Monday, March 31, 2008

current Mood: good
Current song: Embryo
Current Artist: Dir en grey

Konnichiwa, how is everyone? ^.^ I'm in an okay mood. Chatity's not here. She'll be here later. She had a dentist appointment. I can't wait to see her. I miss her soo much. I got only 2 comments yesterday. Grr.


Last night my dad called and started shit with me. He now knows about me and Chastity. Apparently he found my gaia. And so to him....I'm going to go to hell. Yay lmao.

My life is falling apart. yesterday Chastity gave me a scare. It's crazy and a long story. I'd rather not think about it.>.< I love Chastity with all my heart. She means the world to me. I'd do anything to make her happy.

I'm listening to Embyro by Diru. This song is soo pretty but the lyrics are soo sad. Here read them for yourself:

Dir En Grey - embryo

so, a summer morning in 1983 my beloved mother always by my side
hey, smile at me just like you always do in the sunlit morning your expression distorted

mother's neck is choked as she hangs down from the heavens bye bye, mother
with silent tears and deep pain the flower, unable to bear it, is dying I am alone

Without a Face a gasping voice
Without a Face a distorted voice

so rape me until you're satisfied that I am yours, father
but see, mother is looking down on us from up above

My Sweet Mother smiling you smile so hard it seems your heart will burst open
Deadly Sweet Mother in hatred I'll wait patiently, holding back my nausea while I'm raped

now, a winter evening in 1992 my despised father always by my side
hey, rape me again today just like you always do father's eyes wide open, burning into me

I thrust that thing I hid deeply, strongly, into his neck bye bye, Father
mother, naked, blooms in the snowy landscape crimson flowers, blooming, bloodstained I am alone

My Sweet Mother smiling you smile so hard it seems your heart will burst open
Deadly Sweet Mother in hatred the tears streaming down my cheeks dry up, as the season dries up
My Sweet Mother smiling you smile so hard it seems your heart will burst open
Deadly Sweet Mother I'm pregnant my child crying I'll hold back my nausea

Aren't they said? T.T


Last night when me and Chastity was "talking" I kept listening to Endless Rain by X Japan over and over and when he got to the part when her said "I can't find my way without you" I cried even more then I was. That's a pretty song too.

X Japan - Endless Rain

I'm walking in the rain,
though everything seems to be hurting me for some reason.
There is only nothing.
Just kill me now ... as I roam forever.
Until I can forget your love.

To me sleep is a confusing, narcotic
that only quiets the beating heart.
All my love seems to flow from my body like a heart felt memory.
I keep my love for you to myself.

*Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness,

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words.
Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...
until I can forget your love.

repeat *

Endless rain, fall on my heart, in this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness.
Endless rain, let me stay a memory in your heart.
Let me take in your tears, take in your memories.

Well I must be off! ttyl! ^.^

~Kyoko~

P.S.
I know this post sounds like I'm sad...but I'm actully in a pretyy good mood.


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Sunday, March 30, 2008

Current Mood: Good
Current song: I'll
Current Artist: Dir En Grey



Konnichiwa! How is everyone? I'm soo bored and hungry...I don't know what to talk do...Hm...*thinks* I want to go to the An Cafe concert! T.T Soo Bad! I don't think I can go because I live in TN...and yeah...to drive there would be all BLEGH!!! Grrrr! Hmm...I'm going to ask my mom anyways....you never know it could happen.


Anyways....

I am on the phone with CHastity and she's talking about An Cafe......And she's wanting to take me to see them! AWW *googley eyes* I LOVE HER!! SHE'S SO SWEET!!! *smiles* lol


But anways.......


I'm bored. I'm going to go!


Ttyl


~KYokO~
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Saturday, March 29, 2008

current mood: good
current song: No song






Konnichiwa! How is everyone? I am good! I am just sitting here talking on the phone to Chastity! I love her soo much! I got 8 comments yesterday! yay! I don't have much to talk about....hmmm....do you like the new layout?! I found love I had for Kyo again! EXcept I don't love Kyo like I love CHASTITY!!! XD But yeah! WEll I am off! ttyl

~Kyoko~


sORRY IT'S SOO SHORT
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Friday, March 28, 2008

Current mood: GREAT!
Current song: Garnet
CUrrent Artist: D'espairs Ray



Konniciwa!! How is everyone today!? I was sooo happy to see that I got 11 comments and OMG I saw Momo had commented! I missed MOmo!!! XD


I got a sugar cookie just a minute ago! Chastity got me one. She makes me happy! ^.^ lol. She doesn't want people to know she's nice....well she can be mean...but not to me...she said's because that I'm speical! ^.^ Yay I'm loved!!!! I've made me a Livejounal ^.^ Lol I like it so far...It confuses me though! But Don't worry I'll never leave MyO! ^.^ Well I am going to go! I don't have very much to talk about as of now! lol BUt I shall talk to you all soon! ttyl


much love

~kyoko~

P.S.

I've recendled my love for DIR EN GREY and my site is going back to Diru as soon as I can!
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Thursday, March 27, 2008

Current Mood: GOod
Current song: Forever Love
Current Artist: X Japan


Konnichiwa! How is everyone? I am good. I am bored. I love Chastity....So I got 6 comments. Yay! *dances*


Amy is all grr about Plank...which I don't blame her at all. SHe's gone off the the deep in.


I'm soo bored....Chastity bit me on the cheek...it hurts! XD OWIE!! Lol I feel teeth marks. Lol It's okay....I love her sooo much. I was like owie...It hurts Kiss it! ANd she did! AWWwwwW! Oh yeah....There's this girl Chastity is all grr she's a damn Orange strawberry....She's said that she's the love Child of a Strawberry and and Orange. XD Because she's shapped like an Orange and has ALOT of red on! XD I was like HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH! Lol I love her Evil ass!

