Monday, November 1, 2004

   Dude is today like depressed emm day? XD Its a fun holiday! WHERE'S MY PRESENTS!? Oh look I got one Hmm ::opens it:: CONDOMS!?!? WTF... O_O
I've been waiting for so long to be in your arms
To feel your heart beat
To your breathing
But nothing cries like the rain showing my pain at night
I want you to be here with me
I wish upon the lonely stars
I need you to be here with me
I wonder if we'd go far
Nothing today seems to go my way.
And nothing to do will make me feel better
And tomorrow I'll cry again 'cause I can't have you, can I?
I want you here with me
I wish upon the lonely stars
I need you to be here with me
And I wonder, I wonder, If I'm alive anymore. Can I feel the dream? Coming to true from you? I can only see you in my dreams, being there with you and I wake up and scream
And never wish I would leave
I want you here with me
I wish upon the lonely stars
I need you to be here with me
And I wonder, I wonder, If I'm alive anymore
And I wonder oh I wonder So I wonder if I can dream...
-By Emily Barankovich (Me duh. It's a song I made. ::sniffle::)

Nothing much to say. Everyone was crying around us in the assembly cause this guy was talking about his best friend turning gay and the guy wouldnt accept it so his friend shot himself. It is sad. I know, but I'm one of those people that don't know what it's like and so I felt nothing about it. I should have felt sad it's like weird o.O...
He also talked about disorders, socially inept people and whatnot and talked about the people who cut themselves and it feels good. x.X For a long time ever since I accidently cut my arm open from this sharp piece of metal it felt kind of good, like the negativity was in my blood and the blood flowed right out. Plus it felt good XD And anyway I scratched some japanese letters and stuff on my arm with my pocket knife I guess it looks cool but it felt good yet I'm afraid I'll be addicted to cutting myself. I dunno. I better stop cause I'll get in trouble. Well I'm gonna go. WOOHOO No school tomorrow, and thursday and friday off for the 4 day WEEKEND! Shweet Cassie if you're reading this we are SO gonna do something like go to the movies, rent movies, slumber party, videogames. Can't wait. Though I can wait for Wednesday cause I got two quizzes. One for vocab. in english, and one for math. Blerggg. Well see ya around gonna go stalk people XD

-Katana!
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Sunday, October 31, 2004

   BOO
Happy Halloween everybody! I hope you all get lots of candy! ^_^

Last night I went trick-or-treating in Pennsylvania (Yeah its a rule there they trick-or-treat the night before to prevent mischief night)
Well see ya around!

--Katana-ness!
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

   Tuesday tuesday tuesday -.o;
Ah, do you like the picture in my post yesterday? That's me ^_^
Also, hover your mouse over any link over my site. Nice, huh? You'd be seeing FLAMES!
FLAMES=DESTRUCTION
DESTRUCTION=SEPHIROTH
SEPHIROTH=AWESOME
Thats my formula for a cool otaku site ^_^
You know I had those little star things on my links right? Yeah tons and tons of people IMed me for the coding to get the little stars.
If you're reeeaaalllyyy nice and you want the flame things on your links, send me a IM and I'll give you the code. Well I'm off to watch some Rurouni Kenshin videos! ^-^ See ya around!

~Katana-ness (Or emm...)

(Wow I actually put like a name thing in the ending. Like signing it. Well I'ma do that now Lol byee ^_^!)
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Monday, October 25, 2004

   Fun weekend

Okay I have to do homework now so I'll say it quick. My weekend was awesome!
My FAVORITE cousin came over today. His name's Adam. I swear he knows EVERYTHING about anime! He likes swords, anime, and videogames like I do ^_^ he's also 24. Saturday we chilled and watched some anime stuff we bought and played games. Sunday we went to Chinatown and got SO MUCH STUFF! I got an awesome black and red kimono ^_^ Look up it's there that's me.
Well gotsa go! Byee.

(Oh I fixed it. The pic. Yeah! Haha I look so evil, cause of the darn red eye thing but it looks cool

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Thursday, October 21, 2004

Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
Have you ever had those times where you just don't want to love?Maybe? Maybe not? Well for the past few months I thought I knew what love was. I've talked to my friend, whom I told her that I don't truly believe in love anymore. She says "Love is important. Friendship is too. But the love depends on the person." Maybe I do believe in love but I'm misunderstood. My definition of love is "An affection for one another." I can't really make out this philosophy. So here I am with my boyfriend who is mad at me, refuses to talk to me etc. So Ido the same thing. I'm not gonna take this bullcrap from him so its a Silent war I guess. Anyways, I know someday I may find someone in the future who fits the last piece of the puzzle to my heart.
Guess what though?
I'm not worried about it. And I won't worry about it anytime soon. I have better things to do. Spend some time with friends, etc. I have to concentrate on schoolwork as well so I don't think daydreaming about love is in my agenda. And I'm in the state where I just want to be left alone for a bit, to collect my inner feelings and consider what is going on in my life. In conclusion, I think love is something I haven't been ready for, and I have learned the hard way through this. Well I'm gonna go. Leave me some comments, lemme know how this rant makes you think about stuff. Or if your bored. Same difference. I got some homework to finish. Bye ^_^
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Monday, October 18, 2004

   Fineee
Fine I'll stay. LOL As long as you leave me lots of commentses!!!! ^_^; Well I'm tired. I need some sleep so I'll be going to bed. I'll probably post something tomorrow.
Wahahaha I feel so bereft of karate. Darn stitches. GOod thing they're gonna be taken out tomorrow. I think. Well see ya ::hugs all of you people::
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Saturday, October 16, 2004

   No one is here...

