Monday, June 18, 2007

Current Mood: Good
Current Song: Tears by X Japan

Konnichiwa! How is everyone? I am great! I am bored! Gah! I love this song! ^.^ "BUT THEY FAiL TO SEE THE ANGQUISH iN MY EYES!" Dope Hat! I love Marilyn Manson! He's my favorite American singer! But Dir En Grey OWN me! lol! ^.^ I love Jrock more then American Music. Lol! ^.^ Gah! I am bored! I've been looking for something....Gah! In My inbox....*Checks* nope still nothing....YAY....GET YOUR GUNN! ^.^ lol! I BASH MY SELF TO SLEEP!!! lol Yeah...get your gunn is the song where they blamed Manson for those girls killing theirselfs. I personally don't see how a song could do that...but Chastity has tried to do it while listening to Coma Black...So now when ever I listen to that song I cry. It's along story about why she tried to, to that song. Gah! >.<' It was all over....um...Well I don't really remember...I just know at the time Coma Black was the song she listened to when she thought about me! T.T That's depressing! T.T Gah! I've never really thought about that...T.T Gah! >.< Because it talks about an Angel and She told me I was the Angel in the song. This one verse always gets me though...."I could have told her then she was the only thing that I could love in this dying world" T.T Gah!
But let's get off that subject before I get all EMO....NOOOOO NOT EMO!! lol! hee hee! I hate emo! I am bored! Gah! You know what I am very random person...I really just type what pops in my head! That's sad! lol But I must write something and I might as well just type what comes to my head! lol! *Checks inbox again* I am not going to get that message until Bou gets back! T.T Gah! Grr....I want my message! grr! Well She'll be back today sometime....Gah! I AM BORED! >.<

AnyWay

I was looking on youtube.com and Watching things on Hide. And I was watching the news report. I started crying. Gah! It's hard to imagine such an amazing person just killing himself. I saw the PV for Pink Spider. I listen to to Hi-Ho, Dice, and Pink Spider. My favorite is Pink Spider. But it's such a sad song. You Know I think about Hide alot. I don't know. I just don't think he killed himself. Maybe I just don't want to believe he did....Gah! Then After watching all those things on Hide, I started thinking about Kami. And I watched this tribute to him. I cried during that too. It kills me, some of the most amazing people die. Yet some of the most evil people in this world still live. It's not FAIR. I wish I could have at least met them. Gah. If Kyo was to ever die...I would fall into a DEEP depression. I would never come out of my room...I was do nothing. I'd stay in my room and listen to Dir En Grey over and over again. AND CRY!! Gah! OMG if anyone from dir en grey was to die I'd cry. If anymore of the jrock people I love was to die I'd cry. I love Jrock. I love my jrockers soooo much. It kills me. Man...this post talks about Death ALOT! lol ^.^'

ANYWHO!

I am so gah right now. Man....I love Kyo! Gah! Kyo is amazing. Oh I was watching there message to [a knot]. I've seen it before...but I' ve found one that was subtitled! Made my day! It was so funny! Man Dir En Grey was be awesome to hang out with. Oh and at the end Kyo goes up to the camera and says "AND DON'T CALL ME -CHAN" lol! I love it! KYO! ^.^ KYO KYO KYO KYO KYO!! I love Kyo! Omg I was watching Fuse late last night and they showed the video for Grief by diru OMG I SCREAMED!! I RAN THROUGHT THE HOUSE ABOUT 4:00 AM SCREAMING KYO KYO KYO...DIR EN GREY....KYO KYO KYO.....DIRU.......KYO KYO KYO.....KAORU.....SHINYA...TOSHIYA.....DIE! Lol...I love seeing them on tv here in America...It makes me happy...because it gives me hope that I'll see them again. To meet them again. I love Kyo! I would go to one of there concerts they are having over the summer...but they come no where near me. T.T IT SUCKS! I WANT TO SEE KYO!!! T.T I want my Diru! I love Dir en grey! Dir en grey....wow....they mean alot to me! They was the first jrock band I'd ever heard....and from there....I became obsessed with JRock. But Dir En Grey will forever be my favorite. (Yay Vanilla is playing! ^.^)

N E U Hoo

I found the lyrics to Candy Holic, Golden Wing, Cassis, Redemption, Au Revoir,and Ready Steady Go. ^.^ yay! Now I need Fantasy by ALice Nine and Perish by Moi Dix Mois. I have to have the lyrics to them beacause I use them to learn what there are saying....DUH...but I have all these songs on my cds. So yeah...lol

Like I have the following songs.

Dir En Grey's Withering to Death & The Marrow of a Bone
Malice Mizer's memoire & Vogage sans retour
Then There is my Jrock Mixes

Jrock Mix # 1
Jessica - Dir En Grey
Ain't afraid to die - Dir En Grey
Obscure- Dir En Grey
Child Prey - Dir en grey
Yurameki - Dir En Grey
Transilyvania by Malice Mizer ( i know that's not spelled right! )
Beast of Blood by Malice Mizer
Mizerable by Gackt

Jrock Mix # 2
Au Revior - Malice Mizer
Fantasy - Alice Nine
Golden Wing- An Cafe
Tears - X Japan
Vanilla - Gackt
Ready Steady Go - L'arc~En~Ciel
Wagamama Koushinkyouku by An Cafe
Perish by Moi Dix Mois
Pink Spider - Hide
Jealous - Dir En Grey

Jrock Mix # 3
Redemption - Gackt
Escapism- An Cafe
InVoke - TM Revolution
Candy Holic- An Cafe
Cage - Dir En Grey
Amber - Dir En Grey
Syunikiss - Malice Mizer
Gardenia - Malice Mize
Cassis - Gazette

So yeah....And I am getting another one when I got back home. Susie is making me one! It's going to have Malice Mizer, Miyavi, Hide, Lareine, Nightmare, Gackt, and I can't remeber what else! ^.^' lol! Well I am going to go for today!

Ashiteru!

~Kyoko

Later that day!

I AM FUCKING TIRED OF BEING HERE! I AM TIRED OF EVERYONE ACTING LIKE I AM TOO GOOD TO TALK TO YOU! MY AUNT TALKS ABOUT MY MOM LIKE SHE'S CRAP. JUST BECAUSE MY MOM IS NOTHING LIKE ANYONE HERE. THEY DON'T GIVE MY OTHER AUNT NOTHING LIKE THIS....AND SHE DOESN'T DO SHIT. HER KIDS ARE ALL ON DRUGS. SHE TALKS ABOUT HOW MY MOM ISN'T A GOOD MOM BECAUSE THEY SAID ME AND MY SISTERS WERE RAISED WRONG. WTF....I AM NOT THE ONE WHO IS DOING DRUGS OR HAVING SEX! WTF! I TIRED OF THESE PEOPLE. I AM SORRY BUT I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING ELSE TO DO WITH THEM. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME. I WANT TO GO HOME. I WANT CHASTITY. I WANT TO TO BE MYSELF. I CAN'T DO THAT HERE. I HATE THIS PLACE. NEVER AGAIN....NEVER AGAIN WILL I EVER COME OUT HERE WITH OUT MY MOM. I WANT MY MOM.....I MISS MY MOM....I KNOW I MAY SOUND LIKE A BIG BABY RIGHT NOW....BUT MY MOM UNDERSTANDS ME.....NOT THESE PEOPLE. WELL I SHALL GO....SORRY ABOUT THIS. ASHITERU YO!

~KYOKO


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