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Wednesday, September 7, 2005
Hiya....
So.... Screwed up day.
I hate my maths teacher and my mom. I had fun at school. But, I heard Juho AINT dating anyone. My ex bestfriend lied. Aint that just FRIGGIN IDIOTIC!?!?! She said to her friend, which I heard from she was lying, that its 'To make her even little jealous'. Why the HELL would I be jealous of that.... That..... Im not gonna friggin say it. We have litle kids out here. Dunno who but lets pretent.
Now Julys mom aint gonna let her go to the city. Friggin NICE!!
Thats it. My bro MUST have something alcoholic to drink.... When he comes to the PC, I will grap them. Uh-huh, I will....
Well, its hes time to get to the PC. And he will be leaving tomorrow so yeah. See ya guys.
And if you didnt visit him already, his account is HakuKohaku
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And you know what? I feel like I have no friends anymore. Just - Whatever. When I lose them all, I dont even excist. Alcohol. Knife. Whatever just to friggin kill this. Yeah screw Eric Im tired to care aboute friggin anyones feelings right now! Im just..... Gonna hurt myself in someway.
And screw the blueberrys....
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Tuesday, September 6, 2005
*yawns*
Im gonna keep my hair. Im gonna. Because now I have some reason to drag Neji over here. *nod nod* Sorry for even thinking aboute it Neji-kun. *bows* Gomen nasai.
Now, now. We're going to the city at thursday. Im gonna kill all the peoples at the bookstore if they dont have any new mangas. They do have Kyoko and Conan, I know that but mangas like Wallflower, Negima (just cant get over it -_-), xxxHolic and Tsubasa. Their really greate. *nod nod*
And I gotta buy pencils. Again. Drawing manga reeeally uses my pencils. Oh man I just realized I have maths tomorrow.... Awww I gotta listen to the friggin woodenshoe..... not again....
And Juho has another girl. Yeah, I heard from my ex bestfriend. She told me that. Shes at our school, too, she said. Now, you think I wouldnt care or that I would be angry dont you? Im actually happy. Im happy to know hes over me and happy that he got someone.
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*deep silence*
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.....Eric STILL hasnt been on. Im gettin really tired of waiting I mean what the fuck is the idea on dating if the other one of us is never on!? I just dont friggin get it. I need attention. Im a friggin girl tho sometimes I act like a guy. Duu-UH!
*sigh*
I made myself depressed. Hooray, hooray.
.... O_o My bro has beer!! DAMN! I found the answer!! Heureka!! Alcohol!!
What!? I at least have something to forget all shit. Man, my brother is fair. He gave me some. I love him ^.^ Lets all get drunk!!
Yep, Im going now. If I can, I draw more. First, Im gonna get over the depression. Cya.
*Starts singin 'What shall we do with the drunken Caramon...'*
And hey..... My bro just joined MyO..... visit him, hes account is HakuKohaku
Yeah, its from Spirited Away. We both love it.
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Monday, September 5, 2005
Good, Johanna, very very good. -English teacher Ofcourse! Im a friggin geanious. ~Me to Heidi ---Today, our english class
Yeah, I am back.
Well, I talked aboute the poem. I named it as 'Never loved you'.
All days we spent together
All days of dates
I've forgotten loss
And I've forgot the pain
Im sorry if I hurt you
Im sorry if I made you cry
Im sorry I was angry,
Im sorry I lied
Im sorry I fooled you
Im sorry I fight
But your better without me
I know that you arer
And to tell you the truth
Actually
I never loved you
And now when your gone,
Now when Im free
I know that your lonely,
And sad as I should be
But I also know you will make it
Make it threw all
I know you will make it,
Make it threw all.
