i hope everyone's holidays went well!
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haha my family is lame and we open gifts on Christmas eve now, since there are no small children to awaken us at 4 am screeching about santa and such and so forth 8DD;;
SOOOOOOO i got all my stuff tonight
[christmas eve night is when i posted this on lj], and PICTURES are ensuing this ....pointless ramble!
OKAY soooo POTC2 (always a good thing ;D 42 year old man and Johnny's still bringin sexy back!) atop an anatomy book (take your mind out of the gutters, it's for sketching xP) AND A BRAND NEW SEWING MACHINE WHOOOOOO complete with all new thread, pins, sewing needles, and such things as owuld be necessary for...well sewing!
This is by far the best smelling shit in the entire world (well aside from my new Raulph Lauren perfume, which will be the next photo onthe agenda ;D). It came with body spray, lotion, shower gel, and that big brush thingy is filled with little golden sparklies that smell of Japanese cherry blossoms 8DD (that face will be frequent throughout this entry). Not to mention it came in this pretty little (okay it's actually a very big) red box with a sequined lid :D
My obsession with boxes ends here, I swear. it was just so pretty and purple @___@ (that's my favorite color, for those of you who don't know haha....aside from red *coughkikuknowsaboutthatcough* heeeeee)
Seriously I'm gonna smell like sex on a stick after all this good stuff people bought me. This was from my brother, he must have payed a small fortune because RL is NOT very cheap stuff!!! I think it's about $60 or so for just the BOTTLE so when I saw it was this big box my mouth dropped. It's body gel, the perfume, and lotion. I'm currently wearing the lotion right now and I can't help but stop typing to smell my hands every ten minutes XDD
Last but not least -- a very tiny, but sufficient mp3 player. It's a 2 gigabyte mp3 player, so I'm not complaining. I needed one after my last one died on me D: cheap piece of shit.
AND ITS PURPLE TOO 8DDD YAYYYYY but all my music is on my other computer, which has no moniter....sooooo i need to unhook my dads computer moniter, take it into my room, transfer all of my music to the mo3 player, and possibley a few files (of which i haven't seen in the months since the moniter died) onto some disks.
okay so yeah, the two things I needed most were a computer moniter and a new cell phone, which were not included. But I'll live. I admit I was a tiny bit disappointed because my dad kept talking about it so I had just ASSUMED I would be getting them, but then I realized "wow aren't we a little spoiled bitch" and sucked it up, and made sure not to say anything because I know how stressed both my parents were anyways.
We're having some issues right now, my dad is losing his job in a week or two (it's closing down, real nice, huh? ~_~). We've known about it for about a month and a half now but it's still creating money problems, so I can understand why all my little whims weren't met and I'm fine with it.
I'm not happy about all the shit happening at once, but I understand nonetheless. My dad's been a wreck for the past couple of months since he found out about it but he's still keeping on and trying hard to find a job to go to after this one ends, my mom just quit smoking and EVERY day all we hear is "god i need a cigarette". (you'd think that would be motivation enough for ME to quit smoking as well, but it just makes me want one more *rolls eyes*)
And she's had muscle issues too for a while, so that mixed with the job BS is just making this tiny little Tennessee apartment a breeding ground for screaming matches and mental problems *__*;;
I'm grateful I even got what I got, and to be honest I was willing to go without any presents this year (granted, that was mostly because I want to go to fanime and will do anything to suck up for it buuuut that's only a little fraction of it). I know we could have used the money on other things, other more
important things, so I almost feel bad that I was able to open a few gifts this year.
If anything my parents deserve things more than I do, with all the shit I put them through lately.
It would be selfish to compare my stress to theirs, but christ all the excess stress they are emanating is absorbing into MY system and making me stress too.
Mixed with minor school problems it's just making everything "happy happy happy".
Hopefully the new year will bring about better things for everyone.
One can only hope, right?
I just wish I could have done something, to indirectly show them I'm not as ignorant as I may be portraying myself to be, and I realize I don't deserve much of the good things they're doing for me.
I'm not a very open person when it comes to thanking people or apologizing, it's hard for me. REALLY hard.
It almost makes me sick to my stomach to do it, and as horrible as that makes me sound all I can say in some sort of justification attempt is that I can't help it.
I don't really know how to thank people with words, just with actions. And the best I can do is hope that they can realize how deep of a thank you it is from me.
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NOW!!
my current song is
In Vain
*malicious grin*
and it's at my favorite verse muahahaha
oh Hizumi...you dirty little man ;D
I'm having flashbacks lmao.
I have those a lot, especially when I'm feeling particularly sad, I just get nostalgic and remember the better times I've had.
Meeting D'espairs Ray is a common memory I get XD. As well as...the live *grin* ill start chuckling in the middle of class sometimes because I'll remember Zero's little smile he gave me, or when Hizumi forced me to grab his rather prominent boner (HE HAD PANTS ON!!! IT WAS NOT MOLESTATION!!!). Oh lord I'm giggling insanely
now xDD
and sometimes ill remember just random little incidents with my old friends...
I smell like Ralph Lauren!!
That is my favorite perfume and I used the body wash and the lotion tonight.
Soooooo good. My skin is delectable 8DDD
and the song changed
OHHH english music! HAHA that's a rare one...Out of Your Mouth. Good band :)
yes im singing to it.
GOOOOOOOOOOOOD thing you can't hear me ;D
I drew this Xmas eve night, i love my new anatomy book, it helped me learn to draw bodies in more....interesting positions *wink wink*
I drew it for a friend, what do you think?
It's quickly done, yeah you can probably tell. And my scanner kills EVERYTHING so that....yeah ill stop with excuses, if it sucks then it sucks XDD please be honest. I SWEAR THERE IS SHADING, but like i said, my scanner MAIMS EVERYTHING IT TOUCHES.
oooh another song change?
GGFDGNKFDGNFD
MSI
8DDD.
Yes. Alayna loves MSI. She does she does
and she'll stop speaking in third person now. She will she will.
heee.
My parents were rather BITCHY today, and I didn't much appreciate it.
I am a very mouthy person as it is, and it's not unusual for me to just tell my mom to shut up when she annoys me.
So when I told her to mind her own business I got in a tiny bit of trouble since my dad was here but nothing big, he just said "get off the computer now".
i didnt, i just stalled until he forgot.
Yeah im probably a spoiled brat. That would explain a lot of things.
hmmm...
xXTOCXx
