Monday, April 7, 2008

Das BOOT! XD
i dunno what that means but one of my german friends said it once and i thought it sounded cool, Lmfao! XD

i see my Rosie didn't have such a good time and i'm so sorry for that sweetie, i really am, i dunno why but i'm pissed off. well to make you and i smile, mainly you, i have some video's on my Youtube account and i thought i show you, so you can turn that frown upside down my sweet! there pretty effin funny and weird. sorry it took me long to get on, i had to help my mom with some stuff [dishes and laundry]

okay lets plow! XD

Lights Out


From the Archives Pt. 2


Big Mac Attack!At the Drive-Thru (Very Funny)

I need a double cheeseburger and hold the lettuce
Don't be frontin' son no seeds on a bun
We be up in this drive thru
Order for two
I gots a craving for a number nine like my shoe
We need some chicken up in here
In this dizzle
For rizzle my mizzle
Extra salt on the frizzle
Dr. Pepper my brother
Another for your mother
Double double super size
And don't forget the FRIES
CRISPY!!!!!!!!

SHUT UP THIS IS MY SONG - losers


i thought i take this, it tells what this video is about 'A perfect moment. The chicken... vessels? at Canobie and this nice, easy, calm song... we're all happy... then some girl says, "SHUT UP THIS IS MY SONG!" After that I had to turn off the camera and beat her to a bloody pulp. It had to be done.' Lmao funny! XD

Memorial Day


Aw i remember i use to party like that back in the day, it was awesome! back when i was 16 and 18 back when i use to drink, my four gay guy friends and i, good times. i got a lapdance from one of them once, it was effin hilarious! XD

i hope you enjoy'em Rosie and i hope you have a great night sweetie
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Saturday, April 5, 2008

I Miss Rose..
yes, i do. A LOT! Lol. i cannot wait for monday anyways, i found some great poems that remind me of her. it's mushy time babeh! XD

Because She Would Ask Me Why I Loved Her - Christopher Brennan

If questioning would make us wise
No eyes would ever gaze in eyes;
If all our tale were told in speech
No mouths would wander each to each.

Were spirits free from mortal mesh
And love not bound in hearts of flesh
No aching breasts would yearn to meet
And find their ecstasy complete.

For who is there that lives and knows
The secret powers by which he grows?
Were knowledge all, what were our need
To thrill and faint and sweetly bleed?

Then seek not, sweet, the "If" and "Why"
I love you now until I die.
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what you give.


SONNET XVIII - William Shakespeare
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometimes too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed:
And every fair from fair, sometimes declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest:
Nor shall death brag thou wanderest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breath, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

LET THE WORLD STOP TURNING - Bette Midler
Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell me love's not worth going through.
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,
The only dream that mattered had come true
...In this life I was loved by you.

MY BOUNTY IS AS BOUNDLESS AS THE SEA - William Shakespeare
My bounty is as boundless as the sea,
My love as deep;
The more I give to thee
The more I have,
For both are infinite.

"You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without."
- Unknown

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand."
- Unknown

"Young love is a flame; very pretty, often very hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. The love of the older and disciplined heart is as coals, deep-burning, unquenchable."
- Henry Ward Beecher

i also changed my song to Queen's 'Love Of My Life'. i got it for Rose, it's a really beautiful song ^ ^
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Thursday, April 3, 2008

Party Time! XD
my mom and sister have been gone for awhile, they went to get groceries. just this morning i was watching old school and i love when the wedding singer is singing and puts his own spin to it i found the song too! the one from the movie, here it is!



Too funny! anyways, yesterday i posted the new pic's of me and i put one of them on my profile, one of my friends told me that i have a 'intense' look, Lmfao! we were talking on the phone for awhile. Greg and his bf have been together for five years already, there really cute together. so since i have the apartment ALL to myself for now, i changed my site up a bit, new banner, new BG and colors, it looks good! oh yes and a new song, i love it! so anyways, without further adieu! THE POEM! XD

Sweetness [October] 4/2/08

Immortal. if i was an angel, i'd give up everything. my life above my wings, i'd give it all up for her, for my Rose. to be around her, if i had to i would break all the rules, just to be around her, to smell her sensual scent, to touch her skin, to sit at her feet and to watch her sigh. as she'd sleep i would lay down beside her, tracing her curves with my fingertips, studying her, worshipping her body everynight.