Im sorry I hurt you,
So sorry I made you cry
Im sorry I was angry,
So, so sorry I lied
Im sorry I foolde you,
Im sorry, but I fight
And your better without me,
Much better without me,
And to tell ya the truth,
I actually never, Never,
I never loved you
Im everything you hate,
Im everything you are
Im only a shadow,
Shadow in your heart
Im only a coward,
but so we both are,
You need someone stronger,
Someone to love,
And Im only a girl,
And your a stupid ass,
Im sorry I hate you,
So sorry I do,
Im someone you dont know,
someone you dont love,
And to tell you the truth,
I have never, never,
Loved you.
That was something random I made up yesterday. It makes me think aboute three names: Loki, Mergani, Juho. I never loved those three guys. And I know it because I didnt even feel sad when we got seperated. So yeah.
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Eric still hasnt been on. I feel like being abadoned here. *sigh* Well. Gotta keep stalking those asian guys in the bus. I got a picture of the other. He didnt even notice when I took it. Duh. Dont they have eyes or are they just blind? Neji-kun, evil news for you. My 'buddy' Riia asked me today why I dont cut my hair. I said I like it tall, plus I promised a friend I wouldnt. She said I should cut it. Just started wondering maybe I should. I love it long, but I hate brushing it. I love my hair but... Damn. I need a change for my life. *sigh*
Well. I gotta go now. Im gonna play TheSims. I wanna go shopping with Chiyu. And Heidi gave me a challenge today: I gotta get few sentences on my manga. Few of them were "Oh my god, your drunk!" "Ballad for a beautiful woman, ofcourse!" "Googeli DOO!!" and "Get naked, dance balet and put a rose in your ass and I may think again" plus, my faivorite: "Well, It looks like a marshal mallow, but it may be frog that has gotten under a bike, too"
^^; Thats no big challenge!! These peoples in my manga are maniacs so no big deal, huh. When we think aboute Yuki, Chiyu and July.... No big deal. -_-; And I was the geanious on english class again. Uh, well, ofcourse! I speak english better than Finnish, duh!
Well yeah. Take care.
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IT-class
Yay.
Im at IT class and Im bored. And tired.
This may mean I have to kill Eric. He hasn’t been on. Ha - ha – ha. Wonder if he even cares anymore. Starts to feel like he doesnt.
Man this is boring. Im trying to be quiet so he wouldn’t notice Im writing this. I gess I should listen to the teacher but I already know everything he says. So yeah.
*sigh* Neji-kun, when we finally meet, some beautiful day, you got to cheer me up.
I have made 38 pages on my manga. Yayeys.
You know what. I dunno what to say. ‘Cept I made a poem last night. It was okay, I think. I may put it up todaynight, were staying at moms restaurant so I got good chances to get it up. Its a lot of ‘Im sorry’. Yep. So Im on tonight, check that post too. Should be back in 7-8 hours. Yeah.
Well yeah, Im gonna go. Class is over soon and I still gotta check PMs. So ttyl. Take care all, love and miss ya Eric. Miss ya too Neji-kun.
And Ender, you may call me Arja, just PLEASE use Jo in republic. Okay? Please?
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Sunday, September 4, 2005
Me good.
Yes. Me good. Very very good girl.
Last night I would've had online dates with Kurogane. I didnt even think aboute bothering because I played Sims. And it was good because he still havent e-mailed me, duh.
Yeah well. Woke up 08:30 Just so I could get to play sims. I was friggin tired but anything for TheSims. Chiyu is pregnant for Haku, Yuki and Cohen are a couple (WIERD! Their both straights.... T__T) I finally got Daisuke to let Takenaga kiss him and their engaged, they adopted a girl with red hair and her name is Mariko. Yuki and Cohen also adopted. Black girl with blond hair. Its wierd that shes black, I mean everyone else are whites, 'cept for Yuki which is latino. But oh well I like the girl. Her name was Ines. How sweet. Chon has gone mad. He likes the Bunnybuddy way too much. T__T Well, No-one talks to him. 'Cept hes Yukis and Cohens good good friend.
Hey July. I was thinking that maybe Yuki and Cohen really should be couple in thi end. Screw Momo and Ryoka. Their boring. Yaoi takes over my head!!
