Birthday • 1989-07-26 Gender •
Male Member Since • 2007-01-21 Occupation • commercial artist
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Achievements • becoming a commercial artist Anime Fan Since • 1992 Favorite Anime • Dragon Ball, Super Robot Taisen OG: The Inspector, GetBackers, Fantastic Children, Yu Yu Hakusho, Mobile Suit Gundam 0083: Stardust Memory Goals • To get into comics (this is very close to happening) Hobbies • model kit building
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
Relaxed
I just heard this song this morning and I already like it. It relaxes me, reminds me of a time in my life when things were good. Back when I was still just a little kid. Reminds me of growing up in Connecticut and even a bit of Chicago too.
Thanks to those who saw my last post all both of you, literally. Oh and thank God you understood the post Caprisha, if you didn't I would've gotten more depressed and begin to question if I can even speak right. Yes, it was a message. See I hate to say how I feel out and out especially online so I like to put hints and stuff up, but most of the time people either don't notice or don't care. I just don't like saying out and out "I'm depressed I feel like crap" so I put up a song that pretty much says how I felt.
You know I've noticed I seem to feel I'm in a lot of ways like a character from Grand Theft Auto named Dwayne. If you choose to spare his life you can be friends and learn more about him. The way he feels and is now is how I am here. Once he ran a gang and owned a bunch of places and was a high roller now, no one seems to care (except you if you spared him) and he is living in a cheap apartment and all. Feels like how I am, before I was up there and people seemed to care and it looked like I may even get somewhere with my art. But now, I'm hmm how do you say... abandoned... ALMOST. There are still some of you that stick by Tommy and Caprisha thank you guys. The thing is not only do I feel hardly cares what I'm saying. "You all have love for a fool at the top and don't know a fool at the bottom. Out." But I also feel I just don't have it as an artist either. Well, the artist part is resolved I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE. If you don't like my style, tough. Some things I understand but most of the time I feel people are getting at me for what's just my style man. I want things to look a certain way and I was looking at other things, cartoons, namely Family Guy and The Simpsons and I was thinking "my stuff looks about the same" The stuff I was hearing was to do this extra bit or add more here and stuff. Ever thought I wanted to look like he's glowing? Or that I like the way the colors look? So just because it isn't what you're used to seeing it's automatically bad? I thought art could be anything. Of course I'm not saying I don't need critique that would be EXTREMELY ARROGANT of me. I'm saying think of the person's style first, how they want it to look, even if they don't say it look at it and think "how does this person want it to look like in their head"
Anything else? Ah, nobody reads this anymore... wait! Yeah, one more thing the people I'm talking about are those that just skip me over I'm not talking about you guys who are legitimately gone like you were on vacation or had internet troubles or what have you. I know because I always feel bad reading those and I always say "I'm not talking about you!" :(
