Monday, September 25, 2006

LOVE

Chapter 1
Sighing I slowly opened my locker door. School was ending and I wanted to get out of there fast. Not after seeing him with her. I don’t like her.
Will trudged up the hallway. I was surprised because the leech wasn’t with him. His new girlfriend. Vanessa. She was cool, popular, and had been a real heartbreaker. I didn’t want that to happen to Will. Who just so happens to be my best friend.
He didn’t look so happy. I gave him a look of sympathy. Gathering my books and stuffing them in my messenger bag I walked to him at his locker.
I looked at him more closely. Was he crying?
“Will?” I asked putting my hand on his shoulder. He jumped. I flinched. “Sorry…”
“No, it’s okay. I’m just…not in the mood is all. I’ll be fine.” I was hurt. I stepped back.
“O-okay. I understand.” I left, walking to the two double doors that lead to the outside of the school. I looked back. He was gone. I sighed.

Will. Will. Will.He was on my mind. Are you okay? I kept wondering. Did something happen? Oh why won’t you tell me?
I laid on my bed and flipped through a sports magazine. Leanne-another one of my best friends-burst through the door. I jumped up screaming.
She laughed. Of course.
“Sorry,” she said. “I just heard! Vanessa broke up with Will!” she seemed all to happy about this. She wasn’t as good friends with Will as I was. They only talked sometimes and Leanne sat with a different group of kids but we still hung out.
“She did?” I was shocked. Vanessa said yes when Will asked her out. Didn’t she like him? Maybe she found someone new. I pondered on the thought for awhile when Leanne’s words hit me.
“He’s available now Kay! He’s so mine,” I stared at her. “You like Will? Since when?”
“Ugh. Weren’t you paying attention to me in gym class the other day?” she scoffed.
“I was paying attention to the soccer ball…the one you got smacked with.” I said back.
“Yea, yea whatever! The point is, I’m going to ask him to the Pre-Prom.”
Pre-Prom was a junior high dance at the end of the school year. I wasn’t planning on going because no one had asked me and I didn’t really dress up for those things.
“Congrats.” I said. Why did I feel so much pain inside. “Want me to talk to him?”
“No!” she exclaimed a little to loudly. “I mean…no, no it’s fine. I want to sympathize him. Let him know I’m caring. And then…go in for a simple kiss and give him my number so that he can call me to talk.” She smiled. I felt like puking.
Running to the bathroom, I did.
I don’t understand why every girl wants to do that to Will. He’s a great guy and deserves better. Or…so I thought anyway. It’s his choice. Not mine.
I called him. I think he hates me. He doesn’t talk to me anymore. Like he used to anyway. We used to tell everything to each other. He was my diary and I was his. Now…it’s like I lost him. And I don’t know who this person is.
Maybe I should leave him alone.

Chapter 2
I awoke to the sound of my alarm. School time. Great. Sighing I tugged on black jeans and a red T-shirt. Where were my sneakers? I moaned. “LACY!!” I screamed.
I ran downstairs skipping several at a time. If I didn’t get my shoe back in time I was going to kill that dog. “Lacy you stupid dog!!” I said again running faster down the hallway.
Slam!
I ran into Will. I fell back landing on my butt. I sat there in complete silence. Not because I wasn’t talking to him, but because my butt hurt and I was afraid to say anything for fear of saying something stupid.
Will broke the silence.
“Sorry,” he said. “The door was open. I thought we walk to school together.”
“I’m not a little kid,” I snapped. “I don’t need your supervision.” I stood up. I glared at him and saw hurt in his eyes.
“I deserve that,” he said.
“Yea you do,” I said back.
“I should just go…” he headed for the door.
“So that’s it?” I asked.
“Guess so…” he replied.
“Why did you start dating Leanne? Why did you neglect me in the hallway the other day? What am I to you?” I was near to tears. But I held them back. Will never seen me cry, and I was never planning on letting him see.
He stopped and turned around. He had that look in his eyes. The look of fear.
“Kay…I’m sorry, Vanessa won’t date me unless I stop hanging out with you. You’re just not cool enough. And as for Leanne, I dumped her. You used to be my childhood friend. We’re in high school now. Time to find new friends,” I stared blankly at him.
“No,” I couldn’t lose him.
“What?” he was confused.
“I said no. You would choose some girl over your best friend? We’ve been together since we were born! How can you just walk away saying we can’t be friends anymore?” I was really close to tears.
He stood there. He was ready to leave. I couldn’t, no wouldn’t lose him.
“You are my best friend. I told you everything,” I could see him now begin to soften.
“Kay, I’m sorry,” he reached out to me. I stepped back.
“Just go…don’t ever come back.” I ran. I ran like lighting until I reached my bedroom. I slammed the door shut. To bad it didn’t have a lock.
I fell to the floor crying. I felt different. I was in love with my best friend. But he would never know that. No, he left. He’s gone. Never coming back and that’s that.
It’s over.
So why do I feel as if something has just begun?


