me feel guilty somehow, like I've been a bad friend, and that I've been neglecting her, and that I should have known what was going on. I feel like I should make it up to her somehow, although logic tells me I've done nothing wrong. T-T Logic also tells me that this all probably in my head, since she hasn't said anything to me inparticular. But then again, I haven't seen her much lately, does she still consider me a friend? I'm sorry, her breaking up with her boyfriend is completely unrelated to anything, yet strangely it makes me feel guilty.
I know this is the wrong place to talk. But I don't know who to talk to for real. When I'm upset, I don't talk to people. Which of course, makes me more upset. It's a little bit of a vicious cycle. Has anyone noticed that I've been feeling on the depressive side lately? *sigh* I'm definitely hypocritical. I hate it when people mope, yet here I am: moping and sulking and feeling sorry for myself for no reason, just like an idiot. Maybe it's just some sort of weird mood that will eventually pass.
In other news, I went on a Chorus fieldtrip to go see the Broadway musical Chicago on Wednesday. It was nice, but not great. I really liked the dancing, but the singing and acting, to me just seemed OK. On Friday was the school "Olympics", which is a sport competition that everyone in the school competes in. I was on the DDR team, and I almost scored a full combo (when you get all "perfects" and "greats" and don't miss a single step) on my dance. I missed to steps at the end, but still, I did really well. It made me happy. We kicked ass at DDR. For the rest of the day I hung out in the school library because I hate watching sports I didn't where my friends were, or at least the few who weren't watching sports.
I love you guys. It's sort of weird to say this to people online, but I do. -^^- My blog is one of the few places where I feel like I can really be myself, in a way I can't be when I'm offline. *gives everyone who visits a really huge hug*
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~xanth~
May the gods of sporks and insanity be with you,
~Xanth~
