Thursday, April 26, 2007

so,
im uber bored right now...
im in computer animation and i just finished another video in my group.its called sluggish cannible.its pretty funny.lol.


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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Hi Hi Baby!
so im listening to the crayon shin-chan soundtrack.my cousin sent it to me.
i love her agen^^
yay!

so my day was okay.in class i was reading a yaoi and then accidently turned to a certain page and sum ppl saw.i was totally embarrased but all i could say was that boys love to love too....

sheesh.we took this survey also and asked us all these questions.like one of them was:"wut is ur sexuality?
a:str8
b:gay
c:lesbian
d:bisexual

i picked d.
then they asked us y and i got mad so i gave them my damn reason.they aslso asked if we were cutters or used to be cutters.sheesh.they even asked if we had emotional probs.god...i wonder if i was the only one who answered them honestly...

i mean i dont cut anymore.last time i dd it was in february.before me and yuuya started dating.i remember over the summer i cut my self too deep and blacked out.i woke up at the hospital with my arm bandaged.so...i guess that was suicide attemt number two.anywho that was when i was dating my friend aki and then a few months later we got into a fight and we broke up.a day or 2 after teh fight he killed himself by slicing his own throat.i ddnt care back then...

and then when me and yuu began to hanout more often i felt as if he really wanted to protect me.still,i ddnt realize how much he loved me till febraury....i miss yuu so much.he showed me how precious life is.



life....cherish it.
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

   mhm
so skool was gay today.
in science class i really needed to go potty and the teacher kept on ignoring me.
wen i finally got to the bathroom,the damn thing closed.so i had to wait 10 more fricken minutes.
i was pissed.

then in computer animation my teacher hit on me.now i must purify myself becuz...
1.thats wrong
2.thats disgusting
3.he's like 42
and
4.thats disgusting
i shoulda just beat the crap outta him right then and there but i was too busy trying to cover up my chest,not that it was fully exposed or anything.

gah!last night i got wicked pissed.my stepdad is such a fricken pansy.he cut off giving me money to pay fer my violin lessons!!!!
so now i have to werk.i mean i do have a life.stupid old man.

i need to watch shin-chan and prolly have a sip of vodka or sumthing.if i do drink i'll b totally guilty afterwards but i would rather drink than cut.cutting is bad!plus it'll leave ur wrists full of scars.and thats ugly.

sheesh its wicked hot right now.i sorta feel like streaking...lol.jk,jk.im not that crazy.lol.

ohh...baseball season...^v^


lol.yay yay!!!

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Monday, April 23, 2007

   yessuh...




god im back in skool and it sux.
at least we dont have to wear uniforms that way i can show my colors.
damn.there is this little noise that is bugging the hell outta me.i cant seem to find out where its from tho.
but overall...my day was crappy.
there was this new kid in my class.he's all the way from vegas.lol.he kept string at me fer like ever.
i blush very easily so if i catch sum1 staring at me fer a while i start turning red.
its not my fault tho^^;;
well...in computer animatin,we presented our videos.i made one by myself and the teacher ddnt like it.well he just sed it was a bit boring.
then my group showed the miyavi one we were werkin on all week and he seemed to like that one.wutever its not like i care....

omg!but two teachers got fired from my skool.one of them got caught sleeping with a student and another one was caught holding hands with another student.that sux to b them.luckly i wont have to werry about sex and all that stuff till im married.if i really wanted to i could lose my virginity to sumone but NOPE!!!i am going to wait till marriage.plus it will b more special.

later on today im going to boston!yay!!!!!im going to see hiro's band practice so im stoaked.i have to call him in a bit.lol.

