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Thursday, August 3, 2006


okay so!
school registration yesterday was actually kind of fun.
The events in order of remembrance (XD):

We get there at 8 am, on the dot. Perfectly on time.
THEN we realize that my stupid dad didn't know we had to have like 5 other papers.
So then we had to run back home, get 3 bills as proof of residence, THEN go to my last school (the ghetto school that i hated so much) and get the transfer papers and a copy of my social security card from them.
SO at about 9:30 we finally get back to my new school and head to the library to register me.
I see this girl kind of lingering around by a wall of books and we both looked at eachother, because, well we dress alike let's put it like that.
So as I was signing in she walks up to me and goes "you have the same socks as me ahaha"
(i was wearing my red and black striped socks under a pair of ripped up jeans).
And it sparked conversation.
She was really nice and it turns out she is new too and going to be a sophmore as well.
She also knows jrock bands, and she even knew Duel Jewel.
She said I was the first friend she had met since she moved here and I was like "me too :D" b/c im a loser lol. but its true. I have a feeling i'll become friends with her ^_^
She was funny in that monotone sarcastic kind of way hehe.

Anyway i had to break off the conversation with her to go make my schedule, she was waiting for her dad to get there because he had to go get her papers (guess they didn't know either hehe).
My schedule made me kind of pissed off...
because the high school in kentucky i started my freshman year at had 6 periods a day, and then my ghetto school i moved to had 4 (block schedule) it fucked up my credits.
And now i have to take Art 1 OVER AGAIN.
Fucking PISSED me off.
I have to take algebra 1 again too, because I've taken pre-algebra three goddamn times and passed with at LEAST a B every time. But it was in 3 different schools -_-
And I have to take P.E. again. Oh my fucking god I was so mad about that. I HATE HATE HATE P.E.
D:
Welll....*sighs* i guess it'll do me good to get some exercise...but still ugh i hate it.
Oh and I'm gonna dye my ends :)
What do you guys think?
red or purple?
i'm gonna try to get my dad to get me both if I can, because I'm going shopping this weekend for school clothes.
Hmmm...the counselor was funny. She said something along the lines of "technically I'm not supposed to tell you that you're allowed to do it [dye my hair], but lots of kids try it and get away with it so I think you'll be okay *winks*"
heheeeee so im just gonna do it anyway xDD

I have a half day next Thursday, it's to go get our schedules and go through a normal school day and whatever.
*rolls eyes*

Oh!! and!! HAHA it was so hilarious. When we were leaving we had to stop by the main office to pay a locker fee, and there was this group of bleach-blonde girls that kept glancing at me and i was like oO;;
and then i guess one of them had a little sister, because there was this little chubby girl about 7 maybe, and she was giving me "the look" and staring at me.
so I looked down at her and raised an eyebrow and she looked away immediately
HAHa it made my day, I had to try so hard not to bust up laughing right there xDDD
Then my school starts in two weeks *major sigh*
fun, ne? -___-;; [/sarcasm]

Last night i went on netflix and ordered about 11 asian horror movies LMAO
Well...most of them were. 2 were the next Ceres boxset dvds and one was moon child. and one was Unleashed.
I have had moon child for about 6 or 7 months now but I lost it when we moved in May D:
so I'm reordering it to burn it again LMAO.
Unleashed is my favorite Jet li movie, ABSOLUTE favorite. i love Kiss of the Dragon too, but Unleashed is just great and SO adorable ^^
im such a thief ^o^

Hmmm have some pictures today, ne? :D


Heee!! This is what hide looks like on my X Japan shirt xDDD
I'm thinking of wearing that the first day of school....*ponders* hmmm maybe?


HAHAHA look at little tiny hyde xD. This is my favorite movie of all, I know it's pathetic. A lot of people hate it, but it ALWAYS makes me end up sobbing my eyes out. The first time i watched it, the second time, every time after that. I end up crying my eyes out. Because I'm a loser. That's why.


