Wednesday, December 5, 2007

5:30 Exactly. Appoligizing. Bored. Slightly depressed.
Okay no quote. I am getting straigh to the point.

First. I am sorry about my abcence from TheOtaku. I have been on Gaia and MSN. Just not on here. Much that is... I have been kinda burried in school work. I got algerabra tonight. Yuck...-.- Anywayz.

I am calling Kyle tonight. I haven't really wanted to talk on the phone in awhile. We have mainly been tlaking on the computer. I have to wait untill six to call him though.

Yes, I am 'Slighty'depressed. Actually. I started crying on the bus. I started listening to a song that reminded me of Steven. Sha...We all know how that goes.

I ALMOST KISSED JOSH TODAY!! >_<
NOT ON PURPOSE!! But, we were sitting in fifth block and he sits right behind me. And we are like best friends and all. But anywayz. He said, "It's almost time to go!" And I said,"Five minutes." Then he said, "What?" And I was going to turn around and tell him but he moved forward and when I turned around he was like...RIGHT THERE! It was funny. Yet awkward. Plus he likes me...Okay...So he loves me. But anywayz...That would have been freaky. XD Expecily in front of everyone like that!! I am so glad I caught myself before I turned completely around. I don't want my first kiss to be like that. AND NOT WITH HIM! Yuck...Well...He does have pretty hair and cute eyes. But. Extremly fucked up teeth. So...Yeah...Plus I would never date him. He is to immature. Am I mean or what?

Well, I think I have made this long enough. XD
And full of details! ^-^

Toodles!

~Simply~
Heru.
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Saturday, December 1, 2007

Yes, you finally het a post. :.:::....:::.:
Quote-"The rose speaks a language only the heart can understand..."

Hello!

First off, I would like to thank everyone who commented on those questions and if you didn't....SEVEN DAYS!! Lol, I'm kidding.

Second off, HOPEFULLY (Most likely yes) Christina is coming over today! ^^ I need to tell her to bring all her Final Destination movies...I think I will call her and remind her of that. *Gasp* WE COULD HAVE A HORROR NIGHT!! BIG SCREEN TV AVAILIBLE AFTER 12!! WooT!

Third off, I love Kyle. ^_~ I though you all should know that. I talked to him last night for a few hours. Yayz! ^^
But then he had to go. Really fast and I told him I loved him and he hung up, then he called back and said he loved me too.

^_______^

I go boom now! ~~~~
PM MEH!

~Simply~
Heru
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

I got some questions.
No quote.

Now, most of you that really know me know about depression. Well, tonight I am not the depressed just curious. I need all of you who read this to please answer these questions. I will leave them on here for awhile.

1.) What do you think of me? (Nothing like: Aweesome, stupid, ect)

2.) What would you do if I had 24 hours to live?

3.) Do you Love me, Hate me, or are we friends? (Be honest)

4.) Do you think I would be a good mother? Why?

5.) What would you do if I commited suicide?

6.) What woudld you do if I died in general?

7.) How long have you known me?

8.) Do you trust me? Why?

That's all.

~Simply~
Heru
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Sunday, November 25, 2007

...I think I need a shrink...
Quote-"After a year in therapy my pshyciatrist said, 'Maybe living isn't for everyone'..."


I am so damn emotional.

First off, I HATE CHRISTMAS TIME!! It gets my parents to stressed out then they take it out on me. AND MY LIFE IS ALREADY TO STRESSFUL!!

Second off, my brother and his wife got in a huge fight. Which again got my parents upset and they take it out on me.

Third off, my brother left and I won't see him until Christmas.

*sighs* I haven't talked to Kyle all day. This sucks. I would write some poems or songs but...Quite frankly I just don't give a damn about that right now. Well have a wonderful fucking night.
Later.

~Simply~
Heru.
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Saturday, November 24, 2007

Poems. ~~~
~Shadow~

I am lost and forgotten.
Alone and abandoned.
Heart tripping.
Soul bleeding.
Won't you come save me?
Take me from this horrible hell I call home?
The only one who walks beside me is my shadow.
She does not ignore me.
She does not tell me what I am doing is wrong.
She just nods in agreement...

