Saturday, February 26, 2005

   Poem written by a freind
Her movements define grace
Her features define beauty
Her voice purrs with a passionate song
Yet I could never please her flawless existence
And I now burn with icy pain
Worse then the loss of white innocence
To watch her admire one who doesn't deserve
The affection of heavenly made flesh and Sweet blood
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   NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This can't be happening.....Everything is falling away faster then ever I'm completly alone......My Ex- is in too deep to care.....the other girl refuses to go out with anyone from our school(fear of the fact that she has known them all too long, and would be makeing herself too available...) I'm sick of being alone......but that is all I've ever known.......Can someone PLEASE HELP....

I took this, and I hate when I'm honest on these things

Black blood! Depressed and hurt. You are not evil,
but you know that ther isn't only sunshine on
earth. You are very loyal, wise and concealed.
You have the blood of the dead ones, you're a
true soul!


What is your true blood color?
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Friday, February 25, 2005

My head is spinning
Hey, I'm still locked in dispute with myself, though I made that decision yesterday, part of me is telling me its the wrong one, but I need some one I'm sure that if I get I won't have to damn near kill myself to keep(I might have to damn near kill someone else, but not myself)

Ok, now that thats off my chest....Sarah, Micheal, I know I sign as Demon, but Please I would prefer being called Xexx(Zexx)

today's video is something all guys should do

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

I'm not ok
Hey, I'm doing better then I have been, But I'm still not ok, I'm still a bit confused with my feeling,but I think I want something new. So, Lauren, Maybe someday, when you can trust me, I still want to help you, but I don't have to be with you to help you, and i'm gonna try from a slightly less attached perspective, I still love you, but I really don't think you care right now. I'm still willing to let you meet my freind, in hopes that he may be able to give you some advice, but I will tell you that getting away from them, and being with freinds a little more often can or just taking a walk to clear your head helps him a lot(and clearing my head is what helped me come to this decision)

Now, I just have to wait for Nicci to be willing to go out with someone again.


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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

   Ha Ha
Sarah, Bite me.....(J/k please don't....I don't think micheal would approve)

I'm glad that she made her precence known, but it really wasn't any sweat of my back,I would just like it if everyone would leave a comment everytime they come to my page....that way I know who is looking at my page, that way I don't think the same person is looking at it over and over again, stalking me.
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   Fool
Hey, I'm still confused, but I feel better, I was finnally able to talk to Lauren last night, she told me she does come by my page, but she never leaves me a comment....

LAUREN when you read this LEAVE A COMMENT!!!(lol j/k on the screaming, but please do....)

By Request today's video is Green Day- American Idiot(Ok, so its perfect, I feel like an idiot, and unfortunately I'm american)


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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

My love life is crazy(I'm Addicted)
Things are just getting worse, I can't get either of the women out of my head, and it feels weird to have two in my head instead of only one.

I think I'm addicted to them.


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Monday, February 21, 2005

   Strange times
Hey everyone, I'm not feeling as bad as I was friday....Sorry, I haven't been around since then, I hope the few people who popped in enjoyed the video I put up...I'm a little emotional about a few things today, my heart is split right now between someone I care about more then life it self & have wanted to to be with for so long, and my Ex- whom I care about very deeply as well, and her safety I fear for.

(Quiz don't fit with what I'm talking about, but I thought it was a fun and interesting quiz to take.)

You transform into a beast! Your body is a fearsome
weapon. In a fight, you suddenly become a
strong, wild, powerful beast that will beat
down an enemy in no time. You are quiet,
withdrawn, and a loner by nature, but your
unique talent will save your friends more than
once, even if it is hard for you to bear.
Transformers: Terra Branford and Vincent
Valentine.


A cool Final Fantasy quiz: What type of FF fighter would you be?
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Friday, February 18, 2005

Why Am I Feeling like this?
I feel the weight of the world on my shoudlers, i feel the grip of death around my neck, and a yearning to cuase it, I want to let this be and think it never happen, but it refuses to go away.

This isn't me, I hate guns, I refuse to let myself die by one.

Gunshot to the head. You are impulsive and know
want you want. You do not want to be able to
take things back and this is the perfect thing
for you. You don't change your mind very often.
When you become fixed on something you achieve
it, better or worse. Instant death will prevent
anyone from helping you back into the world you
loathe so much.


What Form Of Suicide Are You?
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I don't actually claim suicide, but I feel like it is an option, I prefer the thought of Spontaneous combustion.

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What is your reason for suicide?(with images)
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Thursday, February 17, 2005

   Suicidal Thoughts
(Sarcasm) Yay, I'm suposed to be suicidal, but I'm not, If i were to seek professtional help, I would help her(I know a Shrink I would talk to) get in touch with her psychotic side, but she don't believe me.


HASH(0x85c999c)


What type of Depression do you have? (MANY different outcomes)
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