Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Just A Little Vist
well as i have said in one of my voice comment's, i broke up with Aubrey. I DID IT, not him. so nobody start a damn riot mob. trust me, i feel stupid for doing it. the good thing is that he told me that he's always going to be here for me and that he's still going to love me no matter what. i still love him too, so very much. i jsut feel like a stupid ass, he told me to stop being so hard on myself and to stop calling myself stupid 'cause as he said 'Your not stupid baby'

he said maybe alter on we can become something more. i guess it's a good thing that him and i are taking a break. anyways's he's going back to school on the 7th of this motnh, and now he's looking for a new job, he's one busy man. he's been through A LOT of things in his life, nothing compared to my own. i miss him like crazy but theres nothing i can do, we've been hanging out lately and just chilling together, joking with eatch other too Lol, so i guess it's good. the day after the break up he told me that he's always going to be mine.

i'm always going to be yours too baby..
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Sunday, June 29, 2008

The Queen Has Returned, Baby! XD Lol
HELL YEAH I AM! Hahaha that was gay. anywho, it's good to be back but today is my last day of my being on the compy. no, i don't mean i'm not coming on anymore. i only have three days that i can come on, which is friday, saturday and sunday. which is cool, i'm grateful i can get on, so i can't complain :) so i see Greg told all of you i have a guy, dayum! what a chatter box man, Hahaha. flippin chatty cathy, Greg LMFAO! yeah i do, he's a amazing guy. Aubrey is going back to school on july, i'm going to miss him :( but it's okay, he knows i always wait for him so him and i can hang out at night, he's so damn smart and mature. he's WAY more mature then me, i just act like a damn kid Hahaha XD he told me he was in medical science for two years. Jesus H. Christ, that's damn sexy, LMFAO!


I Love My Teddybear :)


so i told Greg that him and i can share my site, he said he likes posting for me so what the hell. Greg told me 'You and Aubrey are SO gangster!' Haha, he said that 'cause of the music we listen to. i'm a huge fan of Kottonmouth Kings now, there fucking badass! KMK Forever Babeh! i'm a huge fan of the band because of Aubrey, he listens to them to, loves them. there was this song i use to listen to alot when i was younger i knew the name of the song just didn't know the name of the band but i found out who sings it because of him Lol. it's obvious why they're called Kottonmouth Kings? think about that for a minute. Lmfao! XD


my favorite band member would have to be D-loc, cheya! alright, enough of that. i'm going to change my song, i'm gonna get gangster up in hur! Lol. the song i'm putting up has a LOT of cussing and whatnot soo.. don't get offened. it's one of my favorite jams, GAH! Lol. i like the way Greggy fixed my site, he was telling me and i was like 'i have to see what you have done!' he was laughing, Lol. i love it. i love the banner that says 'Forever And Ever Babe' and the picture of my little Aubbie looking cute! ^_^


it's flippin sweet! love the weed icons too, LMFAO! XD alright well i'ma go vist Rosie and leave a little comment and go hang out with some of my homies. love you all babies, it's great to be back with you guys ^_^
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Sunday, June 22, 2008

OMFG! SAY WHAT?! HAHAHA
GUESS WHAT?! oh yeeeah, i forgot before i tell you this is greg October's homeboy, oh yeah! XD so did you guys finally guess? no?...

not even?...

not a little speck or clue?...

alright i will tell you but first shhh!...

*whispers* he have to whisper first...

OCTOBER HAS A BOYFRIEND! XD

omg i'm so happy for mah girl. i've never seen her like this before, this could be different you guys, ya never know. his name is Aubrey, he's a pretty nice guy. she met him back on june 1st, & hit it off pretty well, the first thing she told him was 'i don't date guys or girls anymore 'cause it's just to hurtful' he didn't listen to her, she told me that he told her 'i just went after you' Lmao.

they've been together ever since. they didn't start dating until the 11th of this month. lol he's a punk/skater, she's a goth/nerd, what a cute couple haha. she's just fianlly really happy and i'm just so glad for her. and get this he's a school boy! XD he's only a year younger then her, he's 19. he's told his family about her, his mom and so on, he's even talked to tobie about marrying her! she told me that he said 'he wants to be my jack and he wants me to be his sally, he wants to go to vegas to get it done and wants his cousin in a monkey suit i.e. the ring bearer hahaha, he wants to get married on our favorite holiday, Halloween but NOT this year so don't get excited greg' it's too late i already am hahaha

she told me that she talked to his cousin and asked him if Aubrey was ever like this with his other girls and his answer was 'never' so tobie really changed him and he really changed her, he told her that she's the only thing he has in his life, awwww! :) she told me to come on here and fix her BG but didn't tell me to post but i hope she won't get mad at me, i don't think she will. i'm on her photobucket account and thought i put a pic on here to show you guys her baby! ^_^ alright new BG and new song!

