Friday, August 12, 2005

   OMG!!111elevenoneone11! I LIVE!
I am SO sorry I haven't been on in so long everyone.. My life has gone straight to hell since prom.. I've found out that, well, I've got about two diseases wrong with me that AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THERE, DAMMIT!

Also, a family member of mine has passed away thanks to an accident.. I don't want to get into it, because I'm still getting over it. I've not really been eating at all, either..

My family situation has only gotten worse, everyone. My mother, grandmother, and grandfather are literally at each other's throats about me. Threats have been made, shots have been fired, you konw how it is having three overprotective parents hovering over you and each one of them has their OWN idea of what you're going to do when you get older..?

Religion is a big thing right now in the family issues, as my grandmother thinks I should be baptist.. My mother, at this point, is so pissed off about me not being a Mormon anymore, she doesn't care right now, instead, she bogs me down with about eighty million things to do.

I'm at home a lone a lot now, at least until I start college in January, and I'm freakin' out about that, too. I've decided that I'm going to be going to Utah in March, and living there for a while to get away from the hell I've been living here and see if I can't make a better life for myself with a room mate that lives down there.

I'm hoping all goes well for me, I really just need to get a good vacation from all of this..

On a lighter note, I've got a ton of manga now! I have two computer boxed full of them! And DVD'S, too!

Wandaba style is hilarious! I won't ruin anything for you, but, imagine, pop singers as astronauts? Please!?

Midori Days is a wonderful series about a bad ass that wakes up and finds his fighting hand is now a girl! Well, that makes things difficult, and what's worse, was she was his stalker! Dun dun duuun.

Uhm, yeah, I've been branching out and about, Chrono Crusade, Bleach, Host Club, President Dad, things like that..

Anyway, I hope all bodes well for everyone else, how's it been going..?
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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

   Prom + Me = Hell
Yes, it is true.. On May 27, 2005, I, Xiao Shen, was forced to go to prom.

I was helping out my cousin, becuase her fiance had dumped her the night before the day before prom, and she had to do SOMETHING..

No one else would go with her, and, well, she'd tried calling me a lot of times, but, I was online and stuff.. So it was busy.. And.. Yeah.

But anyway, it was horrible! I was miserable the entire time, but, I kept a smile on my face! I wasn't going to depress her even more by showing her I was depressed about the entire thing.. She wouldn't get off of the fact that her fiance wasn't coming back, so, she wouldn't dance with anyone..

I had about fifteen male friends there, and not a single one asked me to dance.

That hit me hard.

Really.

We stayed at a hotel and stuff, walked around Beale, but, I couldn't go anywhere, because, at the time, I wasn't old enough, nor did I have my id on me.

But yeah, she called some of her guy friends from work and left me behind, so I was stuck there for a few hours, and finally, at about six in the morning she comes back, crying.

I won't go into any mroe details, but, it was hectic.. And she didn't even show up at my birthday bash that I had.. *Sigh* And so, my birthday was interesting..

I didn't get a lot of the stuff that my buddies promised me, but, I still smiled and everything. I know I probably sound selfish, but, I'd had a hard week.. A good manga would have cheered me up big time.

I got some cool keychains and stuff, so, that was all cool.

Oh, and question, is the new Appleseed any good? I got it as a present, and I haven't touched it because of the old series I saw..
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Monday, May 23, 2005

   EGADS!
Oh. My. God.

It feels SO weird knowing that I, Xiao Shen, have finally graduated and am on the road to getting there in life!

I kept thinking I had school today, and, was like, 'why isn't mom getting me up?'..

Of course it didn't hit me till later that I would never have highschool again.. YAAAAY! I love it, I love it, I love it!

HEe, yes, well, lately, I've been on a craze. My birthday's coming up in about eight days, or, well, it's on the 30, and, I'm so stoked! I'll be eighteen years old! Wow wow wow!

