Sunday, November 18, 2007

FUCK THE FAKE!
Quote-"...Fake friends will bail you out of jail. Real friends would be sitting right beside you saying 'Man we fucked up'..."


FUCK THE FAKE! AND THE PREPS! AND THE LIARS! AND THE WHORES! Seems like alot of people are screwed.

I am soooo mad! I had a major fight with Brandon last night. I got really cocky. And then Jake got his nose in it and started saying the these fucking lies. AND ARikfdha kughs df&^*$&5*&% pkvgjsndf; kbvgjsd fpjk sdcfl!!
Ok, I'm not better.

Kyle is so sweet. ^_^
End of my conversation with him last night-

Me- Kyle, I'm gonna go.
Kyle- Are you ok?
Me- Yeah just sleepy.
Kyle- Ok go to bed baby, I'll call you tomorrow.
Me- Ok, Goodnight.
Kyle- Goodnight, I love you.
Me- I love you too.
Kyle- Bye...
Me- Bye.

Hehe ^_^
I swear I have replayed thta a million times in my head. Lol. Yes, I am crazy in love.

And I got a message from him this morning on MSN.
It was one of those offline messages.

He was just saying how much he loved me.

Ok I go now. Byez!

PM me. ^^

Simply~
Heru. (Kyle's freak on a leash.)
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Saturday, November 17, 2007

WOOHOOTZERZ~~!!~~^^)()()()()()(){}{}{}{}{}[][][][][][] *simles*
Quote-"...Maybe one day you will miss me. Maybe one day I will be able to forgive and forget you. Just maybe..."

THE HEAT IS BROKEN!! (When I firt typed this I put "THE HEART IS BROKEN!!")
Lol. I actually don't mind the heat being broken. It's cold and their is a fire. ^-^ WooT!
I've been watching movies all day so far! Kyle's going to his moms later today. (I guess) I am going to call him on his cell. He will be very close to Atlanta. (It would be the perfect time to meet him!!) But I can't. I am not leaving the house this weekend. Well...I might...But only to go shopping. My hands are cold. I got one wet Lol. I hope it freezes...Ok...Maybe not. O.o

Well Hope you all have a great weekend!!


OH YEAH!!

I will be out of school Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday!! SO PM ME!! Lol.

Well talk to youz laterz.

Simply~
Heru
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Friday, November 16, 2007

Wooferz...
Quote- "...Somebody get me out...take me from this horrid land...Show me the light once again..."


Well first off, I have been faking a smile all week and it is killing me. I am literaly dying from the inside out. But I have hope now. Kyle...My hope. The on thing I look forward to everyday. I call him at six. Everyday. We live and two hours and thirty minutes away from eachother. I (Hopefully) Get to meet him in person this Winter. Yes, I am very happy.

Right now I am waiting on my mom to get home. She is bringing me pizza.

In eight minutes I am calling Kyle. Teehee. ^-^ I'm listening to Chris Daughtry. WooT! He's actually pretty good.

I'm cold. T__T Oh well. Grr six minutes...Ok I am judt gonna call him early.

Toodles!!

Simply~
Heru
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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Heyz! ^-^
Quote-"...Good things take time but great things happen in a blink of an eye..."

Well hiya!
How are you all?
Me? I'm ok. In some pain but still good. I'm alittle happy. But you know me! That won't last long. I have been thinking about Danny alot lately. I miss her so much. I wish I could talk to her. She was my bestest friend! Then pop she moves and leaves me. I wonder if she would be proud of who I am...Probably not. Well.

This week has been going by fast, but not fast enough. I wanted to hurt something really bad earlier...O.o
Weird huh? Yep!

Well anywayz. I'll talk to you all later.

Oh yeah!
I changed my site! Hope you like it!

Simply~
Heru
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Monday, November 12, 2007

Extremly short.
Yeah...Know quote.

I'm totally pissed. I want to die. I WANT OUT OF THIS PLACE!!! Anyway...
I want to break stuff...Me go now. I may post more later...maybe...

