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Thursday, January 4, 2007
My computer is so fucked up.
It's pissing me off.
I'm getting more and more depressed as days go bye.
I'm not normal.
Something's wrong with me.
I hate being laughed at.
Makes me like i was when i was a kid.
Worthless
Today wasn't good.
I hated today.
Actually, I hate everyday.
Things keep getting worse and worse.
I despise life.
Why can't i turn to anyone?
I'm depressed.
Things are going wrong.
I'm snapping at everyone.
...everyone.
Idk...something's wrong with me isn't there.
I wish ChuChi (MewMewIchigo) would get on...i need to talk to her.
I think i've caused her problems tho...Because of me, she'll lose the one she can never let go of.
I'm sorry sissy...
She isn't my real sister.
I wish she was.
I don't know how long i'll be staying for now
Idk.
I love my friends
They mean a lot to me
I can tell that i am hurting them
I know i am...
It hurts me to think this way but i must
I have to in order for them to see that i'm sorry
It's not my fault...
I've got to much in my life...
It hurts
It hurts to be selfish
I'm not normally this way tho...am i?
I have to talk about myself, they said. I have to seem more selfish.
Why do i feel this way?
Why do i try so hard?
I know i'll never succeed.
***
strange thing happened in advisory...
it was enough to scare me...
really badly...
i was so scared i got mad...
i screamed at pippa...
i didn't really scream...
i "barked" at her when she said my name.
i was like "WHAT?!" and she looked terrified of me...
i don't blame her...
she must hate me now...
i would to if i were her...
i just wanna curl up and die....
i wanna just cry and cry and wait for death to take it's place...i hurt...so much....
*laughs* sorry...i don't mean to be selfish...i should shut up and stop talking. well thanks anyway for listening...bye....
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