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

   konnichiwa Yarro...chotto dake...yaro
just kidding^^omg i hope none of u guys no wut that meant.if u do im soory fer the bad language^^;;;;;
so last night i called asano-san...he knows who i am now.it was long distance but it was werth it.he's living in puerto rico right now but this summer he sed he'll b going to japan.and that means.....no matter wut,i'll have to get my ass on a plane all th way to japan.
it took me a while to convince him that i was his daughter but when i mentioned my mom's name he stayed silent fer quite a while.i got nervous...
all he did was appologize after that.
anywho we decided to keep in touch by using a calling card instead of the regular cuz it would suck like hell if my mom found out i knew about him.
and we will meet in hokkaido.

today i had to go to one of my cousin's birthay.and this guy was there talking to us.it
was very awkward but he told me that it looks like i would have a japanese dad.my mom laughed and just sed yeah right.anywho the party was boring...all i really did was read and eat,read and eat.we left after cake and a little bit of dancing.

im a bit sad fer i have skool tomorrow>___<
skool, sux.i hate it.i'm sick of doing home werk and projects and wut not.
-sigh-i cant wait till the summer time.

skool is tomorrow
slowly taunting me like death
summer,lifts sorrows

ahahahahahahahahahaaaa!!!a random haiku i just made!!!i crack myself up.
okay...now im in a very pissed off mood.any fricken moment i will shoot my fricken stepdad...grrrr!!!!
well this is all i have to say to him:
Mu katsuku
and
Oi chotto!!
and
waratenai zo
and
OMAE DO KA IKE!!!!!
ah,now that thats aoutta my system i appoligize if u guys no wut those werds meant.

GAH!!!im uber pissed agen!!!!!same goes fer my mother!!!!she's such a bitch!!!!!
wut am i?her little servant girl?i hate her so much......god!i wish i lived with my grandparents or sumthing.at least they wont invade my space.
god...NANDE!!!!!!NANDE!!!!!

ONE werd i have to say to mom:
Kechi!!!

my life is sucking right about now......i just wanna beat the crap outta one of 'em...shin-chan aint even on tonight so i cant really get cheered up.hmmm....maybe music will help...
dir en grey-will keep me mad and will make me kill sumthing
miyavi-will make me sad and then i'll start thinking about yuuya's death
the candy spooky theater-will make me think about a nightmare i kept having...
12012-i'll think of the time i liked nii-chan
la ley-c'mon,ive been listening to them all day long....

ah!mind of mencia's on!!!!now im happy!i love that show!!>w<
lol.but as fer music i was about to pop in tokio hotel.that is a german band.not a japanese band.u would think so cuz of the name.lol.
meh fave 2 songs by them are"ich bin nich ich"and"schrei"
they're good so...chack them out when u have the chance then tell me wut u think plz.
well i gtg.i love yew all.
<3
ZuLy-ChI

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

   yeah yeah...
how is everyone?
srry i couldnt update yesterday...i was quite busy all day.
i went out with a friend of mine.we went to the mall and then we went to ruby tuesday.um...that was a very strange restaurant for me.
all i could seem to choose to eat was a burger.
when i got it that thing was the motherload.it was yummy tho.
i ate it even tho i was craving sum crab....

anyways today i went to boston with ayumi.she took me to the quincy marketplace...i ate sum good old chinese food=D
i couldnt really seem to find okonomiyaki or takoyaki anywhere....
oh well.

so we met sum guys.and one of them was very interesting.his name was hiro.
he's in a band>w<
i totally fergot wut its called tho^^;;;
sumimasen.
BUT...we exchanged numbers and stuff.he invited me and ayu-dear to check out his band sumtime.i'm pretty excited.
ooh!but boy does he speak japanese very well.
i felt a bit left out since ayumi started to talk to him in japanese and asked him wut part of japan he was from.
i just smiled and stared talking to his friend.^^ that way i ddnt look like a total loser face....

there were alot of couples there...i kinda envy couples.at least they have that special sumone,y'kno?the only other person i can think of is ayumi.i alredy kno she likes me but im not ready to b in a relationship...fer quite sum time....
man...i fell so dumb.but wut are u supposed to do when u think u'll fall inluv with another person.i mean i understand the saying:"till death do us part",but...is it still bad that death has parted me and yuuya?i feel as if tho i cant really truly understand....>_______<

-clears throat-OMG!!!im totally afraid to go back...i have so many stuff here now...how am i supposed to take them with me?and i definetly cannot leave my stuffed animals behind.gosh...i dont wanna keep relying on others that much...so in tokyo...i will either live in a dorm or im going to have to live in a one bedroom apartment.but now....to get there....i'll have to ride a plane...i wasnt afraid to get on a plane before....and now im afraid.i rode a plane to get here...i dont think i wanna ride a plane to go back....i must b brave.yuuya would want me to b brave>D

how am i to do that if i have no parental support???