T___T So glad theres still Chiyu and Haku.... *sigh*
Sundays are the days that make me think.... Hell alot. Whys that?
He's my best friend, best of all best friends.
Do you have a best friend too ?
It tickles in my tummy, he's so yummy yummy.
Hey, you sould get a best friend too !
Old song I got in a CD my bro made me like 5 years ago.... Best friend by Tou Box. Its really fun. *sigh* Man, man, man. Im so friggin tired. I got school tomorrow, IT the first classes and I will be here, at least answering PMs.
Im reeeeally gonna kill Eric if he aint on today. Hes on every other sunday. Or every other weekend. I have been counting.
*sigh*
Yep. Little depressed. Not actually depressed. I dunno what this is, its a new feeling... Wonder what it is. Just feel like depressed but still feel fine. Feel like missing someone then in other hand it feels like Im better alone. Then in next second I feel like crying then laughing like hell. First sad then happy.
Wonder whats gone in me. And DarkenElf..... That ass is freaking everyone out. She knows everything aboute everyone, and specially me. How does she do that? Shes like my twin she knows every feeling of mine, every thought of mine, and it annoyns me. And shes not ashamed to tell aboute me and my feelings. Duh. Once you know me you know her, once you know her you know me.
Oh man.... I gotta go. We're going home again so its goodbye to the PC for a week. *sigh* Well. Take care peoples. Im gonna try to be on. Ttyl.
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Saturday, September 3, 2005
Hiya all....
So Ive been playing TheSims all day long and never got bored. Heh.
*yawn* Tiiired. Uhh I am so sick and tired of those damn polish guys. Their been on the computer every half an hour, so I can play aboute 20 minutes then stop again because they want to use the PC. Its just annoying.
Man. Im bored. Dunno what to do. Im just bored. Been thinking aboute Eric. Then Neji. And Neji and Eric. Yep. Been thinking alot. But I decided one thing: Every time I am at the city, I try to concider of what I really need to buy. But its a sure thing I am gonna buy manga till I have 100 pieces (I have 97 ^^).
But the point is Im gonna save money till I have enough 1.Get away from here (I first gotta graduate from highschool) or 2.Pay someone fun to come here. Yeppie.
Uh hey I gotta go. My kidsister is calling. She was in a fight and got beated up badly and shes sad. So I gotta go. Family first. Well yeah. See ya, take care.
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
My own slave
He he he Neji-kun promised to be my slave. Yay.
I feel better today. Not so lonely anymore. Yeah, it is possible to stop being bi. When your ex bestfriend tells you she has wanted to kiss you, I promise you, you get freaked out. Im not lying.
As for my gangwar manga: When Takenaga was 11, hes aniki (Japanese: Older brother) named Akira died when he was trying to protect him from a gang. The gang killed Akira and Takenaga survived. 6 years forth, Daisukes and Takenagas relationship gets warmer cuz Takenaga realizes that Daisuke is just like hes aniki was. He starts crying and tells that to him, and Daisuke blushes as he knows how close to Akira Takenaga was. Plus Takenagas oldest brother, Hatori, comes around. He left when Takenaga was 10. And he told Takenaga that he left because he was jealous to Akira. Takenaga always called Akira aniki or brother, but Hatori was just Hatori. So he left. Because he losed two brothers, cuz Akira seemed liking Takenaga more. Hatori is aboute to leave but Naga-kun stops him and says that Hatori was always Akiras rolemodel and he learnt everything from him. So, they start getting along. First time in my life.
I thought July would like to know.