<3 greg

'he told me 'forever and ever babe' i said 'that's a long time aubrey' then his answer was 'we'll be happy for a very long time then, i just want to be with you'

-Tobie

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Sunday, June 8, 2008

OH NO HE DI'INT!
OMFG!!!!! *hugs everyone to death* i missed you all so much! this is like my first post in like so long!

i finally sent Rosie a e-mail, my ATT account wasn't working yesterday and now it's not working so now i don't know if i got an E-mail from her or not.

well i've been good i guess, i just missed you all so much. i've been hanging out with a guy friend, his name is Aubrey but i call him 'Bre bre' for short, he thinks it's cute! XD Lmfao! we were talking about stuff and i asked him if he likes comics and i didn't mean like stand up comics but like spiderman and so on. so he says 'hell yeah i like comics old school but that anime' stuff is for fags!'

i started laughing and i told him 'well i guess i'm a fag then, i actually read anime and i LOVE IT!' so he felt embarressed and said he was sorry. he started laughing and i asked him what was so funny and he said 'i called you a fag and i didn't mean to' Lmfao! he's a really nice person.

i made this badass music playlist and i'm thinking of posting it on here, i'm fixing to change my BG too.

i hope everyone will have a great sunday morning, afternoon and night! *kisses all around* ^_^
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Monday, May 26, 2008

good gravy!
good news! tobie found her number to snapvine but the thing is she already made two messages but there not showing up the damn thing still says 20 messages so she told me to put her url down and go to her site she has this thing called a voice blog it's recorded a new message of hers.


it's just the same as when you come in here and listen to her, she just wants rose to know she's fine, so hurry and go check!
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OHMIGAWD I CAN'T BELIEVE IM DOING THIS!
hola everyone! oh geezy her site is so abandoned! anyway this is greg her offline buddy. october told me to post on her site if i could 'cause just like her i can't get on the comp for a long time, except i dont have siblings i just have a frigid mom and a bitchy dad LMFAO. OMIGAWD! do you guys know that her sister put up a damn pass on her computer so tobie can't get on?! and it's still up too. see what happened was that on the last day that october posted her and her sister got into a fight and her sister is the type that likes to get her way so she just totally cut her off of the comp. her sister also lied about the price of the bill, she said it costed $80 and her husband is still paying it so really her connection is still on -_-

tobie is good, very healthy, very fiesty haha. she gets upset and cries whenever she sees or hears something that reminds her of rose. that's all that she has her mind set on. is rose. her mom is giving her some money *her allowance* on monday, so she might go shopping either mon or tues. she watches movies even more then she use to. i call her and i ask 'what'cha doin'?' and she's all '*heavey sigh*' nothin' watching movies'. she's been depressed but lately she's been able to whip on a smile. she told me that when i sneak on to do this to read rose' posts and see how she has been doing. tobie lost her number to her snapvine account but she's still looking in her address book, it's in there somewhere. ever since her sister cut her off she's been keeping her distance with her 'cause she knows she'll fight her.

i tell tobie that her sister is just jealous of her and it's true! oh yeah and i read that fucking comment that that chick or dude left, listen here, you shouldn't go on someones site insult them then turn around and be all nice, i mean wtf is up with that, don't be messing with my home girl! ohmygawd! october told me that whenever she makes her return to myO that when she makes her new site she's going to call it '***** Manko' whoever knows what 'manko' means good for you i am not going to tell you what it means i will let october explain herself, she's such a badgirl! hahaha i love her :). i hope she was joking lol. i put the stars 'cause she said she doesn't want me spoiling it so when she comes back and sends a message she can surprise whoever her friend is, on the phone she just said 'i'm going to call it blank manko' so i don't know what the other word is but i wish i knew!

she's no longer talking to tim no more whooo! thank god, i mean, he always made her depressed with his shit now she's better, hell, she's stopped talking to all her ex's. fuck, i'm making it seem like she has a whole lot of ex's, she only had three boyfriends in her young life. she stopped talking to jack when they broke up there engagemnet back in march or feb of '07, she stopped talking to tim on the day he was acting dumb which was on april 23 of this year and she hasn't talked to josh ever since.

october got all excited on saturday 'cause they showed a new episode of Bleach on adultswim. she told me that rose likes it, she never saw it until she heard that rose likes it so she's been watching it alot, she's really into, i'm not much for anime myself but it seems like a really kickass show, much love to the show

as for music, she's all excited about coldplay's return she can't get enough of there new song *violet hill* she's been listening to cobra starship, johnette napolitano and emiliana torrini.

