Thursday, April 6, 2006

unfurl your wings like velvet dreams...

Bad bad day. Some kid in first block is being a total dick. He talks to me all the time, but he is always so mean. He is a sarcastic jackass, and he always calls me shallow and narrowminded and he told me i was not at all wellrounded and I only like Japanese stuff and nothing else. He hates Michael Moore and personally I don't give a flying fuck who hates him, if you do'nt like him all right then no big deal. Doesn't affect me any. I happen to like Moore okay, I like his films and I'm reading "Stupid White Men" (one of his earlier books)right now. But he is always calling me a liberal (and to be honest I'm not sure why he is calling me a liberal...) and a baby and stupid and whatever other insult he can think of. He mocks me constantly and thinks he knows exactly how I work. Why the hell am I nice to that kid?! I'm trying not to make enemies because it's the last thing I need but... everyone in this school. I just...I can't be friends with any of them. I can tolerate TWO people, named Katie and Angela. Not my friends, but I can tolerate them, they are all right. The rest...they are either annoyng, mean, immature, rude, potheads, whores, or some combination of the above. I'm sorry for the huge sudden rant everyone I really am...but I've just had a bad day. the bus ride home I thought way too much...I was blasting every Duel Jewel song in my mp3 player and just staring out the window. Anyway I had a point going when I mentioned that kid in my first block... today just before the bell was about to ring to dismiss 1st block I was like "ugh I don't wanna go to 2nd block, Mr. Paschal is trying to kill me." and this kid goes "God is that all you do is complain? You're so whiny." and he smiles while he is saying this because evidently he thinks it's funny, it's how he always mocks and insults me, he is smiling like I'm a moron. and then suddenly out of nowhere he goes "Your eyes are weird. They bug me." Now maybe I'm just conceited or spoiled or who knows but...that is a first for me. Normally people like me eyes, and they happen to be the only part of my body I DO like a little bit. So I was a bit taken aback... I just said (add sarcasm) "Gee, thanks." *rolls eyes and picks up my bag* then in 3rd block we had to weigh ourselves for a project. I didn't want to, I was so scared to see it that I tohught I would just start crying in class if I did. Perhaps I'm just a baby about it. Weight has always been sensitive with me. I hate being fat, in my eyes. It is horrible to me. I have terrible issues with it. So I go up after everyone else leaves that area of the room (they were all like looking at everyon else's weight! Fuck if I'm gonna let them see mine) and stepped on. I won't say what it said but I seriously think his scale was wrong. If it was accurate then it means I have gained 10 more pounds in a week and a half. I know that is not true. I haven't eaten hardly anything in the past two days. And I went on a twenty minute walk yesterday twice. That does not sound like much but I know how my weight elevates and whatever...I know I don't weigh that much. But either way it devastated me and I just went to go sit back down and this fucking kid in that class whom I HATE with passion is all asking me stuff like "how much do you weigh?" "are you okay?" and when i dont answer him he gets all mad and goes "fine i just wont tlak then because you're not listening." and he puts his head down. Five seconds later, there he is talking to me again. Fucking christ, kid... He thinks i'm his friend or something I don't know but he annoys the fuck out of me. I hope he thinks I'm a bitch maybe he'll stay away from me then... Wow that was not supposed to be a long post, I'm sorry...if you did read it this far thank you so much for dealing with the rant. xXTOCXx P.S. Kitten I love you, feel better hun!! *mua*

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