Chapter 3
I missed school for a week. I never miss school. I was miserable though and didn’t want to go. I felt like my heart was ripped out. I shouldn’t feel this way. Not about him.
I do.
I have to tell him. I have to tell him something in order to feel free again.
How do you tell your best friend you love them?
You can’t. If you told them, they would reject you. It happened to Leanne.
I will tell him. I have to. even if I get hurt.
I went to school. Finally. I saw him and he looked at me. I gave him a look of disgust and walked away. I saw hurt in his eyes. Now he knows how I feel.
I cornered Vanessa. She said she never told him that. She wasn’t going to go out with him again anyway. Why would he lie?
I’m terrible.
I slammed his locker shut when I found him at it. I nearly smashed his fingers. By now the school was waiting for something to happen. I started yelling.
“You lied to me. She didn’t say anything like that. Vanessa may be popular but she isn’t shallow! How could you do this to me?” I glared at him. Humiliation would soon hit him. Eventually.
“Kay, can we talk privately?” he was horrified that I had done this.
“No,” humiliation had found him. “You hate me. What did I do to you? was it because your dad finally left you and your mom and now you have to take it out on me?”
Slap. He hit me. I covered my cheek.
“It has nothing to do with my father. It’s you Kathryn. I hate you. You aren’t apart of the guys so go back to your sissy land!” I stared at him. I smirked.
I slammed my fist into his gut, knocking the wind out of him. “I’d watch what you say to me William. You know nothing about me anymore. You’ve been a fake this whole time,” the slap still burned. “Don’t ever touch me again.” I gave him one final blow and he fell to the ground.
I held my head high and walked out of the school and off of school grounds.
Now how was I supposed to tell him? Love was complicated.
I reached my house. Dropped my bag on the sidewalk and stared blankly at the face I had longed to see in over seven years. In his eyes I could see all the drama that had gone on.
The eyes stared back. Dull brown eyes. I hated those eyes. I hated him. It had been seven years. Now he’s here. Home. I stared at the once forgotten face of my father.
To Much Drama.

Chapter 4
Mom and dad were arguing. Of course. That’s why he left. They could never get along. I needed to tell someone. Will.
Wait. I was mad at him. I couldn’t.
I did.
I sneaked out of my bedroom window and walked to Will’s house. Climbing up the vine I saw him in his room listening to music and staring at a picture. I rolled my eyes. Probably Vanessa.
I knocked. He looked up startled. His mouth dropped open and he hid the picture.
He finally let me in.
“Kay? What are you doing here?” he asked. “I thought you were mad at me…”
“I am. Still am anyway. I had to talk to you,” I looked into his green eyes. I never realized how much they sparkled. His shaggy, long brown hair fell into his face and he shook it out. I blushed and looked away.
I walked to the bed and sat down. “My father is home.”
His eyes went wide. Anger filled them. “After all these years?” he was angry. But why?
“Yes…” I replied calmly. “He and mom were arguing when I left. I was hoping I could stay here…and phone my mom tomorrow. I can’t stay there Will! I just can’t…” I held back more tears.
“you can stay here. The guest room is being occupied by my cousin but the hammock is open.” He pointed to the gray hammock in the corner of his room. I forced a smile.
“Thanks.”
“That was some hard punch you gave me.” He chuckled.
“Well, you hit me. Slapped me actually. I was hurt…”
His expression softened. “I know…I’m sorry. I couldn’t hang out with you anymore.”
“But why not? We had so many fun times. Why did you desert me?”
“Because I was afraid.”
Now I was confused. “Why?”
“That you wouldn’t feel the same way.” He walked towards me. Slowly. I stepped back afraid.
“Feel what way?”
He stepped closer. I stepped back. He stopped. Thank God.
His hands took mine. I was scared. I pulled mine back. A tear slid down.
“Kay…you’re crying. Why?” he was confused.
“Because I’m terrified of losing you.” I couldn’t take anymore of this pain. I ran towards his window, ready to climb out. I saw the picture. It wasn’t of Vanessa.
It was me.
Did he love me?
Was that what he was going to tell me? No. I wouldn’t let him. It would ruin us. No. No. No. I started crying harder. I reached the out the window and grabbed the vine. No.
He stopped me. Grabbing my hand he pulled me back in. I fought him. I couldn’t take this. I was hurting and I didn’t know why. I fell for the guy who was my best friend. Everything was so wrong here. I ran. I crashed through the window.
I can’t remember the rest after that. All I know is that I was found on the ground, bleeding and a broken wrist and leg. I was stupid, they said. Crazy.
Crazy and stupidly in love you might say. Crazy and stupid.