she loves Kayne west, tobie says 'cause he talks about chicago alot and because he has really good music. i told her that i would put one of her favorite songs by him on her site, i have to go on my imeem account 'cause i don't know the pass to hers. she has given me her pass to her myspace she wanted me to see if she has any mail. you know what else she told me?! she listened to a fall out boy song and anyone that knows tobie knows that she doesn't like them, lmfao, she was listening to there song *me and you* she says 'it reminds me of rosie and i', i was all like *awwwwwwww* she told me to tell rose to listen to a kayne west song, the name of the song is *home coming* i listened to it with tobie, it's really good, she loves *flashing lights* too, i'm not much for rap or hip hop but those are some really good songs, i love the beats

johnette napolitano and emiliana torrini are depressing, i told her to not listen to that shit. so she's all 'ok ok' now she's listening to like dance music and classic rock and ALOT of massive attack. now she's a fan of that show *queer as folk* she's never watched it but since last month she's been hooked!

oh yeah, guess what?! her mama told her sister that tobie is her favorite child! :O XD oh yeah! burrrrrrrrn! hahaha.

october has a new betta, she told me that it's white. she named it angel.

ohmifuckinggawd! she told me that her mom is planning to move her family back to their hometown, from where tobie is originally from. fort worth tx. she's all excited, so i'm happy for her about that

tobie has been great, she pulls herself to not be depressed and i'm so very proud of her, she's the strongest and sweetest person i have ever known besides my boyfriend. everytime she smiles she says 'i smile instead of frowning 'cause i wouldn't want no one to see me like that, so i just keep my chin up and be strong and wear the biggest smile' she wants me to put this on her site, it's from one of her favorite movies *batman returns* the one with catwoman XD

*mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it, but a kiss can be even deadlier if you mean it* that's when catwoman is on top of batman and she licks him, whenever tobie sees that she just starts giggling her ass off. she's such a big kid. i will see if i can sneak on another time for her, in the meantime i'm helping her look for her snapvine number. okay well i'm going to go read rose' posts for tobie and call her and tell her about then, then skidaddle before my lame ass parents get back.

AU REVOIR! XD


COBRA STARSHIP
"The World Has Its Shine (But I Would Drop It On A Dime)"

I’m not one for love songs.
The way I’m living makes you feel like giving up
But you don’t,
And I want everything for you
But disappointment.
‘Cause you’ve been left behind
And the world has its shine,
I would drop it on a dime for you.

(Hey oh!)
And whatever it takes.
(Hey oh!)
I’m gonna make my way home.
(Hey oh!)
We can turn our backs on the past
And start over…

Not long ago
I gave up hope,
But you came along
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know.

Before I met you
I used to dream you up and make you up in my mind (up in my mind)
Woah-oh.
And all I ever wanted
Was to be understood.
You’ve been the only one who could.
I could never turn my back on you.

(Hey oh!)
And whatever it takes.
(Hey oh!)
I’m gonna make my way home.
(Hey oh!)
We can turn our backs on the past
And start over…

Not long ago (not long ago)
I gave up hope, (I gave up hope)
But you came along (you came along)
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know (more than you could ever know.)
More than you could ever know.
It’s you.

Not long ago
I gave up hope,
But you came along.
Gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
(Yeah!)
Not long ago (not long ago)
I gave up hope, (I gave up hope)
But you came along (you came along)
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know.

FALL OUT BOY
"I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You)"

Last year's wishes
Are this year's apologies
Every last time I come home
I take my last chance
To burn a bridge or two
I only keep myself this sick in the head
Cause I know how the words get you {off}

We're the new face of failure
Prettier and younger but not any better off
Bullet proof loneliness
At best, at best

Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you

Collect the bad habits
That you couldn't bare to keep
Out of the woods but I love
A tree I used to lay beneath
Kissed teeth stained red
From a sour bottle baby girl
With eyes the size of baby worlds

We're the new face of failure
Prettier and younger but not any better off
Bullet proof loneliness
At best, at best

Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you

The best way
To make it through
With hearts and wrists intact
Is to realize
Two out of three ain't bad
Ain't bad

Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you
Me and you
(Honeymoon)
Setting in a honeymoon
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I wake up next to you
If I woke up next to you
Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I wake up next to you
(Honeymoon)
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Friday, April 25, 2008

God Gawd!
have you ever wanted to beat the fuck out of someone? i haven't fought someone in SO long and right now i want to, i want to damn kick my sisters ass so bad. i had to stop fighting when i was sixteen, but right now i want to fight but i have to stop and think, my mother says 'it's because your maturing' wow, Lol. anyways, some fuckass has my pass to my Myspace and changed my pic, now, i haven't had enough time to go on myspace but i have a #1 suspect VANESSA! [the sister] -_- damn bitch, she's the only one that'd do something like that.

another reason why i'm pissed off, i came into my sisters bedroom so i can get on and Post and go help my mom, she says 'i'm so glad that this shit is going to be turned off' i turn around and i aked her 'what? what do you mean?' and my mother asked and vanessa said 'michael [her drunk ex-husband] is going to turn off the internet 'cause it's too much' i call bullshit! so now if the internet gets shut off i'll have to walk over to the library close by.

