Monday, April 23, 2007

Dear Priceline. please have my babies. kthx

$268 round trip per person. That's only about $130 more than I have at this moment in time. That is NOT a lot of money. oh god i think i may actually be going to LA if i can buy this ticket. <333 SHIT. I'm about to die from the excitement. I'm so lame XD One month. Duel Jewel. Miyavi. oh god, I'm so excited I could just cry thinking about it. xXTOCXx

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

ohshit

3 more hours until I buy my ticket!!! I'm so excited. My brother is hilarious, the other day i was on the phone with him trying to plan this out and i was like "um...I don't know if you want to go to the actual concert with me...it's going to be 48 hours of skantily clad japanese men spitting water and blood on people, I don't know how much you'd enjoy that" XDD so last night while my parents, my grandparents, and I are driving home from memphis, I call him to make sure plans are still on so i can buy my ticket today, and he goes "uh yeah let me talk to mom" and after she hangs up she LAUGHS her ass off and said that he was like "MAWWWMMM DO I HAVE TO GO TO THE CONCERT DDDx??" keep in mind, my brother is 25 years old ROFL so he's not going to attend the actual live with me (THANK GOD). he's just gonna meet my friends and make sure they're okay (which they are, he'll like kiku for sure :3) and then let me in by myself 8D -wiggles- BUT REALLY i need ideas people!! HOW DO I MAKE A COUPLE HUNDRED DOLLARS REALLY REALLY FAST ?! I need to pay for my own plane ticket, and i need to buy it AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. I don't start my job until summer, and I don't know how else to get cash! I'm not good at this sort of thing!! O_O IDEAS ARE APPRECIATED IM STRESSIN OUT with my luck ill buy the ticket and everything then not be able to make the plane ticket fare so PLEASE anything you can think of I'll greatly appreciate ::Edit:: I just had a really bad panic attack thanks to ticketmaster I was online EXACTLY AT NOON MY TIME (which is when the tickets go on sale), in fact i was on FIVE HOURS PRIOR just to make sure id get tickets i get on and hit "buy" on ticketmaster RIGHT AT 12:01 they're sold out by 12:03. NO lie. I almost immediately started hyperventilating and my face is still like 483094832 degrees and bright red from lack of air. So I got on MSN super quick and asked shou what day Duel Jewel was playing she said the 25th. So that's what i bought. A $35 ticket cost me $52 because ticketmaster was being a cunt. But my dad is paying for it for me. And I get to keep my money. I am almost half way to a plane ticket. I will probably miss Déspairs Ray, b/c they perform the 2nd day (on the 26th), and I'm really sad about it. But I've seen them live already, and I want to see Duel Jewel the most, and I get to see Miyavi anyway. So I'm grateful. oh my god my lungs are still hardly working ::EDIT2:: line up for the 25th: alice nine., Kagrra, Miyavi, DuelJewel, Vidoll :]

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

I'm buying my concert tickets this Saturday at noon. :] I'm so excited, I just need to figure out how to get enough cash for a plane ticket....but I'll do it, mark my words. anyway... wow Yuya. And see, folks? This is one of the many reasons I adore Duel Jewel. Their 2nd guitarist...is a crackhead. XD Must borrow it from Meever, hm? Oh I've been talking to Yuky ALLLLLLLL day today I'm an idiot and gave him my address so either I'll get a letter from him soon or get raped by an old man =| oh well, too late now. He's so sweet!! He sent me this video and I laughed forever xD my god, that kid. XDD He's so sweet It's hard to explain what he's saying in some parts.. but at one part he says "Mezame is a nice girl, and does her makeup very well" xD I'm so easily flattered Hmmm... I'm leaving for Memphis at 5:30 am .....o__x;;; With my grandparents and parents. Mmmm...fun. e_e; I'm watching Bowling for Columbine, this is one of my favorite movies I love it to death, it's so good and eye-opening. I love Manson's interview, my mom thinks Manson is extremely smart. My parents love this movie too, ironically oo;; I didn't think my dad would be interested, but he likes it okay. Anyway I have to go, I'm being bombarded by spanish via MSN messenger (yuky) @_@;; xXTOCXx ::EDIT:: Day of Silence went well. I slipped once because I said "sweeeet" in spanish :x oopsie. I fail xDD But there was something VERY important i had to discuss with megan and rachael (Jrock Revolution) so i ended up sort-of-breaking it by writing to them instead of talking. Which sort of breaks the whole point =\ oops again. OH but my friend carson was being an ass (but he was on the silence vow too, as were like 5 of my friends, including Sarah and Megan). So I smacked him....and his nose started bleeding O_O;; today i went up to him, and after he mentioned it, I said "what did we learn Carson?" xDDD oh fun times.

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YES HE SAID YESSSSSSSSSS I'm going to LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BUT I CANT TALK ALL DAY D: It's the day of silence!! EEP -writes it on paper to tell everyone at school- 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD bad news: he found out im smoking because im retarded and didnt think he'd read my bulletins. i told him i quit. and i am quitting...i just had one yesterday and im throwing out the rest of my pack today (there's like 8 left) D: I fail