.........hello shun-sama.....*wipes off my shirt*....need help putting that back on >:D?
wtf is he holding?!?! HAHAHA I JUST SAW THAT!!! It looks like Pocky almost oO;; LMAO omg i want a bite xDD


Now what would a pic-fest be without another Duel Jewel picture? Natsuki and Yuya...ahhh the wonders of drugs, ne? heheee


KOHTA! 8DDD (Pierrot). I had a crush on him a while back, i remember lol. He is so funny, I love him to death still xD

okay ummmm
thats the end of that for now i guess....
im just bored to death xD;
I'm gonna go play with my new hair and figure out what to do with it next thursday....

xXTOCXx




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Tuesday, August 1, 2006


some pics of my new hair =D

a couple shitty last minute pics of my new hair (remember it was all one length and strawberry blonde before, that was my natural hair)






I really hate this picture, as in my face, but i thought it would show the hair better so im gonna deal with my crappy head
xDDD


ummm
im gonna dye the ends purple (think kaoru purple) if my school will let me, im going to school registration tomorrow so ill know by then if im allowed to.
im sure i will be b/c the schools here are leniant.


xXTOCXx




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got my hair cut last night, ill try to get a pic of it soon.
:)

anywayyy....
umm
that haircut set me back $110 sooo...
i think i may have fucked myself on my plane ticket
FUCK
I need money FAST
any ideas ANYONE??
like im dead serious I'll try ANYTHING
i need at least $400 by october, and probably $350 by september depending on my plane ticket, I can get about $200 with my allowance by then so really i just need ideas to get $200+
Selling my anime first and foremost.
then my keyboard i nver use which would be about $75-$100 (what? it's a decent keyboard)

I think i can scrape this...

oh and im getting my cavities filled next week plus my oral surgeries and my braces.
yayyyyy D:

ummmm im sorry this isnt longer lmao
ill get a pic up of my new hair asap
i love it to death<3<3

xXTOCXx




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Sunday, July 30, 2006


OMG
I'm so happy
I was crying yesterday I was so extreemly happy
omg i hope this works out...
oh my fucking GOD I'm ecstatic I can hardly contain myself!!!!!!!

I'm sorry for being so crpytic guys but i cant say anything yet
NHLKGHHENL BAHHHH I'm just so excited I wanna cry again D:




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Friday, July 28, 2006


I think this is the first time in history...that music has ever made me want to vomit....


I'm so nervous and anxious and worried...
ugh i feel like my stomach is twisting in directions I didn't even know about....


I can't say anything about the convention yet so I'm sorry I'm just using this to vent right now...
When I'm allowed to reveal anything I will...

but for now....
ugh I feel like crying
I'm so nervous.....

::EDIT::
im cheered up by now, still worried...ugh fuck i wanna tell someone why but i have to wait still....I'm sorry i know its really sucky of me to even talk about something and then go "nya nya i cant tellll you"
gomen ne ;--;

ummm okay....i have to admit it i have said it lots of times before..i am NOT the biggest gazette fan, i mean they are okay and i like them okay but I'm just not like..."OH MY GOD I LOVE THEM MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF"
however. watch this pv.
and i DARE you to try and tell me uruha's legs don't make you orgasm on the spot.
I DARE you.
I have already seen it so many times before and heard this song many times before so i knew exactly when his guitar solo was, and i still almost spit out my iced tea. that man's THIGHS, my GOD.


i've also decided I have strange body part....fetishes...
haha fetish makes it sound so dirty though xD;;
I love collarbones *shivers*
ohhh haha I can't even think about it xD
oh oh oh and jawbones @____@
oh. my. god.
a good slender jawbone and/or collarbone....oh my god I have goosebumps XDDD
and...normally im not much of a leg person, as long as the knees are not fat I'm usually okay lol! But Uruha's thighs...x_x god. that man. is insanely beautiful. WHY?