Now, now.... As you know, tomorrow is monday and Im gone again. Till friday. I just hope your all okay, SPECIALLY Aniki and Neji. And by aniki I mean Alex. Guys please try to take care. I'll draw something for you if it makes you feel better. *hugs both*
Have you Ever...? | Created by blast-the-music and taken 1599 times on Bzoink | | Played Spin the Bottle? | Actually I have played 'spin the pencil' with my classmates.... | | Toilet Paper someone's house | no | | Played Poker with money | no | | Gone swimming in a white T-shirt | no, but with black, longsleeved, yeah ^^ | | been tickled so hard you couldn't talk | No... | | like someone but never told them | Hell yeah! | | went camping | Once. Will never do it again. | | had a crush on your broher's friend | Yeah.... | | walk in the rain without an umbrella | I never use umbrella in rain | | told a joke that NObody thought was funny | Couple of times. Usually the sumbest ones always laugh. I only know dummys. | | been in a talent show | no.... | | started laughing at someone's bedtime | Uh-huh, many times. | | worn somthing your mom didn't appove of | I always do.... | | been to a nude beach | NO | | drank jack daniels | No | | cursed in a church | *cough cough* Yep.... | | been called a slut for kissing someone | ....Not for kissing someone but I have been called a slut.... | | burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner | No. I dont use such. | | wanted to be a police officer | Never. I wanted to be a robber. | | dumped someone | Yup. | | been hit on by someone too old | *laughs* Many, many times. But I like older guys ^.~ | | wanted to be a model | Never, actually | | bought lottery tickets | Yea, few times | | made out in a car | No. No-one gave me a change. | | cried during a movie | Last night actually. Watched windtalkers. And I usually cry when lovers get seperated. Or the other dies. | | wanted something you couldn't have | I always do... | | had sex on the beach | Im a virgin, actually. | | had the drink sex on the beach | No.... | | seen someone shoplift | yup | | hung up on someone | Uh-huh.... | | yelled at you pet | When it ate my pizza.... T_T | | bought a thong when the casheir was a guy | Nope. | | tried to strip when drunk | I have been drunk 2 times, and I was alone with my parents, so no.... | | gotten seasick | No | | had a stalker | *cough cough* Yeeeah. | | played a prank on somone that had them really scared | No.... | | been embarassed by one of your family | I always am. By my mom. She cant shut aboute anything. | | felt bad about eating meat | .....Sometimes yeah...... | | protested | YEAH! | | been to an island | yea | | been in love | Sorry to admit. Only few times seariously. The others were just crushes. | | ate jus because you were bored | not actually.... | | looked at something everybody thought was ugly and said "aww" | T_T That ALWAYS happens. They say I have a wierd taste. | | Screamed in a library | No..... | | Made out with a stranger | No... | | Been Dumped | Yeah. Way too many times. | | Wished a part of you was different | I always do. | | asked a guy to dance | Er, no... I hate dancing. No-one ever asked ME to dance. | | been asked out by a really hot guy | No. Their always ugly and lonely ones. But I like those ones the best. And I love geeks. | | laughe so hard ou cried | yeah. Happens alot with July ^^; | | went up to a complete stranger and started talking | no | | been sunburned | no. I stay inside all summers.... Except if I got a good reason to be out | | kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert | Er, well no.... Guys hate me here. They think Im ugly.... | | threw up in school | No, strangely. | | recieved an anonymous love letter | *sigh* No.... | | had to wear something you hated | Yeah. My mom hates black. I love it. | | been to a luau | Neh | | say your ex and wanted to kick his ass | I actually hate very few of my ex bfs.... | | cursed in front of your parents | Yeah.... I do it alot | | been in a commerical on tv | no | | watched a movie that made you miss your ex | .... .... ..... I..... Wont admit it...... | | been out of the country | *sob* NO! Thats why I want to get hell outta here T_T | | been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk | no | | won at pool | no | | went to a party where you were the ony sober one | no. I have never been in a party. No-one wanted me in. Never. | | went on a diet | I've been on diet last 3 years by my mom. | | been lost out to sea | No. | | cheated on your bf | Yeah, cheated on Juho. | | been cheated on | Yeah. Many times. | | tanned topless | No.... | | been attacked by seagulls | No, but by butterflies I have.... | | been searched in an airport | No. | | been on a plane | NO! | | been pants-ed | ..... | | thown a shoe at someone | *cough cough* No comment | | broke someone's heart | ....Yeah. | | sung in the shower | I always do ^.