i would hold her as she sleeps, rubbing my face against hers gently, keeping quiet to listen to her beating heart, if you were quiet enough you could hear it singing a lullabye so sweetly. slowly, i begin to kiss her back relentlessly, as i continue to hold her. i begin to cry, wishing she knew i was there with her. i watch her everyday from a distance, walking with the people, she's the only one i notice, she's all i see in crowds, Rose is never lost in a sea of faces.

as i get ready to lay down with her, i see a book next to her sleeping body, i begin to read the inked words on fine white paper 'In the darkness, i cannot see her but i know... she is there, i can sense her presence. she is close, i can smell her, so sweet. she moves silently towards me, my eyes are closed, she is near me, she lies next to me, i can feel her heartbeat, in rhythm with mine'

tonight as i hold Rose, the smile won't leave my face, wishing she would know that soon my afternoons will be spent with her, as a human. to kiss, to taste, to embrace, to protect and to love. i will give her the best taste of love. now she knows, she is not alone, she never was..

so that's it. i still think i could have done a better job, i hope you like it my sweet. *smiles* okay well my family just got home and i asked my sister if i could get on at 3 or 4 she said yes. it's already 11:24PM now. i'ma go take a nap until then. i hope you'll have a good morning/afternoon/evening and night my sweet! *blows kissses* ^ ^
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Wednesday, April 2, 2008

New Pic's Of Me
well i left i think around five new voice messages for Rose yesterday, i was seranading her *smiles then blushes* and just showing her what i listen to.

my sister got in one of her moods earlier 'cause she couldn't find this card that she needs so i didn't want to bug her so i waited to ask if i could get on. it's already 8:41PM. i'ma see if i can get on tomorrow early, i know i'ma get on in the morning 'cause my sister and mom are going grocery shopping yet again.

by tomorrow i will post the poem i've been working on, now i'ma go vist Rosie but before i do i took some new pic's for Rose, i took'em yesterday. these are VERY new, i haven't taken any since lastyear so yes! picture time! XD







my face is round! -_- the false lashes are awesome though! XD Lmao. i also got a new avatar, i saw it and i knew i had to have it, it reminded me of something i would say to Rose, LMFAO! 'You've Been Bad! Go To My Room!' oh yeeah! Lol XD *blows kisses to Rose* take care my sweetness and have a great night! *smiles from ear to ear*
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Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Sweet, Sweet Happiness! ^ ^
well lastnight i was hanging out with my sister. i was taking her picture 'cause she hasn't had her pic taken in YEARS! she's 29 and no pic's of her so i took some of her lastnight. then she fixed my myspace, it looked okay the way it was, i'm a plain jane, lmfao. i love the way she fixed it though.

i got on as fast as i could i woke up at 11:35AM then went back to sleep i didn't finally wake up until 1:12PM, i went to bed late, really late, my sister was holding me hostage! XD Lol.

Lmao my mom is right, i do talk about Rose alot. i can't help it, she amazes me, i'm competely in awe of her, i really am, she fascinates me. i'm hers and she knows it, i don't even have to tell her Rose knows i belong to her. ^ ^ i wish i could sit at her feet and just admire her beauty and just inhale all that love that she has.

I'M MUSHY! SOWWIE! XD and i'm glad you enjoyed the poem my sweet!

i'm a boring chick though, the only reason i go out is to shop and i just stay home, write poetry, do art and spend my time with my family and the rest i just sleep and spend time with my sweet Rose, either then that my life isn't exciting, then i have my babysitting job on the side.

i live in the city but the side of the city that i live at isn't the safest, so i just always stay home, my mother insist's i stay home as well so i don't complain. anyways, i'ma go read Rosie's post, comment and go talk with her! i'ma sing her a little song later on, i'm feeling a marilyn monore song should do it, Lol,

*blows kisses to Rose* have a good day/evening and night my sweet! ^ ^
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Monday, March 31, 2008

Your Gay! Your Suppose To Be Happy..
LMFAO! i still find that funny, my sister is the one who said that to me during my miserable times. anywho i see that my Rosie is going to check out Massive Attack, effin sweet! before you do, theres this nice mellow song called 'Teardrop' it's awesome and 'Angel' is awesome too. another one of my favorite bands is 'Sneaker Pimps' funny name but good band. Linda Perry is awesome, i love to listen to her but she's not Trip-hop, i think she's more like folk rock then anything. i'ma put one of her songs on here, it's really beautiful, i hope Rosie will like it ^_^

the first song you listen to by the Sneaker Pimps would have to be 'Post-Modern Sleaze' that song reminds me of myself. and the other goods would have to be '6 Underground' 'spin spin sugar' & 'Low Five'. i'm fixing to change the song on here in a minute but before i do i'ma post a poem i made for Rose.