.....then again why am i telling you all this?
who knows...lmao.

i think it must be a thing with necks, because jawbones and collarbones are all around the neck area .__.
hnnn....perhaps. lol
god i'm so picky xD;
I sound shallow ne? lmao
eehh....just sometimes .___.
fuuuck lol
i gotta stop thinking about hot men....goddamnit
uuugh it must be the desperation x_____x




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I need to make money.
fast.

Convention in LA in October.
MUST GO for reasons i must keep to myself.

I'll have $112 by this saturday.
and every week up until the time im planning to depart I will make $25 on allowance alone, giving me about $472 all together....
i need about $350 as far as my calculations go ot pay for admission + hotel accomodations + plane tickets.....

This means no haircut.
Fuck.

I need money.
Now.
I can make a bunch selling my anime.
I figure selling all 7 of my YYH dvds that i haven't watched in about 2 years, that is approxamately $175 worth of anime.
I can sell it for $150 if i have to.

Fuck.
any ideas anyone?

I SERIOUSLY have to be at this convention.
any any help is appreciated.


I need to suck up so fucking bad...
how the hell am I going to convince my parents to let me go to LA and stay with a bunch of people THEY have never met (though I have)....
shit....
I need to think about this for a while...

xXTOCXx




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Thursday, July 27, 2006


Why am I so tired...
my eyes, my legs, my chest, my head...
all so exhausted...


I don't know what I need anymore, to be honest.
just need some rest..
that will help

just a long rest from everything
just for a little while




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Tuesday, July 25, 2006


Okay so I had to replace my playlist
Keehehehehe

im listening to hi ya ya
xDDD I love this song so much.
Weird ne?
Most people are shocked to hear my music tastes, they are expecting more..."In Vain" (#1 on this playlist) rather than "Hi Ya Ya"
but I love them both :D

Anyway....
I have to say this, after commenting on momo-chan's site...
the issue is noe implanted into my brain.

DON'T LET PEOPLE GET TO YOU.
And I'm not talking about Dir en grey coming to the US, though that subject brought it up.
It doesn't matter!
I know I shouldn't talk about what I do in these situations because I know not everyone is like me and thus can't do what I do (or won't), but it's the only solid thing i have to go on, so bear with me.
I hear people every day bash on what I like or what my friends like, and honestly I don't care.
If someone came up to me and went "DUEL JEWEL IS GAY AND THEY HAVE ASS SEX EVERY NIGHT" (which has actually happened, save a few words were said in different terminology) I would probably bust up laughing.
Laughter overpowers anger, I've found.
and usually it confuses the person trying to piss you off :)
Which helps, since I do have a tendancy to love to mess with people's heads.

Everyone, and i mean EVERYONE will have a different opinion than you.
Even if it's the general concept they agree on, the details will probably be different in their idea of the subject.
so why should it get to you?
the inevitable is just that: INEVITABLE.
so that means if you let it bother you and rule your life, you're almost set to lead a stupid miserable existance consisting of endless, ongoing, stupid arguements that you'll never win because you can't MAKE other people agree with you.
Look at it this way--
if you walk up to a person openly hating on some random person of a different race than themselves and shouting out racial term after racial term, and you say "you shouldn't do that, it's not nice." OBvIOUSLY it's not going to help.
you could come up with the most detailed, researched, and intricate speech imagineable to try and convince someone not to do this, but do you think it will help?
No.
So don't bother.

Do I sound pessimistic?
Hm?
I don't care. because that's the way it is, as far as I've experienced.

Why should it matter if someone tells you your shoes don't match your shirt, or that you look chubbier than normal, or that your music isn't "up to standard"?
IT DOESNT AFFECT YOU IF YOU DON'T LET IT.

You choose how you react to things, even if it seems you don't, YOU DO.
you CHOOSE to be angry, you CHOOSE to be sad, you CHOOSE to laugh at them.
And some choices will make you feel better than others.