^ | | bought something way too expensive | YES! | | done something really stupid that you still laugh about | Yep ^^; Alotta things | | been walked in on when you were dressing | No, and Im happy aboute it. | | ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie | No.... I love horror movies. Their not even scary. | | been kicked out of the mall | No ^^; | | ben mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back | Well yeah but actually not so often | | been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one | Nope..... | | done something stupid when you were drunk | Well I found my ring from the fridge after a night I was drunk | | fell off your roof | No.... | | pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone | No.... Never had someone nice | | had a deer jump in fron of your car | Yep. Tho their actually reindeers. | | threated someone witha water gun | ^.^ My kidsister | | Can you.... | | Unwrap a starburst with your tounge | ^^; What kinda question is this? | | sing | No. Well yeah, I can, but its different thing what it sounds like then.... | | open your eyes underwater | Uh-huh | | eat whatever you want and not have to worry | No.... | | ice skate | Yeah | | sing in front of a crowd | NO! Hell no, over my dead body!! | | whistle | Yup | | be a bitch at times | *cough cough* I am a bitch all the time | | do thirty pull ups | Yeah.... | | walkin in really high heals | .....Go away | | eat super spicy foods | I can. But my mouth will burn. | | skateboard | no.... | | sleep with the lights on | no.... | | mulititask | Well yeah | | touch your nose with your tounge | yup ^^ | | fall asleep easily in the car | Yeah | | do the cotton eye joe | Do wha? | | play ddr and not fall | I always fall | | surf | No.... | | fit in your locker | I used to.... | | do a split | No.... | | taste the difference between pepsi and coke | Ofcourse. I loe Pepsi but I dont actually like Coke. | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink |
You have a whole week time to read that. But you dont have to ^^ Just thought.
Girl,
You lived your life like a sleeping swan
Your time has come
To go deeper
Girl,
Your final journey has just begun
But destiny chose the reaper
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Girl
Rain falls down from the northern skies
Like poisoned knives
With no mercy
Girl
Close your eyes for the one last time
Sleepless nights
From here to eternity
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
(Destination Darkness)
(Destination Darkness)
Ooooh
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
Ooooh
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
Destination Darkness
No Fear
A cool song that I and July heard. And we saw the musicvideo too. Its cool. Lauri Ylönen (the singer) Sure has a fetish on everything that flies. First rawens now butterflies. I love Apocalyptice feat Lauri Ylönen 'Life Burns'. Its so cool *sigh*
Well yeah. Im gonna go now *squeezes all* Im gonna miss you. All of you, take care.
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
If the world is bad, close your eyes and dream. We'll meet. In your dreams ~Person X
I dont know whats that supposed to mean but I dont care.
Eric hasnt been on. *sigh* Wonder if he cares anymore. I fight my way to the PC every time I get on it so he should at least try. Tho I think he will get someone else soon. He says hes hated but hey so am I and still guys love me. Im like a manget. Its not fun. I hate being a manget. Of course its nice if guys like me but..... I getting bored of being betrayed. Im just getting bored of guys. And Im not bi anymore. I dont like gals anymore. Not after hearing aboute my ex best friend. Im tired of being me. I want to change. I could start with cutting my hair....
Neji promised to be my slave if I let it grow....
....Im still bored of myself.
Ayanami. It would be easy to be Ayanami. A doll without feelings.
Well, these days Im forever Kyo/Tohru fan. Seeing Kyo and Torhu at Fruits basket vol 6 was so sweet. Kyo cried. Cute guys should cry more. Guys should cry more. It proves your not souless shits. Huh. Well Loki cried but hes still souless. Well. Who cares. I should cry more. I dont even remember last time I cried. Oh, now I do. After BP. *sigh* Yeah... Life sucks.
Im sorry that July left. Now all bad things come to my mind again. Ive survived threw this before so I will survive now.