ooh!but i got juice on my dad.he was a transfer student who soon adotped the name enrique.i found out his last name so i may find him by that.his last name is asano.in my mom's letter's i found a fone number...enrique's fone number.
i will call him later on today.to ask him if he knows about me.i dont understand y he wouldnt..but i'll soon find out.^^im a little nervous tho.

sooo...my cousin got to meet miya-chan.im a bit envious of her right now.they met at this huge dinner thing.ah well....maybe i'll get a chance to meet him.lol.as if.who would wanna meet a little mutt like me???i am adorable so i may b a ble to use that as my advantage...yayayay^v^

welp.enuff about me.how was ur day??

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

   I LOVE YEW SUNSHINE!!!!
YAY!!!!!ITS SUNNY ONCE MORE!!!


man i missed meh fave show in the werld last night.it was only 2 minutes away...


i was so sleepy tho.so i had to wake up x-tra early today...went to q-town...did the usual but now im on break.i dont wanna werk no more.ayumi is buying me sum okonomiyaki and takoyaki and sum candi...and much more!!!so i cant wait to devour it all.ooh!!!!12012 is on!!!!YES!!!!!
i love j-rock -_- its delishes.

i need to get more into j-pop tho.i dont really listen to alot of it.which is quite sad.welp.ive been doing sum digging thru my moms notes and i think i kno who my real father is.so i got his moms number and i will call.mabe i could meet him...he was a foreign exchange student from japan and met my mom in puerto rico.i hope that he is my dad.i pray to the heavens.

takoyaki!!!!!!

okonomiyaki!!!

ramen!!!!

more sushi!!!!

candy!!!!

and apple juice...


heehee.that is wut my luch is going to b like.lol.i eat alot.welp.ill post agen later.^^

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

   uber sleepy...
well...its been raining all week so far...
-sigh-im in the car right now using nii-chan's laptop.he's driving me home from q-town.
werking on the vid today was so tiring.i wanna sleep so bad.i was supposed to come home around 3.30 but knowing that q-town is an hour away from my house i ddnt wanna miss arthur.so i left at 5.50.^^
anyways at least i got to eat sumthing before i left...i ate sum jiaozi.i think i spelt it right its a chinese dumpling.sansan's friend made them so i ate them.i also ate sum sushi.it was so colorful when it arrived in the platter>.<
i ddnt wanna touch its beautifulness.



aw.i just found sum kawaii icons>. and she sed she'll think about it...i may b able to go to japan with yuuya's parents.its going to feel weird not having him around anymore.i still miss him dearly.but i think he'd want me to learn more about that part of my culture.i mean i kno so much about my spanish side....


god its like im being timed right now....i remember when i first liked nii-chan.....he tricked me by saying he was 32 but then i found out he was actually 18.i never thought a 32 year old would look so good....
but then yuuya came into the picture.he made my life piccy perfect....and now he's dead....
i miss him.gah....im getting teary eyed....
subject change!!!!
here are sum icons!!!











and finally...MY BIRTHPLACE>.<
(i wasnt born in a boat...)




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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

   ^v^
welp my day is goin just swell(sarcastically)
its fricken raining and im at the library>.<
i am uber pissed off at my cousin right now.she called me last night saying how she might get to meet miyavi...
i wanna beat the crud outta her.wut if they become friends?she'll b 18 soon so...wut if they...T___________________T

its pretty depressing.
i mean c'mon.she ditches a whole week with me here fer a whole 2 weex out there in japan.
she upsets me.

i mean im the most adorable thing u can ever come across of.lol.

omfg!!!i totally fergot that later on today nii-chan will b picking me up to take me to q-town...
aw man.im tired of werkin on the vid...i need a vaca from all this!!!!

aw man!oh!!!today i was watching the wiggles and laughed my ass off at the perple one...they r so funny and yet i think they r gay...



but i bet right around now minna is walking around this place:


DOWNTOWN SHIBUYA!!!!

i'm hoping to go there this summer.
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Monday, April 16, 2007

-_______-
miyavi and sum dude...


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