Thursday, March 10, 2005

I am Back
My Second block is a little more strict, but I am back on top....GEE 21 is next week, science and social studies this year, if Fail this test, i don't graduate...So, no pressure(I was A/B in chemistry, would have been in biology, but i hated the teacher) I am A so far in American history, so, no pressure at all.....

WE KEPT THE GOLD STAR....Tioga High School Army JROTC is for 13 years straight, Honor Unit with Distinction....(13 is how long my school has had the program...)
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Wednesday, March 9, 2005

GAH!!!
Ok, school is getting worse, but I'm in a really good mood today, My ROTC FORMAL INSPECTION IS OVER, AND WE HAD FLYING COLORS...My Second block might be able to get back on the computers, but I have to be a little more careful about coming on MyO.

I'm not doing a video for awhile, until I get over my Reign theme....
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Tuesday, March 8, 2005

   boring
this day sucked, and a found out why the 2nd block bitch won't let us on the computer, one of the students in there wrote on his Xanga about the asst. principle, a mother found out about it and called the school, now no one in the class can get on the computer...
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Monday, March 7, 2005

Moved
Hey, whats up...I'm in a better mood, My parents and I moved over the weekend....I'm getting DirectTV, with all premium channels for teh next three months(after that the its just HBO and Scinemax.)I'm sorry I didn't do this already, but my second block teacher got a message from the school board saying, that all the stuff we do in that class is in violation of school board internet policy(such as me coming here) So, I can't get on during second block no more...you'll have to wait until after 3:00 in the after noon now...

I'm soon to be changing my Intro message... and I have a new thing to focuson....


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Saturday, March 5, 2005

   Better
Yesterday was better, It wasn't full of stress, I guess I put most of the stress on myself for thinkin with my heart....A few bad things happened, but it didn't bother me, I'm not in a good mood, but I'm not miserable like I was, I'm just here, taking it in stride, I still want to destroy the world, but thats completely out of boredom.....

No Video today, likely not for a week, I want to emphasize the Scars.....before I completly move to nothingness.....
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Friday, March 4, 2005

I QUIT
I've given up on love, Everything Is crashing around me....It makes my head spin, and the only thing I know is I have the scars to prove it all happened....



Lyrics
"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]


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Thursday, March 3, 2005

Not much
not much to talk about, I'm still aching in my heart, but part of me is doing what I thought I would never do, hate one whom I love.

My Ex- was wanting me to put Killers- Mr. Brightside on, but I'm going to do that tomorow..Today I have


Lyrics to Z-Ro: I Hate you...[original]
(*talking*)
Shit this your boy Z-Ro
f**king with Mike Dean, at www.thesenuts.net
We ain't gon sweat

[Hook - 2x]
I hate you bitch, I hate you bitch
I hate you bitch, I never thought I'd say

[Z-Ro]
Too many years, I done paid the price
Why you gotta put all this, drama in my life
And day after day, I'm on the grind for you
Living lavish drape you in karats, what I'm trying to do
But Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii'm, just a man
Trying to do all I can, but you act like you can't understand
Well I done sacrificed, and I done swallowed my pride
On the wrong road, trying to follow my pride
I was daddy for a while, though I've got no seed
But the kids, are my H-E-A-R-T
I've been dealing with a lot, so I've been losing my mind
Straight up acting before I think, barely using my mind
My freedom is on the line, and my sanity's gone
You picked a fine time to leave me, now this house ain't a home
I had no problem being faithful, I loved you so much I hate you
Because you left me, when I needed you the most
So now a bitch, is how I rate you
My female friends, making you wonder
Guilt got you feeling suspicious, from when you was creeping on
me
On the under, but even still I held my head
Five kids and I fed em all, with moldy bread and spreads
Them was my motherf**kers, treated em like sisters and brothers
But somehow I fell out of place, f**king with they punk ass
mother
I apologize, I wish I can turn back the hands of time
Wishing we could pillow fight, just one more time
But Ms. Ronda, wanna put them laws in my life
Although I'm happy, I never pictured you not at all in my life
Solo that's how I kick it, the rest of my days
But I wanna thank you for making possible, some of the best of
my days
I've dried my eyes, now and all they can see is the greed
You can have that jury, broke ass motherf**kers the seventh
scene

[Hook - 2x]

[Z-Ro]
Too many years, I done paid the price
Why you gotta put all this, drama in my life
And day after day, I'm on the grind for you
Living lavish drape you in karats, what I'm trying to do
But Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii'm, just a man
Trying to do all I can, but you act like you can't understand
Well I done sacrificed, and I done swallowed my pride
On the wrong road, trying to follow my pride
I was daddy for a while, though I've got no seed
But the kids, are my H-E-A-R-T
I've been dealing with a lot, so I've been losing my mind
Straight up acting before I think, barely using my mind
My freedom is on the line, and my sanity's gone

[Hook - 2x]

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Wednesday, March 2, 2005

   HELP!!!!
Anybody in the Pineville Louisiana area know of someone looking for a roommate....I need to get the fuck out of my parent's house, ASAP....I'd rather get money to go to TN though....It solves two problems, I get away from my parents, as well as the reason for my torment.....


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Tuesday, March 1, 2005

its a new month, i hate it already
Yay Febuary is over, and March has gotten off to a bad start, I'm about ready to end everything, can someone give me a nuke......my problem is still girls, A freind said there might be a guy out there for me....I find it ironic, B/c I am bi, and he didn't know it at the time that he made the comment, but I can't see myself in a realtionship with one...considering I'm in love with two women right now, one I don't know why, the other makes me feel great, just from hearing her voice....but she won't go out with me either.....



You are the bad boy / girl of your school. You
have little faith in yourself and usually find
escape in some sort of addicting substance or
yourself. You would rather torture others
above anything else. You regularly skip
school and when you go, always tend to ditch a
certain class. Some classmates can fear you
while others pity you...and your family. (No
offense) Your cruel behavior and abject
personality tends to single you out from the
crowd...and you prefer life this way at times.
However, lonliness can rear its ugly head and
force you seek a way to silence it. But be
warned, your path is dangerous... but only a
strong person can walk this road.

Some
ideal occupations for you can be a Police
officer, Celebrity (who doesn't love the
badasses?), Wrestler, Polotician, or some sort
of leader. Either way, your destined to be
known by many.


What type of teenager are you?
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Monday, February 28, 2005

Not much today
I ain't got much to say right now, I have a video, it isn't what I was looking for but it ain't bad


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