Monday, November 10, 2008

YAY! XD
OMFG! ROSIE HAS A CELL! XD

ah man, i got all excited, i sent you a PM with my new cell # sweetie. i don't have my old cell anymore i lost it somewhere in the apartment.

well i went shopping today, i went to the Claire's today and i bought a Tiara, some Nightmare Before X-mas gloves, there fucking sweet! i'mma tak a picture of them and show you guys. and my mom and i went to get somethin' to eat, what sucks is i can't spend all my money and i have to pay my fuckin cell bill. Brutal.

but if i didn't pay my bill i wouldn't be able to txt mah sweet Rosie now would i? ^_^ so now i really have to pay it but that's on the 15th of this month.

alright well i'mma go hang out with my homies and my Juggalo homies, ttyl guys, take care! :)

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Saturday, November 8, 2008

King Of The World! XD
hey my babies! ^_^ *hugs all* how's it? i'm doing good, enjoying my saturday evening, fixing to have a 'Fright Night' i'm going to be watching alot of horror movies in my room. i dunno what it is with horror movies and me it just brings out the happiness in me. it's odd but you should see how it is when i watch a scray movie, my eyes light up and i start smiling. i dunno i guess they make me happy or something XD so i put a new pic of me on my Pro, my mama loves it, she told me that it looks nothing like me. i told her 'who else can rock a septum piercing like me!?' XD Lmfhao! Greg Says septum piercing's are nasty! but they look sexy on me, Lol. i look like i'm blonde in the picture O_O Lol well anyways, i hope you all like it. i have this one picture i took and a friend of mine said it looks 'Marilyn Monroe-ish' Lol. Greg still doesn't understand why the men i was with would want to leave me for, he said i'm such a beautiful person, by personality and looks. i told him it's because of my mental illness an
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Friday, November 7, 2008

She's Got A Body Like A Battle Axe!
Hey Kiddos! *hugs all* how's it? i've been good, Music and friends have been bringing me back. i'm fixing to put one of my favorite songs up it's fuckin' awesome! XD alright well Greggy called me and we did our usual chatter, Lol. He told me that there's three guys he knows that want to go out with me. :O i told him to tell them that there wasting there sweet time on me and to forget about it 'cause at this time & moment i'm not thinking of shit like that, if they want my friendship then cool but i don't need no one, romantically. it may be some years before i get some one. i just can't throw my heart out there anymore, just let me hang on to it.

i was talking to a friend of mine he's originally from Chi-town and i told him i want to move to either Chicago or indiana. he told me that Chicago is not the safest place and yadda, yadda, yadda. Lol. he's all 'the good places to live is like out of the city limits of chicago. he told me you have to know which places to go and not go to. that shit is not going to stop me, i live within the city limits of houston and it's not all that fucking safe. a couple of nights ago a cop rammed into a civilian car and went into the light pole & at night you can see prostitutes selling there asses to guys that pull up in the parking lot of a grocery store, there's even shootings sometimes at night. now that sounds like the same shit in chicago so i mean come on, give me a break for fuck's sake, Lol. i've always had this sense of something pulling me to chicago, i dunno what it is but i'm going to find out, plus i love the history and architecture of it all ^_^ i love chicago, i think i may have left my heart there too O_O LMFHAO! jk, jk.

i went out yesterday and found this funny ass comment left on a wall at my favorite hangout spot so i had to take a pic of it! XD i laughed my ass off and Greg says 'are you sure it wasn't you who wrote it while you were drunk?' Lmao! my mom allowed me to be off of my pills for some days so we could celebrate by drinking for the presidental election, 'cause we already knew Obama had it in his hands, so when they said Obama is the now new president i was all 'FUCK YEAH! IN YOUR FACE MCCAIN!' XD Lmao. i was yelling, god i was so happy they chose him. i know in my heart he's going to do good for this country. he's going to be a great leader, thank god bush is leaving, Hahahaha! XD

