Wednesday, February 22, 2006

School today was insane ._.

4th block (last period) we had a sub and that period is always very out of control anyway but this time it was just crazy. ::sigh:: I was not in a very good mood today. And lately I've been craving cigarettes. What's stupid about it? I'VE NEVER SMOKED. I just WANT one.... Ugh.... I've been in another one of those "Man I want a boyfriend" modes too ::dies:: I was hoping I would never BE in this sort of situation, at least not for a while but goddamn... I meet a lot of nice guys (I know this will sound skanky but I meet most of them if not all on the net) and I must admit a few are quite sexy as well as sweet lol. Oh and please don't rant to me about internet relationships being dangerous, I know all of that trust me, besides this post is not about online dating 9_9 I met one guy on Myspace (again, I realize there is still a slight possibility he is not who he says but trust me on this one, I doubt it entirely.) last night who is just...like god. lmao he is so sweet, and very good-looking (in ym sense anyway) and he likes all the same things I do plus he is very open-minded. He would seriously be perfect if it wasn't for a few flaws in this situation: --he is 21 --it is online --he lives in Cal. ugh why am I even getting my brain into this mode? ;_; I gotta get a grip, I really do. xXTOCXx

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Monday, February 20, 2006

Bleh :p

i had to come home a day early so i didnt spend much time with Katie/Jen as I had planned to do... We went to Jillians, took lots of pix/videos, played DDR (I hate that game -.-) and this weird Japanese shooting game that detects your movements so you end up having ot jump all over hte place and duck and whatnot, etc. Quite an eventful night, ne? 9_9 nothing else to really say, gomen ne...oh but if ur on myspace i have new pics up from Saturday =D xXTOCXx

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Friday, February 17, 2006

FUCK IT

Katie's FUCKING dad won't let them come see me does it FUCKING matter that I was so happy about seeing them that I cried for nearly a week? NO OF COURSE NOT. IT IS ALWAYS MY FAULT. NO MATTER WHAT PLANS I MAKE THEY ALWAYS GET FUCKED OVER. BECAUSE EVIDENTLY IM JUST A HORRID PERSON WHO NEVER DOES ANYTHING RIGHT. I want to go back to Tennessee. I don't care how miserable it is anymore. I don't want to be here. Ever again.

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Great -.-

Well the phone bill evidently has not been payed since NOVEMBER. So our phone is gonna get shut off today possibly -.- good thing we all have cells...and a laptop... mwahaha So Hana-chan is coming over today. She is gonna spend the night tonight and tomorrow night.... I don't know if Katie/Jen can come. i hope so...I missed them so much I started crying in class last week thinking about em ;_; There was much Katie/me drama yesterday, as there is EVERY time I talk to her. -sigh- this weekend is not turning out the way I planned. xXTOCXx

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Thursday, February 16, 2006

YES! HOME!!

I'm back in KY until Monday ^o^ I'm so happy, I missed this house so much. It's weird, it felt as if my TN apartment was just a nice place to stay while I waited to come back HERE....like deep inside my mind i was thinking "We'll be back here. We will." But I know we won't. It is kind of sad, my apartment in TN doesn't feel like home. Tennessee is dreary to me... I am hoping I can go to Ryle tomorrow...I WANTED to go today... but my mom pointed out that I have no ride since she works nights and doesn't even wake up until around noon. I'm gonna call Gloria and see if maybe she can give me a ride. I wanna get a visitors pass and go visit my teachers I LIKED lol. Well I have to go take a shower. Which is also better here b/c in TN I always feel dirty and the water and air feel heavy, don't ask me why, that is the only way I can explain it. take care all! xXTOCXx feeling much happier<3

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

NOOO!!!!! ;O;

MY EVIL MOTHER SAID MY SHUN-SAMA BABY WAS REALY UGLY AND HE LOOKED LIKE A TOAD!! HE IS GORGEOUS!! HE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BEING EVER TO WALK TO EARTH!!! I SHALL SMITE HER FOR THAT!! ;o; -huggles Shun-sama- Dare she insult my IDOL?!?! RAWR!!!! ._. anyway... yesterday was okay. thats about it lol. I'm too mad at my mom to explain anything else -.- How could she SAY that? damn it he is too gorgeous ;o; xXTOCXx -cry-

