Monday, February 12, 2007

   >.< to my dad
you are such a jerk. i can't stand to be around you for more than a few minutes because everything i do and say is wrong. it's always all my fault. and i don't even have the guts to stand up for mysef. i just take it. why can't you understand that i do the best i can? i only do what you tell me to do and i am still wrong. apparently, i can't do things that i have been doing since i was 11 right. i'm fricken 16 and more emotionally mature than you. why is it that i am always in the wrong? why can't you admit it once in a while? i do all i can. all you do is sit on your ass and order us around. you is even to lazy to get up, walk 10 feet to the fridge, and get himself a soda when my sister and i are upstairs diong hoomework or something else that needs to be done. i am tired of it. i cook, i clean, i do whatever you ask. IT'S MOT MY FAULT THAT MOM LEFT!!! she didn't want to be a wife and mother; she wanted to be a party girl, and she has the life she wanted now. why can't you accept it and understand that i don't want her in my life anyway? i don't need her bullshit and lies, and i don't want it. you took her back twice and she left twice more. IT'S NOT MY FAULT!!! so get over yourself and get over her-- she's bad for all of us. i try to fill the space she left in the house, but only you can fill the space she left in you.

coy
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Friday, February 9, 2007

check it out!




What Ninja Class Are You?


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THIS IS SO SAD!!! if you don't cry, you have no heart.



Mommy.. Johnny brought a gun to school,

He told his friends that it was cool,

And when he pulled the trigger back,

It shot with a great crack.

Mommy, I was a good girl, I did What I was told,

I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!

But Mommy, when I went to school that day,

I never said good-bye,

I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.

When Johnny shot the gun, He hit me and another,

And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother.

Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,

And please tell Zach; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.

And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,

And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now,

And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best;

Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest.

Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,

And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass.

Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one deserves this,

Mommy, warn the others, Mommy I left without a kiss.

And Mommy tell the doctors; I know they really did try,

I think I even saw a doctor, Trying not to cry.

Mommy, I'm slowly dying, With a bullet in my chest,

But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest.

Mommy I ran as fast as I could,

When I heard that crack, Mommy, listen to me if you would,

I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new,

I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo.

I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,

I wanted to be an actress, Mommy, I wanted to live.

But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,

Mommy, tell my Zach, I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date.

I love you Mommy, I always have, I know; you know it's true,

And Mommy all I wanted to say is, "Mommy, I love you."

****In Memory of The Columbine Students Who Were Lost****

Please if you would,

Pass this around,

I'd be happy if you could,

Don't smash this on the ground.

If you pass this on,

Maybe people will cry,

Just keep this in your heart,

For the people who didn't get to say "Good-bye".
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Tuesday, February 6, 2007

A cool quiz i took. ^^

Take The Quiz Yourself!
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hey!
hey, everyone! sorry i haven't posted in a while. ^^ i have been going thru hell lately w/ this stupid english project. T_T it sucks... well, i'm gonna go... i gotta get back to work!! *looks around* after i play for a little longer... =3
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

   dum dee dum...
well, today sucks, as did yesterday. My dad had to go into the hospital cause he had a staph infection in his skin, it almost got better, and then it got REinfected and into his blood, and he might die. and if he dies, i'll be really pissed off, cause he promised he'd never leave us until we could take care of ourselves, and THAT ISN'T HERE YET!!!! >.< it's only my 13 year old sister and i, and i can't take care of myself, let alone her too. and if he dies, i'm going to sue the smartass doctor that told him he was better. FUCKING MORON!!! i am so sad and upset and confused, it's making me angry! I HATE THAT IDIOT DOCTOR!!!!

gotta go...

A pissed off
coy
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Monday, January 22, 2007

   I ADOPTED A CHIBI!!! XD
YES!!!!

I adopted a chibi! ^.^



Name: Dark Mousie

Likes: Girls and stealing things

Dislikes: being argued with

Owner: Coy (that's me!!)

Click here to adopt a chibi too!
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Friday, January 19, 2007

   ok, this is confuzzling...
there is this guy that i am really good friends with that i have liked off and on for nearly 2 years, and we are research partners for English(we're doing this really big project thing). So, we're sitting in the English room, all by ourselves, watching a movie on our topic (the man in the iron mask). We have been flirting and playing around the whole hour, until about 10 minutes before the bell rings. we settle down and are watching the movie, and i feel like he's looking at me. so i look over, and he's so close, there is half a centimeter between our noses when i look at him. we stare at each other, unmoving, for a full minute at least, and then he edges in, and i do the same, and we kiss. XD it was one of those lingering, not-quite-french kisses that only happen in the dark of movie theaters... or classrooms. anyway, so i talked to him later about it, and he says he doesn't know if he wants to pursue a relationship or not-- and, truthfully, that is a relief because i don't know either. apparently, he's still in love with his ex. so, that is that. i'm just waiting to see what he will decide to do--date me or let her drag him thru the mud, like she's done for the longest time, and i'm sick of seeing it, because she doesn't even like him anymore. >.< it's so frustrating to see girls like that. i hate and despise them all. anyway, buh bye. 'til next time!

coy
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Tuesday, January 9, 2007

i think... everyone sucks most of the time... almost everyone...
boys suck, girls suck, people suck. liars suck, manipulators suck, and backstabbers suck. know why? because i broke up with this guy i was dating for a little under 4 months, so this girl [who i thought was my friend] decides to move in on him TWO FRICKEN DAYS LATER!!! that is sum bull! not to mention that she wont talk to me or my friend Tiffy, who was her best friend. i have no desire to get back with him, but it is still pretty pathetic. i guess that is why she always hated it when we kissed and stuff-- she was jealous! lol i find it funny that she had to take my sloppy seconds, and i get the feeling that he is only letting her because he wants to hurt me. if i wanted your lies and manipulation, i would have stayed with you, idiot! DUH. anyway, guess i oughtta go. ^_^ bye!

coy

ps, comment with your own stories-- i need it! ^^
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