My One And Only [October] 3/23/08

i feel like i'm dieing. i envy the dead with every fiber of my being. the wine has lost it's taste, the ocean has evaporated, the stars has lost their twinkle and the sun no longer lingers in the sky. i don't want to be with this man, it is the darling that i want. the darling that is truly and utterly amazing, intelligent, loyal, sweet, charming, funny and passionate. my heart tells me to be with her but i go with him, all to make our queen mother proud.

he could have my body but not my heart, it belongs to the darling who holds and bears it, i gave it to her and i hope she knows it. as i go with him i feel myself starting to decay and the stars are not wanted now. i lost everything and have nothing, for you see, the darling IS my everything. she is my laugh, my heartbeat, my song, my air, my passion, my smile, my sunday rest. she is my everything. she makes my life worthwhile. i'll gain my strength later and once i do, i'll make the darling my queen and i her king.

to veil salacious kisses on her sexy mouth, to root my hands on her hips, to pull her hair a little and whisper in her ear that i'm hers and she is mine. the king will have her queen...

sorry i had to go i just came back from the grocery store, my sister was rushing me off so i asked if i could finish my post when we got back. it's already 3:31PM. this is justa poem i wrote when i was miserable BUT it's not the one i've been working on, i'm still working on it. okies well i have to go, i hope you'll have a good afternoon/evening and night. *hugs and kisses Rose's hand* Have a goodnight my sweet! ^_^

P.S. i got a snapvine player on here which allows me to call and leave like voice comments and it's TOTALLY free for you and me. you can call from your home phone or whatever and you don't have to pay anything i read the fine print, Lol. i got it so Rose can hear what i sound like, i ate hot cheetos at the time so bear with me! Lol
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Saturday, March 29, 2008

*Streches* Mm'kay Here We Go!
alright well i'm posting on here 'cause some people believe i talk about Rose too much well excuse me! i cant help that she's badass, man. she truly is, when i talk with her i'm smiling the whole time, i'm the kind of person who's not use to being happy but she makes me happy and i love the feeling. everytime i think of her, i start sighing and smiling at the same time, i know, weird, Lmao.

i tell my mom about her and my mom thinks i 'Gush' too much as well -_- but you see, she's the only one that makes me happy. she's the gentle light that brightens my black, melancholy world. Tim has been stressing me out and i really don't want to talk with him 'cause he sends me text messages that say 'Heya just wanted to see if you hate me yet' i can't stand that shit. he pisses me off Royally.

anyways, the poem i've been working on is going good, alot of editing, fixing the shceme of it. the first site i always go to is Rosie's and i saw the post she made, this is going to sound weird but i don't care, SHE HAS SOME SHMEXY HAIR! XD when i saw it i was all 'Oh My Gawd!" Lmao. i'ma put some qoutes of my favorite movie;

Clerks. 1994

Jay: I feel good today, Silent Bob, we're gonna make some money, then you know what we're going to do? We're gonna go to that party, and we're gonna get some pussy, and I'm gonna fuck this bitch, and fuck this bitch, I'll fuck ANYTHING THAT MOVES! What the fuck you lookin at, I'll kick yo fuckin ass! Shit yeah. Doesn't that fucker owe me 10 bucks? You know, fuckin tonight, we're gonna rip off that fucker's head, and take out his fuckin' SOUL. Hey, what's up baby, what's up, sluts?

Jay: I dunno dude, that Caitlin chick's nice, but I've seen that Veronica girl doing shit for you all the time, I saw her rubbing your back, fucking comes and brings you food, didn't I see her change your tire once?
Dante Hicks: Hey, you know, I jacked up the car, all she did was unloosen the nuts and put the tire on.
Jay: I dunno, she does a lot for you.
Dante Hicks: She's my girlfriend.
Jay: I got some girlfriends too, but all they want from me is weed and shit. Shit my grandmother used to say 'What's better, fuckin, a good plate with nothin on it... ' no wait I fucked up. 'What's a good plate with nothing on it?'
Dante Hicks: Meaning?
Jay: I dunno, she was senile and shit, she used to fuckin piss herself all the time, and shit herself. Come on Silent Bob, lets get the fuck out of this fucking jip joint, with this fucking faggot Dante, you cock smoker!