i had i think like three or four wine coolers and i was already drunk off my ass, Lol, i was singing songs, i'm a horrible drinker 'cause i get all emotional and start crying then i start laughing none stop like a 'Lunatic' as my Ma says Haha. i was singing this song it's called 'The Rose' by Bette Midler then i started rapping, Hahaha! my mom says i should become one 'cause i'm damn good, she likes it when i rap. she said 'my daughter has many talents yet she just hides them' i'm a starving artist Mama, i can't help it, Lol. and that song is fucking beautiful, y'all should see me when i sing drunk XD i will post the lyric's to 'The Rose' i know it all by heart when i'm drunk! XD and my ma's all 'oh my god, here we go' LMFHAO! ^_^

alright well i'ma go but before i do i'ma put the after pix of me up since my poor Rosie didn't get to see them, everyone have a good evening ^_^ *blows kisses & hugs all*

Haha Priceless! ^_^


Cotton Candy Babeh! <3


Sweet Blow Back


Smoking Mah J With Mah Pink Hair! XD


Peace, Love & Joint's


Alright the new song i put on my pro has helped me alot since last month and the begining of this one. so check it out whenever you can, it's a badass rock song from a very badass, beautiful woman! ^_^

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Tuesday, November 4, 2008

PICTURE TIME! XD
It's that time to show you guys my before and after look. now i took these last month but they're still VERY new. BEFORE:

In Spite Of You

My Septum Piercing PWNS!!!!! XD i have a sexy mouth too ;)

I Kinda Always Knew I'd End Up Your Ex-Girlfriend

All Cats Are Grey


OK! Now To Show You Guys My New Look! I'm Very Excited! AFTER!:

Cotton Candy! <3


Lipgloss <333


Peace, Love & Joints


WE ROCKED THAT JOINT! XD


Sweet Shotgun


alrighty! i've done showed you guys mah new hair and i think it looks like the shit if i do say so myself ^_^ i have more but there old cell pix i might post those next time, i hope everyone is doing well i miss you all. Love you Rosie <333 *blows kisses and hugs everyone*

Laterz!

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Monday, November 3, 2008

He Said He's Been A Hoe, Had To Let Me Go On The Jerry Springer Show
Lmfhao! that lyric always makes me laugh hard :)

hey kiddos *hugs all* how's it?

well i've been doing way better, Greggy and Brandy are amazing and i love mah boys! ^_^ they've been helping me through this hard goddamn time and i feel fan-fucking-tastic! XD seriously, i do. i mean i still do miss and Love Patrick but i can't mope forever ya know? and no i'm not on drugs even though i did smoke a joint earlier and took my pills like i'm suppose to but i have to move on but never forget.

well i changed my hair and i can't wait to show you guys, i took alot of pix on my cell and i'm going to send them to the comp and all that good stuff. hell i will show you guys the rest of the other pix i took , the green looking ones, Lol.

Hmmm... lets see.. well that's about it, that's all that's been going on. yesterday was my very favorite holiday. Dia De Los Muertos. Day Of The Dead. on the 1st it's for the little kids that passed and on the 2d it's for the grown up's. i always feel amazing on those days, it's hard to describe. and the comment you left me Rosie, it comforted me. and I Love You Too Sweetie, i wish at times that i could be 'Normal' not have a mental illness, but i thank you so much from the bottom of my heart that your my friend and that your there for me.

well i have to go guys, you all have a good night and i'll see you all tomorrow! *blows kisses and hugs all*

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

Hang In There Kitty..
hey guys *hugs all* it's been awhile since i've posted. i'm somewhat okay, i'm not excellent but i'm okay, it's better then anything, right? well i took some new pix yesterday, i had to do something, anything just to keep sane so i took pic's. there was only one person i would smile for in pictures and that was Patrick, i don't have him anymore so whats the fuckin' use in smiling in pic's, but i thought of him and only have two pictures of me smiling.

i'm trying to be strong and get out of this fucking pain but i see his name everywhere, like when i'm watching a movie and they roll the film credits, i see his name, Patrick. and i think to myself 'Ah shit' and then i start crying. ever since the break up i can still hear him. every time we would end our conversations on the phone i'd blow him a kiss or two and he'd blow back like 5 or 6 and i'd just melt and start laughing like the goof tard i was Lol. but i know in my heart someone had something to do with the break up besides his mama, i just want them to know that it's going to come back to them threefold.