Now, Im starting to feel that Eric doesent even remember me so I could say Im a single once again in my life. If he doesent show up - well bad thing for him. Yeah, I do love him. I do miss him. I do want to be with him. But I also want someone who has time for me. If there was a way to keep in contact with him I would but.... I think there isnt. Every each time I open the computer I pray that he would be on or that I had a message from him, but it never happens. Hes never there. Life is depressing.
I just cant give up like that. I will never be like Levi is and giving up would be a sing of becoming like him. So I just gotta hang in there like Rei does. Yeah.
Actually NGE has become my faivorite show. Its dramatic. And Eva 01 is cool. Yeah, its old but I like it. I think Im gonna find those three tapes and watch them all over. Yup. Hot chocolate. It wll cheer me, like always. Well yeah. Take care all.
Oh hey, visit Otaku-er called DarkenElf. Shes kinda.... *cough* .....Sister of mine.... Ehm.....
Just visit her, shes brand new
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Friday, August 19, 2005
Me back
Hiya all!
So I just got back. Im with July right now and we tried to catch fish. Didnt make it T_T Damn.
I still HATE our class!!! Specially Robert *narrows eyes* Someone kill him and you will be my VERY best friend. No, July stop!!
OMG July hates flies..... Shes trying to kill one x_x She killed it. Damn. It died in pains.... *laughs manically* DIE asshole!!! Now you will NEVER touch my coffee again!
We've been talking aboute Uzumaki and Neji-kun whole alot ^.^ Hey Neji I just noticed that you MIGHT be one of my crushes. Your nice ^^ ....No Eric, dont kill anyone.
Awww Anyways I got nothing else to say but..... Gays rule!!! ^____^ Tee hee You will never understand
C ya and take care!
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
HI!!!
Im back Im back Im back!!!
For a day ^^;
Hi all!! *hugs all* AWWW I so damn missed you!
Schools been hell. We have a new student. My worstest nightmare happaned today: He started being friends with my arch enemy, robert. I will never forgive the guy. Never. He will burn in hell. By my. In other words, I will set him on fire. Heh.
And my cousins there. And now Im sure July is my new bestfriend: My ex bestfriend tweety doesent talk to me anymore at school. But who cares? I have two good friends which are July and Katja ^.^ Tee hee.
And revenge is still alive. My best friend, ex one, wont have a charater on my manga. Only July and Katja will *narrows eyes* Hmm. Well yeah. Theres so many things to tell. Like July and I have the same cookerings class ^.^ Yay! And its now proved I dont hate kids. I love them X_X Someone gave me drugs. Or maybe my bro poisoned me x_x Curse him!!!!
Hey peoples, Arigato! *bows* ^^ I got alotta PMs which made me reeeeally happy. And my ranking is 444 ^.^ Tee hee he hee. And I have smiled. Alot. Even when I was late from class like 20 minutes. -_-;; Umm well yeah it was my fault that I July and Katja were late. Im guilty. Cant denire.
And Its now offical. I changed my name to Jo. I have been writing to my books and notebooks 'Jo' not 'Johanna'. I mean come on, five names in it: Johanna, Jo, Johan, Hanna and Anna. I dont want a friggin name like that!! Tho its not my offical name O_o yeah a shock aint it? Its actually Arja. but Ive always been Johanna. Even my parents call me that. So Im Jo *nod nod*
Well yeah I gotta go now. Got new Neon Genesis EVangelion date, I have 3,5 hours till I gotta go to sleep (No, no-ones making me, just wanna wake up enough early tomorrow -_-;;) So I gotta watch it before I go to sleep. So yeeah. Take care peoples, We'll talk more next weekend! ^.^ Will miss ya all, and love ya Eric!
Hey, Neji!! No I dont have a crush on you. I just now have a good reason to smile ^^ Dont I? Just wanna help a friend. I have Eric and if I had a crush it would be Telk, Amerill or Uzumaki-kun ^.^ Hehehe most likely.
Yay!! Cookering and ArtsSpecial class tomorrow!! ^.^ Me happy, Me happy!!
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