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Birthday
• 1991-12-17
Location
• Finland. Unfortunately
Member Since
• 2004-11-20
Occupation
• Heavy Hippy
Real Name
• They call me Jay

Personal

Achievements
• Becoming a seme of 2 girls and ONE GUY. He's so cute. Oh yeah. and. I HAVE A SON! <333333
Anime Fan Since
• Since I saw Ginga. Aboute 4 years old kid.
Favorite Anime
• Currently... Naruto, Ouran High School Host Club or... I don't know.
Goals
• To make Omen A ((Our band, Im the drummer and the leader-sama)) to succeed
Hobbies
• Drawing, collecting manga and candles.
Talents
• Drawing, cooking, messing up

myOtaku.com: xSakurax

Friday, August 5, 2005

I belive that there is also some strenght you need to cry when you should ~Fai D. Flowright
Yea theres once again one wierd picture of me.... -_-;

So....

Hallo....

Okay I just gotta admit it Lokis bro IS sweet. In hes own, jerky way. He was so goddamn depressed last night. He came to me and sitted right next to me, leaned hes head on my shoulder and mushed himself against me and closed eyes. And he said "Never let me go". What could I do!? He was this little kitten in my arms x_x It was good I didnt faint... He just... God. Im Deeply shocked. He was there like two hours, but I was amused how quick time flied there. Just gosh... I never want any more guys to fell inlove with me....
Im just so shocked. I didnt know a guy can be that cute. Besides a guy in hes age. Hes 19 think aboute that. All that should be going threw hes mind should be sex. Nothing else. Then he does this. There must be some trick here, damn sure is..... He just keeps saying that "Oh Im so inlove with you" And things. Me no like. He must be lying. Or something. No guy truly likes me. No no. No-one. I've ever met a guy who loved me the most. Never. Juho loved himself more even tho he also hated himself. Im always the second. There must be something wrong with me..... Im a masocist or something....
I KNOW I sound like paranoid but I am. At least Im not pissed.... Well he does take my thoughts away from everything, he does make me feel better when I miss Eric, but I still only like him as a friend. God this is almost as horrible as it was with Juho I mean I dont hate him but it stresses me out as bad.....
*hits her head on a wall* NO STRESS!! I dont want a goddamn panic attack, I DONT want an ulcer, I have something to do with my life goddamn.....
Hey, now when we're talking aboute Juho: He keeps senting messages to my VERY best friend in msn. He mailed her. No I dont got a prob with that I always would like to be friends with guys I've broke up with but just.... My best friend wanted that he was my friend. She was telling me "Hey tell him that you can still be friends hes a great friend" Well the problem was that when guy has once touched me in pervert way I dont want to be near him (Waite..... I still wanna be friends with Lokis bro.... Oh its different) and now when their making a friendship soon they will start hating me together! No fair! Fine, Grinner, your gonna get my best friends place very goddamn soon if this show goes on.
Hmm. I have onlinedates with Lokis bro in 15 minutes. How fun. *sigh* Im screwed. And my mom has putted me on a diet, like I wasnt already. but this is different. All she lets me eat are apples, Noodels and bananas. Nice I will puke if I ever see noodels again.... Just eww. I need something.... Something.... Oh yeah, a wall. Thats what I need. *hits her head on a wall* Why why why why!!??
WAAH!!! Why is he cuter than Loki!? The prob is I do like him but I dont wanna fell inlove with him! HES TOO OLD!! No that cant be an excuse after that I dated that 46 years old guy.... Hes..... Okay hes Lokis bro? Brothers usually are more alike that it first seems.... or siblings anyways. Peoples tell me that Im so alike with my bro. Well we both like Heavy and act lil.... Dark. The difference is that hes stronger than me. In mind, sould and body. Oh well. Im just hes sis. Just..... It feels unfair to change from Loki to hes brother..... Oh waite I did it with Telk.... OH GOD IM A MONSTER!!!
Kill me, someone!! Argh! What can I do Enders bro WAS cute just like Lokis..... Hey waite maybe thats the reson: I cant get the first one so I take the brother.... OH GOD!!! IM A MONSTER!!! *cries* I use them as second prize!! Just like guys do to me!! Nonono!!!
*breaths deep* Im calm.... But Im still a monster.... two headed, ugly, hairy monster. Fat monster. *cries* Im ugly!!

Fine, Im getting on date with Lokis brother. Hey peoples I'll call him as Kurogane starting now cuz he roleplays with that name. So Im going on date with him. Damn sure I am at least someone still likes me the MOST, not as the SECOND. *narrows eyes* Growl. I dont care Im sucking lonely I dont honestly care what Eric-kun says I mean its just one fucking dates with friends, at least for me Im just so goddamn lonely and just blaime the peoples that hate me. And peoples who dont have any time. Adn peoples who hang only with their other friends, my best friend for excample.

Done. I made dates with Gane-kun. Just one phonecall and thats it. *nod nod* Half an hour. Just an half an hour and we'll meet. Hope its not gonna be anything pervert. Hope he doesent take it too searious. I dowanna break poor creatures heart. Well Im going now I gotta find something to wear. I need something black. This red doesent fit me. So see ya have a NICE day and take care. Love you Eric-kun.

Besides, Kuro-kun says Im hot and pretty. *Laughs manically* Any guy that says that has changes on me! BIG changes! No matter what they looked themselfs. Oh yeah and gals too who say that. Im still bi, peoples.
And hey, my long lost bro is back, at least for few days ^^ Yay! Tho he was shocked when he heard aboute Kuro-kun..... -_-;

And Omega Zero: Those gals are jerks. I've never took a guy that cares only aboute my looks or smthing And I've never been a girl like that. Some chicks just are so..... Blond.

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