i also did something VERY fucking stupid. when i tell you guys please don't get angry or pissed off at me. now when i did this i was in a really ugly state ok, i found a brand new shaver still in the bag in the restroom a couple of nights back, i took it out broke it apart and used the razor blade and i carved 'My Own Worst Enemy' on my stomach. the next morning i woke up like i got hit by a fuckin' big rig. yeah i felt like shit. i wasn't on my pills at the time, but i know that's no excuse but i'm making damn sure i take them when i'm suppose to. i talked with Keith not to long ago and told him about the break up with Patty and Keith told me that Patrick never deserved me in the first place. i didn't have the balls to tell Keith that i know he likes me, i think it's best to just keep that to myself.

well today is already sunday can't wait for monday, i'm getting paid so i'll be able to get out of the apartment, i need some air, all i've been doing is sleeping all day towards the night then wake up and eat, then lay in bed watching tv like i'm fuckin' comatose, also been playing my radio and cd's 24/7 music always seems to keep me sane, so i'm thinking of maybe buying some cd's and maybe some dvd's just to keep me busy and such. it's already 2:25AM, i'ma go watch some movies, talk to you all later guys *hugs and blows kisses*

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Sunday, October 19, 2008

One To Many, She'll NEVER Be Happy ...
well guys it's over. my instincts never cease to amaze me. he was avoiding me and his mom is helping him with it. i called his home and his mom answered the phone i asked her if patrick was home, guess what she did? she hung up on me...
i called his cell none stop and he never answered, not even a return text message. i left him a voice message, i couldn't stop crying. but hey i took the hint, that he's avoiding me and doesn't want to be with me. in the voice message i told him to be a man and give me a reason why he's doing this, why he's throwing away what we have. i told him if he's a REAL man he'd call me and give me a answer and not hide like he's doing.

my mom called the home phone to see what i was up to and she heard how i sound she knew something was wrong and i couldn't hide it anymore i just broke down in tears. then she said 'hold on, i'll be there okay?' so she left work to come and check up on me and she asked me what was wrong and i told her that patrick's mom hanged up on me and so on. when i told my mom all of that she got pissed off. she told me to stop crying and that he's not worth the tears. she gave me a hug and told me that everything is going to be ok and went back to work. then Greg called and i told him what happened and he's pissed too and told me that i'm just wasting water on him.

also, i think his mother told him something, i dunno what but she doesn't like me and the reason she don't like me much is because i'm spaniard. she perfers him to be with his own race. i was his first spanish girl ever. i think he should make his own decision who he wants to be with. before he met me he was in a ugly depression but when he was with me he changed, that's what others said to him, the reason he was different was because he was happy. when we talked the last time i told him i wanted him to better himself and he told me he is bettering himself, he's bettering himself 'cause he's with me. what hurts the most is that when we hanged up he said 'Babe, I Love You'.

yet again i have lost another Bf. Patty and I were together for three months, i still can't believe we lasted that long, i still believe we could have stayed together much longer. i dunno what the fuck i do wrong? my mom told me that it's not me at all. this was my second longest relantionship with a guy. my first was with Jack. i told my mother that i'm going to fucking balloon up on food so that way nobody won't find me attractive and NOBODY would want to touch me, she said she's not going to allow that to happen. you know what else is fucking miserable? my best friend Keith, you guys remember Greg talking about him? anyways i've known him for three years and when i ran into him he told me that he's always had a crush on me. then when i told him that i had a Bf he told me this, i copyed it off of the e-mail he sent me;

'Just to keep him on his toes, tell him you have a Canadian just waiting for him to slip up so that he can steal you lol. And just in case you didn't get it yet lol, I think you are awesome lady e mail or chat with me anytime, I'd love that. Take real good care of yourself, hope to hear from you soon, I love you ..'

he likes me. and i just act stupid like i don't know he loves me more then just a friend. whenever i see him again i'm going to confront him and tell him i know that he cares more for me then just a friend, i get a strong sense that he likes me more then just a friend and when i do, i'm going to tell him i'm not going to be with anyone for some time and the reason is because i'm still very much madly in love with patrick.

