Saturday, September 27, 2008

Blah, blah, blaaaaah...
yesterday i had a great day, i really did. i had two highlights, i babysat my nieces, we played and whatnot and Patrick texted me. he was out shoppin' and paying bills, and telling me that even when i wake i look stunning, he told me that 'cause i sent him a picture of me waking up.

but lastnight wasn't so good. i had a arguement with my ma. and i'm no longer in her good graces. said some things that shouldn't have been said and now theres 'Rule Changes'. she told me that i can no longer sleep late, i'm going to have to buy my own soaps and shampoos, when i'm hungry i'm going to have to make something for myself which i'm guessing i have to buy it myself AND! i have to do my own laundry.

as i sit here i just shrug that shit off 'cause i really don't care. she thinks i can't do it, well you know what? just watch me.

i called her a liar and she called me a cold heartless bitch. this morning when i came back here to this hell hole she said to me 'you want a bitch of a mother? well your not going to like me so much'

Ugh how i wish i could runaway from all of this shit, Runaway with Patrick but that's the thing i can't, i can't make him drop everything for me. he has responsibilities unlike me. he has a job, bills to pay, and a mom that needs him. but then again he is crazy enough to come ALL the way from Ohio to Houston Tx. i could actually picture me being with him, him driving and me in the passenger seat, having my head a little bit out the window having the wind blow in my face, smiling and turning, looking at him with that huge smile on my face. having freedom with him.

everything is just so fucked up now, i can no longer act like a little girl, now i have to grow up, i knew the time was coming for me to get out of that stage i just didn't know it'd be this early. at least i still have someone. now i feel fucking alone, ah well. i'm fixing to call Patty, it's already 3:02PM, it's 4:00 already in Ohio. well i will see if i can post again and let you guys know how everything is going over here.

Love you all *hugs and blows kisses*

P.S. i really love, LOVE your pix Rosie! ^_^ there so gorgeous. i always knew you are a beautiful girl. i love your smile :) i just love the way your face lit up in those pictures. the glasses are badass too! XD is it ok if i save some of your pix? i want to put them up on my site, which i think would be awesome! ^_^
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