I have a question for [those of us who like yaoi], when you are looking for manga, do you ever flip through mature rated yaoi to look for the parts that are..well you can guess?
Today I went to Borders not looking for anything specific so for the June manga logo, because of course they are yaoi, and most of them are rated M. Well, I found one, L'Etole Solitaire. I flipped through it and the fist thing I saw, one guy was laying there with his shirt off and his pants un-zipped, and the other guy was doing body-shots off of him. so, I was like
Alright.I'm getting this. I am NOT going home without this. I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT THIS IS ABOUT. THAT WAS JUST HOT.
So I just barley read the back. I don't even know what it's about as of now. I thought it would look kind of suspicious if I bought an 18+ yaoi, and it just so happens that my father was waiting outside of the store for me, now normaly he would look at the books just to see the price, if he was to look at the back of this yaoi he would probably say something to the effect of
"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS!? YOU SHOULDN'T BE READING SOMETHING LIKE THIS."
So that was really my only chance of buying a yaoi like that, so I grabbed B.O.D.Y too. The cashier gave me some weird looks.
"Are you over 18?"
"No."
"Uhh I'm not sure if I should really be selling this to you.."
"Oh, it's fine, I buy this kind of stuff all the time."
She looked at me like I was crazy. LOL.
There are only eight days of school left, for me. I can't wait. But I get a two week break and then I have summer school. Until July seventeenth. Monday through Thursday, three hours a day, because I was stupid during the first semester and I decided not to do my work in Civics, so now I have to take the class over. It will be pretty boring, but I would actually rather be in school than be at home doing nothing all day LOL.
Oh, one more thing, I found this ADORABLE Oshare Kei band, Aicle,
This is their PV Kyuukei Mugen rensa
When I got up this morning, I saw that private messaging was back. I knew that could only mean one thing...MYOTAKU IS NO LONGER GOING TO BE ABANDONED. HELL YES.
Well anyways, I thought I would let the few of you who read my posts know that I am alive.
Hmm. What happened this weekend? Nothing really. But, there is this picture I have been working on for over a week now, because I am shading it and for me that takes a GREAT deal of time, welll I had it half way done and then the one night I forget to put it away, my brother spills choclate milk on it. I am not going to post what I said to him because that could [ossible lead to my account being suspended. But let's just say I was PISSED. LOL.
Well, I need to get going to school.
How have you guys been?
Here is a newer picture of myself, and yes if you're wondering I did try to give myself Japanese street style bangs and as you can see they don't really work for me LOL.
Honestly, have you ever asked yourself what your living for or why..? I would hope you wouldn't. I do it all the time. No, I don't wonder WHY I'm alive, and I don't wish I was just dead, what I mean is, sometimes I don't understand, because it feels like I am alone.
I have alot of time to actualy sit down and think, which is good and bad in my case, because I can easily anylize everything negative about what I am thinking about. Those of you who talk to me on a daily basis may have noticed that I have a pretty negative outlook on life, most of the time. I myself wonder why that is. Maybe it's because, I AM SUCH A DISAPOINTMENT TO MYSELF AND EVERYONE AROUND ME? Well, that's what people make it seem like, because I CAN'T tell people my true feelings, and myabe, that's because I don't even care about my own happiness, as long as the people are around me are happy, and that's just hurting myself.
And you know what, I just feel like there is no reason in even TRYING anymore, so basicly, I GIVE UP TRYING TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY. I try but it just drains me emotionaly and physicaly.
I know this is not making sense to anyone, but I guess you would just have to be me to understand, and I am trying not to hint at anything.
Sorry. I just needed to vent, I normally wouldn't tell people on here how I feel, because, to be honest. I think it's pathetic and I can only imagine how pathetic you guys would think I am, but I really have nowhere else to say what I feel without hurting anyone, and even posting this on here I am afraid that I am going to hurt someone.
I just realized that I have not posted on here for over a month now, and I just wanted to say, I AM NOT DEAD. Nor have I abandoned myO for theO. Infact, 90% I am on my computer, I am on myO, hanging out on the chatbox. So, if you want to stop by and talk, feel free to.
Anyways, today was HORRIBLE. I have been feeling sick since Monday, but this morning I felt really shitty, I could not breath, my throat was burning and my stomache was killing me. I usually don't get sick this time of the year, and I haven't really even been that sick this year, But, I forced myself to get out of bed and go to school to do a Spanish oral, and I found out that the oral is not due until tomorrow. UGH. The rest of the day in most of my classes we just watched movies, it was so hard not to fall asleep. LOL. Even now I feel like I am going to fall asleep just sitting at my computer, so I should probably get some rest.
OH YEAH. I found this picture on the main page of Photobucket last night. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL IT IS BUT IT IS CREEPY.
For those of you who are still here, have a great day.
I am thinking about going to an anime con called Anime Detour next month. I actualy just found out about it last week, and I might go with some of my friends.
I don't really have time to buy a costume on ebay, so I am most likely going to cosplay as Misa from Death Note, because I have some clothes that look like something she would wear.
As for my friends, I think they are going to be a Naruto group (because they are all Narutards)
I never got into the show so yeah. LOL
I still haven't figured out VV
So I feel like N00B O_O
My one year anniversary is coming up on Tuesday. If I would have signed up when I found this site, I would have been here for about two years now. I found theO looking for Howl's Moving Castle wallpapers, and I'm still just obsessed with Howl as I was when I first joined LOL.
I might post a new pic soong, because I dyed my hair, it's orange with yellow tips in the front and underneath and the rest is black. I got mixed reactions;
"WTF HAPPENED?!"
"Your roots look terrible."
"Omg! I love your hair, it's so like colourful!"
"I love the orange, it's bright"
"You should have done pink."
I personaly think it looks good. It kind of looked like the lead singer of Paramore's hair in that MV Misery Business or CrushCrushCrush. It's not as bad as people made it sound today. you guys will just have to see for yourselves.
Welll I was allowed to be on my computer for an hour but no one was on T__T
Now I have to get off, those of you who have my number DO NOT call me, I will get killed. You can text me all you want, I have more minutes, if you haven't gotten my number yet, and would like to text me, PM me.
(It will depend on who you are, obviously ~_~)
Well, I got grounded for getting bad grades. I have to get two F's and a C to an A. In two weeks. Now, I'm guessing I'm not of the hook, even when the term ends, in two weeks, so I'm a little pissed about that, I'm trying to sneak on as much as possible, but my parents are always on my ass making sure I'm not on it >_<
I caught a little glimpse of VV, it looks awsome, I'll have to familiarize myself with it more later.
Well, I better leave before my mom gets home T_T
And to those of you who have my number, I'm almost out of minutes TT_TT