i am not going to give up with a fight! i've been fighting my whole life and i'm not going to stop dammit! the only reason why i'm fighting is for Rose. Lol, my mom is telling me to calm down 'cause i'm turning red, i could never stand her she's such a bitch and she likes to go around and say that she's puerto rican and spaniard, i call bullshit again! she is not puetro rican, yes she's half spaniard but she is not fucking puerto rican, she's fucking mexican. i'm sorry i just hate when people lie about there race, it's dumb i know.

anywho, i'm fixing to go calm down and help my mom and maybe sit outside on the patio, it's going to rain today, saturday and sunday. that's going to remind me alot of Rosie, i miss her alot. later on i'm going to leave some new voice messages of me watching movies Lol. tonight the weather is suppose to be bad, alot of rain and winds, i heard Rosie is going to get the same kind of weather. tonight i'm going to be on the patio and kiss the rain, i hope she catches the kiss :)

P.S. i saw this movie on cable lastnight on TMC, it was called 'lie With Me' with Eric Balfour or something like that and Laura lee smith anyways it was good alot of sex scenes, Lmfao but it was good, check it ou sometime Rosie! ^_^
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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Tim Can Be Such A Fuckass
Hello everyone i'm back. well my friend Greg wants to take me to Galveston beach but i don't wanna go, the beach water is gross. anyways, i talked about my friend Greg in one of my post's once, he's my gay friend that i like to chill with his boyfriend is also my friend as well. Greg forgot that i can't drink alcohol -_- what a ditz, Lol.

did i tell you guys that Tim wanted me to take topless pic's of myself for him? i told him no and he's upset and he doesn't want to talk to me anymore, i really don't care. i couldn't do it and i knew why, he knew as well he just wanted to piss me off, he knows what buttons to push, he's the only one that can piss me off quickly, so thats that.

anyways, i bought a ring not to long ago, for Rose but i think i should take it back or just keep it, it's a engagement ring, it's really pretty. Lol i'm such a stupid girl. i know she wouldn't want a loser like me, she deserves WAY better then some damn Bipolar chick that is a total loner and hates the goddamn world. it was always me against the world, my mother says that it's not true but it is.

anyways if i don't get on later on i will just leave a voice message, but i'm going to try REALLY hard to get on. i've been feeling really nauseous lately but i will be okay, it's just nerves. ^_^ anywho! i wanted some laughs, i was trying to get a video off of my Imeem site but the damn DSL is so damn slow that it's not even funny. go to Imeem and Type in the search engine 'Will Ferrell' and find the vid that says 'The Landlord' you will be laughing your ass off!
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Monday, April 21, 2008

hello everyone this is greg, tobies friend, shes doing okay i guess been upset for somedays. she wanted me to post for her, i'm on the phone with her right now, i told her that you wanted to talk with her rose. she's fixing to get on. it's already 10:48PM, so she should be getting her tushy on any minute. she's missed you alot, she looks like shit, i told her that yesterday and we both just laughed. she wanted me to go and get song off of her imeem account. it's this song from this movie called house of flying daggers, she's love that movie. okie dokie well i better get off of her site and finish talking with her on the phone. have a goodnight tobies friends :)

"Beauty Song" from house of flying daggers

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

...
"Coma Black"

My mouth was a crib and it was growing lies
I didn't know what love was on that day
my heart's a tiny bloodclot
I picked at it
it never heals it never goes away

I burned all the good things in The Eden Eye
we were too dumb to run too dead to die

This was never my world
you took the angel away
I'd kill myself to make everybody pay
This was never my world
you took the angel away
I'd kill myself to make everybody pay

I would have told her then
she was the only thing
that I could love in this dying world
but the simple word "love" itself
already died and went away

This was never my world
you took the angel away
I'd kill myself to make everybody pay
This was never my world
you took the angel away
I'd kill myself to make everybody pay

I burned all the good things in The Eden Eye
we were too dumb to run too dead to die


Her heart's bloodstained egg
we didn't handle with care
it's broken and bleeding
and we can never repair

[Yesterday's Post]

it was raining real hard this morning! i loved the rain but i didn't like it when our lights went out. i went into Rosie's site and i saw what was on her pro, it was sad, then her post. i dunno whats going on, yesterday i lost yet another friend and i'm taking care of my mom, she's sick.

all of a sudden i'm starting to feel sick as well..

i knew something was wrong yesterday, i knew it, i could feel something bad was going to happen, i just didn't know what. i'm going to leave a new voice comment today, i deleted some, so i suggest no one listen to the new one, but if you want, listen to it on your own risk.

hell, i may not even come back to this site anymore..
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