So I've decide to use D'espairs Ray for my new layout. But I might take me a while to get it up because My mom has changed the time on the internet to an hour. Damn it! GRRRRRRRR!!!!

I don't know if I can comment today...I'll try my best to do so!


WEll I am off!

~KYoko~
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Current mOod: In love
CUrrent song: Exorist
Current Artist: The Candy Spooky Theater


Konnichiwa everyone! How are you all today? I am great! ^.^ I am so bored. Gah! I am in class and just updating. I got an amazing 8 comments yesterday. I was really shocked. I am glad some people are still on MyOtaku.

So I am think about a new site layout...I don't know what...I am trying to think...Pshycho le Cemu...MUCC...or D'espairs Ray. Gah! So hard to choose. I've been thinking about it for a while....hmm...*thinks* I'm not sure. When I decide though you all will know because It'll be up! XD


Today's sleep late Wednesday...That means that school doesn't start until 9:00 A.M. instead of 8:30. I used to love it but Not now...because I don't get to spend it with Chastity because of her 7:30 A.M. class. But I do get to spend 30 minutes with her before she goes to class...so I guess that's a plus. I love Chastity soo very much. She made me a Gravitation picture and told me that she loves me and That I belong with her. She calls me her Lil' Shuichi! *smiles* Awww! I love her!!! I call her my smexy Eiri! I love her!!! I LOVE CHASTITY!! Gah! She means soo much to me. I don't want to ever loose her.


Anyways...I was looking at Japanese Street styles and I want to dress like them. I swear I had to be Japanese in my past life! *smile* I feel a connection to Japan you know!


Well that's all I have to say for today! Ttyl


~Kyoko~

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Current mood: Great
Current song: Endless Rain
Current Artist: X Japan


Konnichiwa! I am bored! So everyone has disappeared from my Otaku...I got 2 comments yesterday...wow...XD And I put up a video that I made and worked hard on...why is everyone leaving! Gah! Well anyways...I am bored...I'm back at school. ANd stuff...I am soo sleepy!! *yawns* Well I guess I'll be going ......bye bye

~Kyoko~
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Sunday, March 23, 2008

Current Mood: Good
Current Song: Current
Current Artist: Schwarz Stein


Konnichiwa! How is everyone? I am sorry I didn't update yesterday! I was busy at my mamows! ^.^ I made me a new Jrock mix cd. I put some Candy Spooky theater on it! ^.^ SHA LALA LALA LA!! Sing-a-song! lol Sorry I love Merry Go Round!! lol I just heard Schwarz Stein! I love them! That's why I had to make my site with them on it! ^.^ Gah! I'm tired it's like 12:32 A.M. XD Chastity told me to go to bed after we got off the phone! T.T But I was busy trying to making my layout! ^.^ I really love this song! Gah! IT's soo goood! I sugguest that if any of you want to hear a good Jrock band SCHWARZ STEIN IS IT!! And DIR EN GREY! XD Oh and lot of others! I'm so tired! I love Chastity! I was with her all day yesterday! It was fun! But I told you all about that! ^.^ I got some cupcakes today! I love Cupcakes! Yay! lol! *yawns* I got two more test left of my credit recovery...SO THEN I COULD GRADUTATE!!! Yay *dances* I love Chastity! I'm soo sleepy! I think I'm gonna go to bed!! So yeah! bye bye

video i made!



~Kyoko~
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Saturday, March 22, 2008

current mood: Great!!!
Current song: Sleeper
current artist: D



Konnichiwa! Sorry for the late post! I've been gone all night! I stayed with Chastity last night! We went to see Shutter. It was okay...kinda a disappointment. It's not that it's bad...it's just not that scarey. But that's okaky I got to be with Chastity. Then We went home and watched Donnie Darko It's a really good movie. Then we went to bed and cuddled! ^.^ Then We woke up. And We went to the flea market. Then we went to the tattoo shop and her mom got a Angel tattooed on her. I personnally didn't like it. Then we went to CVS and then they ate...I didn't cause I wasn't hungry. After we got done eating and stuff we left to Disc Exchange. I got a Culture Club recycled note book. It's made from an Old record cover! It's awesome! I love Boy George and the Culture Club!! Gah I want to make a Culture Club layout!! O.O I might later....lol Oh and Maybe.Memories (Jenny), I'll make you a layout just tell me what you want the theme to be. ^.^ Well I am going to go! Ttyl


Much Love,
~Kyoko~




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Friday, March 21, 2008

current mood: good
Current song: Sleeper
Current Artist: D




Konnichiwa! How is everyone? I'm good. Just sitting here waiting on Chastity to call me! ^.^ I love her soo much! Oh I got a voice comment thingy! I'd love if you all call and leave me a voice comment too! It'd make me happy! ^.^ I have an introduction on there so if you'd like listen to it and you'll get to hear what I sound like XD. It's nothing speacil! lol Gah I'm bored! Do you all like the layout? It's Asagi from D. I finally go to hear some of D's stuff. I really like them. It was really hard finding music for my site though!! T.T But never fear I found some! mUahahahahahahahaha! I'm so proud of myself! ^.^ I'm bored now...I don't know what to talk about.....*thinks* O.O "Oh squigly line in my eye fueled, I see you there but when I try to look at you, you scery away, Are you shy squiggle line? Why is only when I ignore you, you return to the center of my eye? Oh squiggle line that's okay." Wow...NO MORE FAMILY GUY FOR ME!!! lol I'm soo bored! Gah! ANd what I wrote about da squiggle line was RANDOM! XD Well I am going to go! XD So I don't start repeating things! lol ttyl

~Much love~

~Kyoko~
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