Graduation was on Friday last week. Wasn't all that great, we had it outside, but the wind blew my hat off about four times.. I got mad. I brought all my grades up though! Yay! So mother isn't mad at me anymore, and I'll be able to live! Whoo hooo!

I can't belive I got an invitation to this art project thing on myO.. I'm not THAT good, am I? I mean, yeah, I like my work, but, I didn't think it'd be worth really GOING for!! *squea* Even if I don't get chosen, the fact that I was asked to apply is totally awesome!

Maybe I'll have a better chance of doing something, nee? Who knows, it's still cool. Anyways, I got to talk to my fiance, finally! I'm so stoked about this summer. I'm supposed to go and see him, and I'll be damned if my family says no! I wanna see him! It's been forever! *sniffle* Anyway, yeah, life is tough and all that jazz.

:heart:
Mags!
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

   Oh crap, I'm gonna cry..
It was the senior's last day, and I swear that at least eighty different people hugged me in one class period.. They'd come in, hug me, tell me they wish me the best of luck or (I'm comin' to find you after this, so don't change)..

I boohooed about twenty minutes, just balled my eyes out all day today..

I'm never going to see some of my friends ever again.. I'll never see some of the teachers that I did like ever again, unless I can get some kind of transportation..

I'll miss them all soo much, even though they don't realize it.. I made an art, just for all the seniors out there that graduated too..

Also, there's a little something I want to tell everyone that's still in school itself..

You might think you hate the people around you, or the hard nosed teachers that work you to the bone, but, in the end you find yourself reminissing about those days, and wishing you could relive them.

Highschool is supposedly the best/worst, if not both, years of our lives. There is nothing we can do to change the fact that it's all over, unless you flunk, but, that's a different story..

God, I'm crying again.. *sniffle* I wish everyone the best of luck in all of their endeavors.. Especially those who really need prayer and all that jazz. I know I will, because I'm so emotionally unstable right now, I think I'll end up snapping before I walk and get my diploma.

Anyway, the pic's been uploaded in the Fan art section.. I really need to start working on wallpapers and stuff.. *birdwalking*...

Ahem-hem.. Yes, well, depression again.. Ugh, this is the tenth time I've fricken' cried today!! *sniffle* Anyway, peace out..

:heart:
Mag-ster/Xiao Shen
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Another long one..
You know, I just realized if you look at the address bar it reads '/life/add'..

Boy is that truer than they realize.. U_U;

Anyway, I got a few more of my friends to start joining myO.. One's a huge Fruits Basket fan, and she loves to draw her own characters.. She loves Naruto too. When I get her name for sure, I'll add her up and make sure EVERYONE WORSHIPS THE GOODNESS!

Hee, she cheers me up most of the time, and she's a little chipmunk.. *knows she's gonna kill me for saying that*

And, Darkened Abyssian.. My condolences to your loss of a family member.. I hope everything's okay for you. I wasn't able to attend as I thought I would, but, keep a stiff upper lip, babe!

*glomps all* I can't believe I'm in the top ten! I can't believe it! It's so cool! I hope to stay up there! I haven't been a member here for that long, and, I frankly didn't know it was going to be that easy. o.O..

I bet it's my newest pieces.. Anyway, I'm working on a new one, and I should load it up soon!

Oh, and for those whom give a damn, my end of the year exams are coming up Thursday and Friday. I really need prayers, crosses, whatever you guys of mine do, and wish me luck. I need to pass so I can get on with my life and enjoy myself!

I still can't believe this is my last week of school as a kid.. I'm going to be an adult now.. *sniff* God, why am I crying..?

Ah.. Yes, well.. It feels so strange, knowing that I'm never going to see my best friends again, and I'm going to be thrust into a world where people are mean and cruel and.. Ugly to others.. I hope it all goes well.. I'm probably just getting ahead of myself and worrying myself over nothing..

But I just realized something else that I usually don't notice unless it's a wasp or a semi.

I'm scared.
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