You are a fencer.
You fight honerably, you try not to kill your
oponents, but only disarm them, to force them
to surrender. Once in a duel, you will go all
out, and kill your oponent. You use a rapier.


What type of Swordsman are you?
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Hello. It seems as though no one has been visiting my otaku lately. No one has commented either. I'm probably gonna stop posting here in otaku, because no one will ever read my posts! So I am wasting my time! So goodbye

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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

   Wow interesting day....
Guess what? I was rushed to the emergency room today.
I was riding my bike and being the klutz that I am, I fell! My chin split apart too. Yuck. Blood. And I was stunnd for a minute, and my parents thought I was dead. Then I snapped out of it, got up and said "I'm okay, I'm okay, just a bruise." My dad says "Oh no your not your chin's split open. You're getting stitches."
>.O So I'm at the hospital. The wait wasn't long. The nurse was nice. Lol and she injected the numbing stuff in me (WHICH STINGS......) And sewn me up. I was tranquil, cause I was watching The Simpsons heheheh Hospitals rule. Anyways I came home with 3 stitches in the muscle and 7 in the skin so 10 altogether. And this is like the 3rd or 4th time I've gotten stitches. And I have no karate and no gym for 2 weeks. I can't even shower until Thursday! Well thats okay because I'm a clean person. I smell nice. ^^; Well I'm gonna go sleep. Byee.

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Wow I haven't posted in a while, have I?
Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine

Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that’s alright
Jimmy says it's better than air,
I’ll tell you why

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine

Oh Novacaine

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine



Ah yes after all this waiting I finally made some money and got my "American Idiot" CD ^_^ Green Day rocks.
Nothing new happening, I'm going to the mall tonight, I get to go to school late tomorrow. Sweet. But I have karate Wednesday and Thursday. Ohhh Thursday >. Oh well.
A couple of nights ago I've been bitten by some bug (Or spider) on my hand and it was swollen and itchy and painful, too. My mom gave medicine and stuff and she said if the the swolling didn't go down at ALL last night I'd be rushed to a hospital to get shots. Well the swelling went down a bit, and I'm better. Woo! I think it was a spider that bit me. ::shrug:: No clue.
Boredom strikes me. If you want to say HI to me on AIM, IM me! My new screen name is SkyDragonSlifer2
IM ME! Cause me is bored and I need more friends, LOL.
And I have fan fic stuff to work on so sayounara!

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Friday, October 8, 2004

   Bored. Nothing interesting happening today, and I'm in a neutral mood.
Staring at the sun
No rays down on me
I call you in my arms
Embrace is unreal

You're moving on
We'll never be apart
Just drain my tears
I cry aloud

You're moving on
You'll never be a part
Of all the tears
I've cried aloud

Calling on your sins
You're here in my dreams
A desert place
I'm not alone

Do you really
Want to be me?

You're moving on
We'll never be apart
Just drain my tears
I cry aloud

You're moving on
You'll never be a part
Of all the tears
I've cried aloud
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You'll never find another way to be
Unlike an actor I do the best I can
(this is my dream)
Dreaming yourself with all the dreams you do
(this is my dream)
Dreaming yourself when all your dreams come true
You want it

You'll never find another way to be, way to be
You'll never change the way to live your life

I cannot bribe to my confession
But alone with myself I carry my mind the best
(this is my dream)
Dreaming yourself in all this time you could
(this is my dream)
Dreaming yourself and never be too sure
You want it

You'll never find another way to be, way to be
You'll never change the way to live your life
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Uhhh!
I can't help my feelings I go out of my mind
These players come to get me cause they like my behind
I can't help my business if i cant get a trick
Down on Santa Monica where tricks are for kids

Whoa, come on and kick me
Whoa, come on and kick me
(Whoa) come on and kick me
(Whoa) you got your problems
(Whoa) I got my ass wide
(Whoa) You got your big G-s
I got my hash pipe

Uhhh!
I can't help my boogies, they get out of control
I know that you don't care but I want you to know
The knee stocking flavor is a favorite treat
Of men that don't bother with a taste of teat

Whoa, come on and kick me
Whoa, come on and kick me
(Whoa) come on and kick me
(Whoa) you got your problems
(Whoa) I got my ass wide
(Whoa) You got your big g-s
I got my hash pipe
(Ooh) I got my hash pipe

Uhhh!
Whoa, come on and kick me
Whoa, come on and kick me
(Whoa) come on and kick me
(Whoa) you got your problems
(Whoa) I got my ass wide
(Whoa) you got your big g-s
I got my hash pipe
(Ooh) I got my hash pipe
I got my hash pipe
I got my hash pipe
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I can't run anymore
I fall before you
Here I am
I have nothing left
Though I've tried to forget
You're all that I am
Take me home
I'm through fighting it

Broken
Lifeless
I give up
You're my only strength
Without you
I can't go on
Anymore
Ever again

My only hope
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace
(To walk away from you)
My only joy
My only strength
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power
My only life
(And love is where I am)
My only love

I can't run anymore
I give myself to you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
In all my bitterness
I ignored
All that's real and true
All I need is you
When night falls on me
I'll not close my eyes
I'm too alive
And you're too strong
I can't lie anymore
I fall down before you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

My only hope
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace
(To walk away from you)
My only joy
My only strength
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power
My only life
(And love is where I am)
My only love

Constantly ignoring
The pain consuming me
But this time it's cut too deep
I'll never stray again

My only hope
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace
(To walk away from you)
My only joy
My only strength
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power
My only life
(And love is where I am)
My only love
My only hope
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace
(To walk away from you)
My only joy
My only strength
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power
My only life
(And love is where I am)
My only love
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Mmkay I'm gonna go sleepie. I'm on chapter 16 of my fanficcy, and I need tons of revising. Oy. See yah!
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