Chapter 5
It was a month. I was out of the wheelchair and off the crutches. Lucky me. I hadn’t seen Will. I wanted to but I didn’t want to. Life is hard. Love is harder.
I found him at his locker one day at school. I had my plan figured out. I would do it. I walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around and stared at me. I closed my eyes and kissed him. Kissed him.
Then I walked away. I left him and everyone who watched. He was dumbfounded but I didn’t care. I did it. I finally kissed Will-the guy I loved-and he would have something to remember me by.

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I answered the door. I was tired and wanted to sleep in on that Saturday morning. I opened the door and to my surprise I saw Will. “Um…hi…” I managed. “Is this about Friday?”
He pulled me close and kissed me. I close my eyes and feeling his warmth it was as if we dissolved into the morning air.
“I wanted to tell you…that I loved you Kathryn. I love you. I was afraid. That’s why I wanted to end our friendship. I was afraid of losing you.” he said.
“I’ve been wanting to say the same thing. But I didn’t want to end our friendship the way you did. That hurt you know. A ton.” I was still in his arms. He kissed me again.
You could say everything went according to plan. Or you could say we were just high school lovers who ended everything and separated. You can believe what the rumors tell you. But only one story is the truth.

The End


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There. There is my story. I hoped you enjoyed it. If you didn't, oh well. idrc. yes, surprisingly i am alive. oh whip-dee-doo.

My foot just fell asleep -_-'' i hate it when it does that. Welp there goes my leg. grr. AGH!! IT"S NUMB AND FEELS WIERD!!! T_T i can't move my leg of toe without this tingling...vibe running up my leg and to my ass. T_T owie.

grr...i need a distraction....OH!! i know...i'm writing that FanFic. yea. yay me. i guess...

Smokey got violent. he actually swatted at my baby bother's eye and bit his cheek...of course then he had to be locked up which was so unfair cuz Jacob (5 yr old brother) picked him up when he didn't wanna be picked up! GOD! wth is up with my mom getting mad at my cat when he was defending him self? that is so messed up.

Of course she got mad at me when i brought it up. *sighs* oh well. idc. i didn't pay attention to her very well. lol

i do that a lot. I know, i'm wierd. but hey...if my friends can deal with me, so can u ^^ hee hee

School wasn’t call that bad. Okay it was basically TERRIBLE. I mean…everyone was ignoring eachother and ya-ya-ya-yak-yak-yak! In science class we have to run into Mr. Skalican. T_T I don’t wanna do that!! T_T

Anyway, for the most part everything almost seems normal like I said almost

I have CHEEZ-ITS!! ^^ yummy yummy cheez-its!

i have majorly gotta clean my room or i am so so so so so GROUNDED

my desk is a mess, my floor is like...un-seeable. i think u could get lost in there. mom says if i don't clean my room i lose my kitty. plus my attitude has to change. i started screaming at her telling her is's my room but nooooo she didn't listen. *sighs*

moms can be so...over cleany like. ya know what i mean. *sighs* well i'm gonna go b4 i get screamed at again.

byez!!

~Shia & Smokey~

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