I'm sure lots of people, for example, who enjoy Visual Kei and other Japanese music have experienced some pretty stupid hate, am I right?
You can't possibly tell me that at one point in your life you haven't had SOMEONE speak in "fake chinese" or try to convince you that "GACKT IS A FAG".
but do you really get that offended?
Life is too short, it's not worth it.
It's just NOT worth it to try and defend something as simple as that, especially if it's upon deaf ears.

ugh okay yeah sorry everyone
I didn't mean this towards anything in particular, I just needed to get it OUT of my system.
I know when I go back and read this later I'm gonna be like "ugh why did you SAY that?" but it came flowing out before I thought about what I was saying, so you know what?
Come at me with any ridicule you want, I really don't care :)

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Monday, July 24, 2006


Larth2think-- Oh he did? That's WONDERFUL. I would really hate to see his beautiful voice go out D:

anywayyyyy
I added a new link to the profile...
link to my new photobucket account (god I literally have about 5 now xD *sweatdrop*).
Ummm...if you do actually go see for some reason, know that those are like... 0.4% of all my sketches *sighs*
I'm too lazy to go use the scanner and my dad gets sick of having to type in the password to get onto his computer in order to USE the scanner e_e
Next time I use the scanner I'll try to get as many drawings as I can up there *yawns*
If you do look I'd really enjoy feedback, I like constructive criticism.
It helps me do better the next time :)

UGH
My dad and I were flipping channels and found "Supersize Me"....for those who don't know it's a movie about a guy who decides that to prove a point (of which I would make far too complicated and end up just confusing myself trying to exlain it, but you whould get his point too once I get to describing the process xD;).
He eats Mcdonalds and nothing BUT Mcdonalds, 3 times a day every day for 30 days.
He gained like 27 pounds I think and the doctor told him he should quit it after about 3 weeks passed because he was slowly killing himself but he didn't.
30 days it took for him to totally waste his body.
That's just disgusting.
I swear I'm never eating Mcdonalds unless there is no other choice *shudders*
They ever ruined the parfaits for me lol. shit.
I already knew the salads were not healthy, they pack about as much calories and fat as a cheeseburger with all the dressing and shit.
Bleh.
I'm not eating fast food.
That's the end of that.
I'll just get a drink whenever my parents decide to stop there. And I don't drink soda anymore so I'll just have to order tea or water.
Yep.
I'm thoroughly disgusted by food now.
Absolutely repulsed.
and I don't eat school lunch anyway so that part of the movie just proved my original thoughts lmao! School food is death! xD

*shudders*
I have an orthodontist appointment next Monday ~_~
great fun ne?
yucky.
Then my surgery...I don't know when that will be. Hopefully before school starts...I don't want to miss school because of it.

I have to go start my chores for today *sighs*
I'm steadily getting enough money for my hair *dances*
by this weekend im gonna convince my dad to let me go to the hair salon and ask how much for just the cut and bleach and the black parts.
I don't feel like posting how I'll do my hair, those who already know, lucky you lmao (kidding).
I'll post pics when i actually get it DONE, how's that?
But my dad said "your mom cant kill me if YOU get it done."
e_e thank you, father.
i think.


baibaiiiii
xXTOCXx




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Sunday, July 23, 2006


O_O
it's 3 am but i have to make a post b/c
A) im too awake and paranoid thanks to japanese horror flicks i just got done watching.
B) Kyo's tonsils are giving out, thank you smoking.


okay so its not THAT bad but he has tonsilitis, and my friend was going to budokan in a couple days and now it may be postponed.
fuck.
Kyo, feel better!
Anyone know how long tonsilitis effects can last?
I don't think I've ever had it, I've gotten strep but I really don't think that's the same is it?
gilgnslgntgrehteh
SHIT man.

Anyway...
I have to go to sleep.
Maybe I'll update later, I don't know.


xXTOCXx




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