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Monday, April 16, 2007

current song :: If I was Your Vampire - Marilyn Manson

Brother hasn't emailed me back yet, but I know he read it b/c Myspace tells you when people read what you send them. I'm so worried... I'm not as upset as I was on Friday...I actually decided to put on makeup today. But I'm still quite upset at the thought of not going. Maybe I'm spoiled, who knows... I just really can't imagine missing my two idols in the same room. performing within hours of eachother. It's like heaven. Aww sad day, Bou is leaving Ancafe ): The whole band is pretty vexed about this, it's really sad. I like Ancafe. Not one of my favorites but they're okay. My friend Haru is heartbroken, they're her favorite band, so I feel sad mostly for her D: and my other hardcore Ancafe-fan friends. It would be like Yuya leaving Duel Jewel or something, gods above know I would be an absolute wreck. I'd be so upset. We're going out to eat later at my favorite restaurant :D Yay I'm on a diet still, I've been doing okay. Haven't slipped too badly except I'm not supposed to have a lot of bread, and I had a sandwich today (as well as saltines at lunch). My allergies are HORRID today, I haven't been able to stop sneezing, my nose won't stop running but my sinuses also won't clear up. I can't breathe through my nose D: Hopefully it clears up...I've taken TWO 24-hour pills, one I had to dry-swallow at school but it didnt work at all. I took a sinus headache pill when I got home around 5 b/c it said it cleared up nasal congestion. But it hasn't helped either and it's 7:00. So my mom is buying me more at the store right now ): this song is nice, I like Manson :] it's his new single. Pretty good drums, I like it a lot. Anyway.... I'd better be leaving soon. Parents will be home and I have to be OFF the computer because they don't know I've had their password to get onto it for the past 4 months ;D I'm such a sneak, puahahaha. loveloves~ xXTOCXx ::EDIT:: Did you all see my new picture up in the profile? :) That's my new hair. I have bangs now. and I didn't need to pay my REALLYEXPENSIVEWOMG hair dresser to do it for me. Cut it mahself bitches xD

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

Bedtime in a few minutes, I have to wake up super early. Good news: My mom said I can go to LA for Jrock Revolution. On two conditions. 1) I have to pay for everything. Which I'll bet I can do. I have $135 I can use for the ticket and plenty of friends to room with in LA. And lots of my friends have offered to help me pay for my plane ticket, they know how much I want to go. Despite my deepset hatred for taking charity money, I'll probably do it this time. 2)My 25 year old brother needs to be with me at all times ...that means the concert as well. Ugh. I hope he'll say no to the concert, I know he won't enjoy it. He's not a mosh pit hard rock kind of person, and he'll have water spit on him by scantily clad Japanese men. And if he sees me crying over Zero and Shun in the same place at the same time, I'll never live it down. If he says no to taking me.... all this is fucked. Please Joel, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. PLEASE take me. ;___; If he doesn't....he's my last hope. I still can't eat much, I'm so upset. I've had a tiny bit of spaghetti (dad made me), a bit of a smoothie, and a nutrigrain bar. All day. Yesterday I ate about 3 nutrigrain bars and some grapes. I'm only eating so I don't get sick from malnutrition again. I'm not hungry, I feel nauseous all the time since yesterday afternoon. God I hope this works out...

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Friday, April 13, 2007

TN can just implode in on itself.

I'm leaving for school in 20 minutes. I haven't changed my shirt. Haven't put on makeup. Haven't straightened my hair. I just don't care today. goddamn it Yoshiki.

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

I'm shaking and crying like a maniac right now, and I'm overreacting I realize but I don't care. look at what i just got from Yoshiki's blog (im shaking so hard i can barely type, excuse any type-os) The band lineup will be:alice nine., Vidoll, Duel Jewel, Kagrra, Miyavi, DéspairsRay, Merry, Girugamesh, and MUCC. ......Duel Jewel. Is going to be in LA. For Yoshiki's big Jrock festival. Déspairs Ray. Girugamesh. Miyavi. .........I'm freaking out so badly right now I can't even begin to describe it to you. This all happens on may 25th and I don't think I can make enough money to go by then. I'm panicking so hard I don't think my lungs are working right now. I need my inhaler, I have to go

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Saturday, April 7, 2007

So I'm on vacation with Rachael right now and her family. Her aunt brought along her laptop, so while they're out at the hot tub I stayed behind. I would have gone but I'm dressed already and in about 4 layers of clothing. Plus I just ate and I do not feel like wearing a bikini top with my stomach full of food. Anywayyy I redid my hair, but can't get pictures up until I get back home, so sorry guys you'll have to wait. And we're going out today to shop and Rachael, her two girl cousins and I are all getting henna tattoos. This keyboard is so difficult to type on, I'm serious, I am having so many type-os --especially with the space bar. My camera fell into the ocean and has been fucked up ever since. I hope I don't have to buy a new one, it was a $250 camera I got for Christmas last year ): -sighs- Pray for my camera, everyone!!! lol anyway I have to go, vacatin means no computer lazing!!! love from me~ xXTOCXx

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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

WHAT THE HELL I had the scariest nightmare last night I kept waking up over the course of the night, but the nightmare didn't start until about 8:30 when I woke up again and fell back asleep. I've had it before. It's really difficult to explain why it was so terrifying, but I had to die several times in it and near the end the world was supposed to end and no one seemed to care about it, and I was the only person freaking out and everyone else seemed to be in denial. And at the very end, my cat jumped off of our balcony into the blackness (the world was already starting to die) and I was about to jump off after him when I woke up really abruptly. I've had the dream before, and it's like i KNEW that in the dream, so when I woke up in the dream, I thought I was really awake. And everything seemed so real. So this morning I woke up and took my dog outside and I just wanted to fall to my knees and touch the grass. I loved the sunlight more. I loved the smell of the trees more. I had to "lose it" to realize how much the world does mean to me. It was so absolutely petrifying. I'm still shaking. It's amazing what impact dreams can have on you. -shudders- beyond that...I'm going to get new pants and skirts for Florida today after my dad gets home. Then get bleach for my hair. If I don't get to say goodbye tomorrow then -- bye everyone I'll see you Monday night!! xXTOCXx ::EDIT:: I'm so impatient XDD rather than wait for Megan to get off work and help me, I'm cutting my hair myself :3 I'm almost done, just fixing the minor little chunks that look uneven xDDD

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