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Monday, February 13, 2006

Oh My Gods -.-

I woke up this morning, got up (reluctantly), awake, dressed, straightened my hair, did my makeup, and my dad walks in as im JUST finishing my eyeliner to tel me "school is closed!" >O< FOR WHAT YOU MAY ASK??? HTE TEMPERATURE IS COLD! THERE IS NO SNOW TO EVEN SPEAK OF ON THE GROUND!! Well they had better keep me busy! It's my birthday I deserve good treatment! lol -brat brat brat brat- =D I'm officially 15 today....-unenthusiasticly twirls finger- Not too exciting lol. But my dad hinted at letting me get my hair done!! OMG he had better not be kidding or I will cry. I'm not even kidding I will LITERALLY cry. haha. Well I'll report tomorrow about whatever we do today, so you don't hafta check back l8er or anything. -_^ baibai xXTOCXx

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Sunday, February 12, 2006

Yay!! ^^

I got my movies and I've watched Moon child twice since I got it already. T^T I love this movie -huggles it- It made me cry like 8 times lol ^^; GAH! Some FREAK got my cell # and started calling me last night and speaking fake chinese like "non non chan BITCH" and i was like o.o...-.- -growl- -hangs up- I'm betting it was that stupid whore on my bus that I gave my number to, it was a guy but they sounded high off their ass and there was screaming american metal music in the bg. oh FUCK i was already in a fucky mood and watching MC so I was almost crying and then THAT happened so on Monday I'm gonna fucking kill her. No no first I'm gonna ask her who the fucking hell decided to fucking call me and THEN I'll explode. My dad answered it first and he was getting pissed b/c they were screaming or something and then i hung it up and then they called about 5 minutes later and did the fake chinese thing -.- UGH I am seriously going to have a meltdown and kill someone tomorrow. My BIRTHDAY of all days tomorrow, WONDERFUL day to get in a fight, ne? -steams- I also got 2 YYH dvds, Youko Kurama (that's the name of the dvd, it's the dark tournament fight between kurama and Karasu :heart:) and the dvd b4 it when Genkai died. I was watching it and remembering how much I used to "love" Youko Kurama, and I must admit for a bishounen he still is my favorite -_^ I talked to Hana until about 1:30 am last night and i would have talked longer but my phone died. And I was up until about 2:30 watching DVDs. I ended up crying during our conversation too once we started talking. I just started thinking about them all and couldn't stop. It was kind of awkward b/c i was trying not to b/c I didnt want her to know I was crying but she heard it in my voice...-sigh- I may go up to KY on Wednesday with my mom (she is down here for our birthdays) and skip a few days of school to be up there. And I'd leave on Monday of next week. ^^ I hope my dad says yes b/c i really want to, then I can go to the dance at Jen/Hana/Katie's school. take care all xXTOCXx

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

Ate like a cow today

I'm sure you are all excited to know that (title). I'm fussing over my RAG submission (DJ fanclub).... I want to save up as much $$ as I can to join, you don't really HAVE to donate anything but they ask you to if you can and I REALLY want to send them as much as I can. I am up to $50 right now, and soon to have more once I sell some more DVDs and mangas. I am selling my Ceres boxset to this girl in my school once I burn them. It is about $40 normally I think? -checks on net- No it's actually $49.98 ...but I will sell it for less since it's being burned. Prolly $40.00. Illegal? maybe a little ._. but I don't care lol. EEK!! I just dropped an ice cube in my lap ;o; COLD!! IM WEARING BOXERS!! GAH XP -looks down- .....the dog is eating it. -.-;;;; I found more DJ clips today. Yuya is so hilarious, I just wanna HUG him lol. Purgatory, have you seen the DJ clips? They have made 3 so far and each one makes me laugh so hard that I almost literally pee myself XDDD If not then I'll send you links to em, in fact i think a couple may be on Youtube. There is also one of Hayato doing a modeling shoot ^^ he is soo cute T^T My mom is coming down here for my birthday and hers (hers is the 15th, mine is the 13th). She is on her way right now... take care all xXTOCXx

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Friday, February 10, 2006

-sigh-

just took a semi-long bath For some reason I just cannot settle in this apartment. Usually I'm fine within a week or two... But nothing seems comfortable. I feel so dirty here, weird... Damn. I was hopign my movies from Netflix would come today but they aren't going to be here until tomorrow... Hnn....I wanted to watch Moon Child and that YYH dvd all day but i guess ill have to tomorrow night. School has sucked more than been good... nothing obviously horrid or anything...just... I can't settle there either... I know someone is going to tell me to just suck it up or to give it time. Please don't. Not in a cheery mood at all lately... sorry, I lack a lot of things right now... I think I'm just homesick. This is not my home. It doesn't feel like one. I can't want to see you guys in Kentucky (though I know you will probably never read this because I am most likely the only one out of us four who ever comes on MyO anymore...). I thought about you in fourth block yesterday and had to stop myself from crying in the middle of class. I miss you and think of you always. xXTOCXx

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