Saturday, April 16, 2005

Why Am I Misunderstood
I can't say I'm surprised at the events of today, i mean waking up on the 180 of every other day, means something is gonna get fucked worse than normal...My big mouth is what got me in this shit in the 1st place, that and me begin a pessimistic person...
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FUCK ME
this post had a different title, and different words, but now those words mean nothing, I was trying let vent some stuff out, only two people read the original, and they were the only ones that were suposed to, I was trying to be understanding, but no, I turned out to be a complete ass...

I'm not sure at the moment if I've completely lost the Woman I love, but I know, I'm coming very damn close, and I'm on the edge of something....

PLEASE Roxanne, forgive me, and understand I don't know what to say right now...both you and he have my head spinning, you being mad and he twisting my words and accusing me of things. All I want at this paticular moment is things to go back to the way they were before I made that post this morning....
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Friday, April 15, 2005

today was a miserable day
I nearly passed out, I broke my week fast 3 days short, and I was kicked out of my Platoon, so I stepped out of my position in my platoon, mainly, due to the fact, no one respects or likes me...so I figured give them someone they do respect...
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Thursday, April 14, 2005

I'm getting happier
Yay, Me and my queen are on the way of understanding how everything will be done, and it makes me happy to know that soon(not soon enough though) she will be in my arms....

I love you Roxanne....
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Simple Plan- I'd do anything
Link to video: http://www.musicvideocodes.com/?song=1810

Lyrics:
Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
Nanana (....)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (....)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you
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Releived
BUT I'M PISSED OFF, She is in the worst shape she has been in for the time I've known her...I'm not going to go into everything that is wrong with my queen, but I will say this the ex- that has been trying to kill her is only making his torture worse for himself...

I'm not saying this out just out of anger, but out of love for her, he deserves to die a most horrible, embarassing, and degrading death...I intend to give it to him...

But my main focus right now, is moving her down here with me...likely in the process of bringing her down here, I'll run into the ex- that won't be good for someone, her and I will ride away living, perhaps we can drag him with us...

I love my queen, my baby, my...Roxanne, more than....anyone can ever imagine...

Have you ever met that one person, you cared for so deeply, that you wanted to spend every waking moment with them, and would give your life for their's at the drop of a dime?
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Two videos
I thought of how to get the videos that don't have codes...I'm linking Two MVC pages to here, I got the lyrics underneath the link

AVant: Read Your mind
http://www.musicvideocodes.com/?song=140
Lyrics: Avant-Read your mind
Listen, I've been waiting to tell you this
You are more than a man could ever want
WAIT A MINUTE JUST LET ME
Listen

Bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum,
Bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum,
BUM BUM BUM
Yeah yeah... yeah... yeeeah

Bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum,
Bum bum bum bum bum bum bum bum,
BUM BUM BUM
Yeah

I stepped in the club in your hood,
I slowly turned left and there you stood
You and your friends talking
But when I eyes connect I knew then
It was just like two ways on beam
I'm your king, be my queen
And what do you want to do tonight
My truck is parked out front, so lets ride

[Chorus:]
I can read your mind baby
And I know what your thinking
But its alright (with me baby), it's alright (with me) baby
I can read your mind babe
I know what you're thinking
Girl I'm off in your head
So let's get in bed
And do what your mind said

So baby take a ride with me
And I'll fulfill all your fantasies
And when the rain starts pouring down
Then all the love that's lost will be found
I'll make your mind lose control
Over your body, thats my goal
So baby just come and down here
Just let the gravity pull you near

[Chorus x2]

[HOOK: (X2)]
I know you wanna rub
I know you wanna touch
I know you wanna feel
So baby keep it real

I know you wanna see
I know you wanna be
In my b-e-d
Grinding slowly [breathing]

[CHORUS x2]

[Breakdown:]
I wanna LOVE baby
I wanna feel you
(IF YOU COME, IF YOU COME)
I WANNA LOVE baby
I wanna feel you (I WANNA FEEL YOU)

Come on and go with me
I want you to stay with me [x2]


Slipknot: Duality
http://www.musicvideocodes.com/?song=1826
Lryics: Slipknot-Duality
I push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

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A New day, and still miserable
This isn't good, the number of days Roxanne and myself have been together, and the ammount of time we've spent not talking, are to close for it being about 3 days...I'm really really scared right now. If I had the money, I'd go up there and find her...just to make sure everything was ok, then if they were, I'd be bringing her back down here....
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Monday, April 11, 2005

I must post this again
This poem has found new meaning in my heart, but I suppose it always had that meaning, I just refused to acknowledge it...

Her movements define grace
Her features define beauty
Her voice purrs with a passionate song
Yet I could never please her flawless existence
And I now burn with icy pain
Worse then the loss of white innocence
To watch her admire one who doesn't deserve
The affection of heavenly made flesh and Sweet blood
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Something is not right
I don't know what it is, but it seems everything has been keeping me from Roxanne, since saturday, until today in the last 15 minutes of second block. Today, since I made moy previous post, It has begun to do something she loves more than she loves me...It is storming, and as you all know she loves the rain...I'm a fan of it only for the darkness in the sky, but I can't help but feel something is not right with her, if anyone has in information on this matter, please, I beg you, PM me about it...even if it is something you know I don't want to here(Freak, If anyone would, it'd be you...)
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