Jay: Yeah, Silent Bob, your a rude motherfucker, you know that? But you're cute as hell. I could go down on you, suck you, line up three other guys and make like a circus seal. Ewww, you fucking faggot, I HATE guys. I LOVE WOMEN!

Hahaha! i've been watching alot of comedies lately, i need a laugh, Okie Dokie, i'm off to go check my PM's. *blows kisses to Rosie* =] oh yes! before i go, as some of don't know i listen to A LOT of Massive Attack, i love mellow bands like 'Morcheeba' a song i recommend form thim is 'Trigger Hippie' and i love, LOVE tricky. he's fucking awesome! he has this cool raspy voice. songs that i recommend from him would have to be 'Poems, Hell Is Round The Corner, Ponderosa, Excess, Antihistamine, Dear God and The Love Cats' anyways heres some more Lyric's that remind me of Rose;

Massive Attack

"One Love"

[Horace Andy]

It's you I love and not another
And I know our love will last forever
You I love and not another
And I know we'll always be together
Some men have one love, two and three love
Four and five and six love
But I believe in one love
I believe in one love

Some men don't feel secure
Unless they have a woman on each arm
They have to play the field, prove they have charm
They say don't lay your eggs in one basket
If the basket should fall all your eggs'll be broken
But I believe in one love
I believe in one love
Oh girl I believe in one love
I believe in one love
Oh girl it's not the everyday you find the woman of your dreams
Who will always be there no matter how bad things seems
Ever so faithful ever so sure
No man could ever ask for more
I believe in 1 love
I believe in one love, oh girl
I believe in one love
I believe, girl, oh yeah
In one love, in one love
In one love, in one love
I do, I do, I do
In one love
I do
In one love
I believe in one love, in one love.
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Monday, March 17, 2008

The Long Wait Is Over..
My Heaven [october] 3/17/08

in this cold, white sullen room, i'll dream of Rose. the girl who possesse's sapphire eyes, perfect porcelain skin, she is sweetness in it's purest form. she draws me to her like a moth to a candle's flame, once i savor a taste of her, i know i'll be wanting more and more.

she has taken my breath away, she's intoxicating me and i'am her's tonight. she's my heaven on earth, my muse, my consort, my darling, my love. her beauty puts all of god's angels to shame. i begin to smile as the darkness hugs me on this cold, dreamy night, Rose has given me sensations i've NEVER felt before, i'll dress her hips, lips, breast's and thighs with soft, sweet, tender kisses, my heaven on earth, my muse, my consort my darling, my Rose.

For Rosie XOXOX
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Thursday, March 13, 2008

For My Rose, I Hope You Like It Sweetness! ^_^
'Baby, The Stars Shine Bright' [October] 3/3/08

when darkness falls and the earth grows still the moon will begin to rise, the candles of heaven will begin to burn and the angel will close her eyes. as the crickets call throughout the night the angel will slowly begin to drift asleep, the crickets sing her a lullabye and in her mind dreams will creep.

with her head raised upon a pillow, which we both will share, i will pull the covers over her body to keep her warm, i will kiss her goodnight with such gentle care. i will hold her gently so nightmares will do no harm, as she sleeps throughout the thickening night the candles of heaven will continue to burn, staying awake and watching her dream as she sleeps for if the covers should fall off of her who else would be there to cover her feet as she sleeps.

she seems so fragile so i'am careful not to cause her to wake, i do not want to disturb her when she sleeps for she seems like fragile glass which will easily break. the earth will be still and the crickets they will sing and the candles of heaven will burn throughout the night when my angel sleeps.

For Rose XOXOX
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

This one is Funny To Me
Pixie Dust [October] 5/23/06

that day repeats itself in my head, of when i blew away a pixie. i found her on my window, crying. she told me she was exiled from the pixie kingdom and her heart was breaking, so i told her to close her eyes, 'cause i had a surprise.

walking towards my dresser grabbing my golden revolver 'A bullet for you my darling, sweets for the sweet' watching the bullets pop like pretty little fireworks. now pixie dust covers my face, my clothes and the walls, damnit, could my day get any worse?..
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