i'm gonna go, i look like a fucking idiot crying over the goddamn keyboard.

here's a favorite Qoute of mine;

'And So The Lion Fell In Love With The Lamb. what A Stupid Lamb. What A Sick Masochistic Lion'

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Saturday, October 18, 2008

hey guys *hugs all*

well i dunno what to think or say, i really don't.
lastnight i called Patty's home in the hopes of hearing him but i didn't get to talk with him. he's ok 'cause his mom told me that he left the home to go somewhere. he has a cell phone and a home phone he could call me but he hasn't, for 9 days already i haven't heard from him and i dunno what the fuck is going on.

i don't ask for much i really don't, all i want is to hear his voice that's all i want but i have the feeling he's breaking up with me and i should take the hint but he has told me that he loves me too much to leave me but then again who knows. i don't know what the fuck to do. i feel so goddamn sick, i'm on the verge of breaking down in tears, i feel so alone like almost everyone has abandoned me, i would go to my mom but she has seen me go through this too many times.

i'm slowly dieing in silence and no one sees it and maybe that's a good thing that no one sees it 'cause i'm no one special. i will see what happens and i will let you guys know
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Friday, October 17, 2008

Forcing Smiles
i've been miserable lately. the reason is because i haven't talked with Patty. i called his home not to long ago, i called at 10:27AM. his mom picked up and i asked her if Patty was home, she told me that he just left or something like that, i told her that i haven't talked with him for awhile and that i was worried about him.

but i guess he's fine if he's just barely leaving his home. i don't know what to think. his mom told me that she'll tell him that i called. i hope i get a call from him soon. i feel sick to my stomach right now.
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

We'll Shoot Down The Stars Baby
hey kiddies! *hugs all* how you all been? i see that Billza Finally posted! it's great seeing you again sweetie, i sent you an E-mail. and i see Rosie posted too! ^_^ i love the lyric's you posted Doll, there awesome! :)

well i've been doing good, just a bit worried, worried about Patrick. i haven't heard from him from the last time we talked which was on the 9th of this month. i asked him to call me in the morning which was on the 10th but he never did. he could be busy, i'm just worried as hell about him. i'm thinking alot of things, his cell could maybe be screwed up or something, something along the lines to that, but maybe not who knows. i called his home phone and no one is there either, his mama is working so yeah. i think i left him like three voice messages. someone like me, i worry alot, Lol. and usually it's nothing, like this one time i didn't hear from him in two days and it was because he was at the hospital 'cause his sister was having her baby. the last time we talked we were joking around and stuff and he was in the parking lot of his job and he had to let me go 'cause it was time for him to go in the building. the last thing we told eatch other was 'I Love You'.

i just miss him so goddamn much that it's crazy. and i know he's thinking of me 'cause my ears are burning up and they're turning red. when your ears or entire body fells really hot it means your love is thinking of you. and i know he's thinking of me, i'm making him burn up too 'cause he's been the only thing i've been thinking of, i'm always thinking of him though. i never do stop. i just hope he's ok, safe.

anyways i've been listening to alot of ICP & The Dresden Dolls. i love, LOVE! The Dresden Dolls. alright well i better go, it's already 11:47PM. the song i'm listening to right now is beautiful it's called 'Color Blind' i'm going to have to post the song so y'all can listen to it.

here's the lyric's;

The Dresden Dolls- Colorblind

i love you like a brother
and i love you like a child
and i love you like a lover
and i love you dumb and colorblind
and i love you like a mother
even after all you've done
and i love you like no other
but i know
youre not the one...

and i loved you in bright orange
and in violet and in green
and i loved you in such colors
as your eyes have never ever seen
and i loved the way you acted
but your one trick pony's dead
and i loved you unprotected
but you only love in
red

i know its dark for good
i never listen when i should
you only see in black and white
so go on back to your own kind
and i'll go back to mine

i love you like a brother
and i love you like a child
and i love you like a lover
and i love you dumb and colorblind
and i love you like a mother
even after all she's done
and i love you like no other
but i know youre not the one...

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