-Your Touch-

I hate your touch
Oh so much.
All you do is tease.
No longer please.
You ridicule me.
Why can't you just let me be?
My scares are more than enough.
Please don't get rough.
It's horrible when the one you love is the one you hate. When the one you hate is the one you love. When you memories are all you have. And you are scared to go to sleep because He may haunt your dreams...

Alrighty I am done.

I may post more later. If not then oh well, you will get over it.

~Simply~
Heru.
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Friday, November 23, 2007

...-////-
No quote to sleepy.

Eh...I stayed on the computer talking to Kyle and Morgan until one in the morning. >_<
Then with My mom, Jeb, and Austin until two. Then Gracie wook me up around eight. Ugh...I'm so sleepy...I soooo didn't want to get off the computer lest night. Tis sucks Much.

Anywhozers...I'M STILL SLEEPY! FISSIT!!

Me go boom now. PM me so I can stay awake. -.-

Simply~
Heru.
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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thankems Givems'!!
Quote-"...When you love someone this much distance know longer matters..."


Hello!!

Well, soon I am going to my Uncels house for Thanksgiving lunch!! ^-^ Torture teh famiy time! ^^ (And yes, all the errors in spelling are suppose to be like that!) I'm hungry. I think I'm gonna eat some fruit loops.

OH YEAH!!
I am going to eat...*dramatic pause*
TURKEY!! *sobs* Oh wonderful God Jasmin please forgive me for eating that poor animal forgive me for the sin of eating the horrible meat! (Acting like Hidan peps!)
I like Turkey. Only on Thankems Givems' though. That's the only time I eat Turkey! ^-^

Well, hope you all have a wonderful Thankems Givems'.

Simply~
Heru.
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

My December.
I have never heard this song but I was bored tonight so I decided to look up the lyrics and I know Kyle likes this song So I am posting the lyrics.

Tis by Linkin Park.

"My December"

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you
Feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the
Things I said to you

And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

This is my December
These are my snow-covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all
The things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed
And I
Take back all the things
I said to you

And I give it all away
Just to have
Somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere
To go to
Give it all away
To have someone
To come home to

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Meow. ~~
Quote- "It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew, and someone you love becomes someone you hate."

Hello!

This is not going to be a 'fun' post. I am giving myself and you all a schedual for tomorrow. Which is Thanksgiving Day.

First get up and get ready to go to my Uncle's for Thanksgiving lunch.
Eat and talk.
Kill Auston. (My cousin)
Torture Jeb. (My brother)
Go home.
Torture Jeb more.

Friday~~
Wake up really early and go wlaking with Jenna. (My brother's fiance.)
Then go take a shower and go shopping with Jenna and my mom. (Big sales)
Eat what's let over from dinner or order pizza.

Saturday~~
See my brother off.
Goof around.

Sunday~~
Got to church.
Goof around.

Wow...I am a schedual freak. O.o

Well...
Byez.

Simply~
Heru
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

M.E.M.O.R.Y.S....
No quote. To depressed.

Kyle was suppose to call back around eight or nine, but I got on the computer. I will probably get off soon so I can call him.

Well...I have been thinking about Steven alot lately. It sucks to. It's not that I still love him, but I do miss him.

I have also been thinking of Brandon. I definatly don't miss him! Stupid man whore... Even Morgan agrees. He always use to tease me about my eating disorder and me being a vegitarian. -.-
He would drive me crazy. But then all the sweet things he would say to me... *shakes her head"

Oh yeah, I deleted all those messages on my phone with those sweet things on them. Thank you Kyle. You came right when I needed you. You were the only thing that gave me a push during that time.

Ok, yeah, about yesterday. I am dearly sorry. I was tlaking to Kyle though. And I didn't wanna get off the phone because I love him for than any of you! Except you Morgan. I love you two equally. ^^

Well me go now.

Simply~
Heru.
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