Simply~
Heru. (Told ya it wasn't long!)
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Sunday, November 11, 2007

*head falls on desk* Owie...
Quote-"...My soul is breking in two, the imperfection is taking over..."

*sneezes*

Hehe ^.^
No I'm not dead. But I am sick. T_T It sucks! I don't even want to eat! >_<
Now you people really know I'm sick!
I woke up this morning and couldn't breath. I man really I had to open my mouth just to be able to breath. I laid in bed for about an hour then finally got up to blow my nose. Yeah, I am really lazy ok? Then my throat was all bleh and scrathcy so I got some water...That didn't help me any. Then I finally got on the computer because I was HOPING someone would be on. But nope. No one. At all. *stomach growls* SHUT UP YOU DON'T GET FOOD! I DON'T WANT TO PUKE!

Yeah...so...Anywayz...
I am not depressed!
But I am not happy either.
I am cold. Yes, very cold.


This is going to be one of those long post where I say absolutly nothing except what I have been doing...Maybe I should have said that earlier...O.o

I talked to Kyle last night. Only for two hours though. I didn't feel good. (I guess that's when I should have started taking medicine.) Kyle went fishing with his dad and his cousin. His cousins name is Kyle too. O.o
His cousin Kyle sounds more like the hick though. Yeah Morgan he sounds more like a hick than I do! Well, anyway. MY HANDS ARE NUMB!! And my foot is asleep. I need to move the computer to my room. It's warm in there. This room. The sunroom. Is the coldest in the house. Yeah...It's where my mom keeps her plants because it has like two big ass windows. Yeah...I can't wait until Christmas. MY MOMMY IS BUYING ME TOYS! *laughs* Sorry I was kidding. I am getting a new phone, a lap top, and probably money for DDR!! WooT! Par-tay! Quick question...How did I get from Kyle to Christmas?
OOOOO!! I know! Because Jada want Kyle for Christmas. ^-^ Well...He can wait until Valentines Day. I want my new phone, DDR, and lap top first.

Well....I think I have said enough huh?

Simply~
Heru (I'm sticking to the 'simply' thingy. BE PROUD OF MEH!)
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Saturday, November 10, 2007

....*glares*
No quote. To depressed. Anything I say will end up bloody and horrible.

Very depressed.
Wanting to cut...
But I promised Randy I wouldn't.
My boy- My Ex- boyfriend won't quit trying to get us back together...I don't want him. It's not that I don't love him. I do. But not like I use to. God I can't stop crying...Their is no use putting on make-up. I refuse to go anywhere today and my tears would just make it start running. OK I am going to go.
Please...Someone call me.

706-412-9997.
If I don't answer leave your name and number on voice mail and I will call back.

Love...I use that word to much. No more love.

Simply~
Heru
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Friday, November 9, 2007

T_T
Quote-"...You picked me up and put me back on solid ground, if not for you then I would be dead..."

Depressed...Again...MAJORLY!

I'm in soooo much pain.
AND NO I DIDN'T FUCKING CUT MYSELF!
I hurt my back. Happy?
I'm yelling and being angry and depressed for nothing...Ugh...I'm gonna barf...My mom won't be home until 7 tonight, my dad won't be home until 9. Wow...Well, atleast my mom is bring me pizza. But I don't feel like eating it...Ok I'm gonna go now.

Love~
Heru.
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Well Hiya! ^^
Quote-"...You came into my life, so quite and calm..."

HI!!
I am happy. ^^ Really happy! MEOW! MOO COW! Sugar...
POEM! ^^

Wrote this last night.

Breathing...
(Inhale)
Tears begin to flood down my face like a cup left under a running faucet well after the water has reached the rim,
My heart leaping in my throat,
getting caught,
squeezing,
twisting,
tearing.
My throat contracting around my emotions that threaten to leap up and out of my lips,
my stomach
rumbling,
wrestling,
knotting.
My hands quiver as I reach up to blot the tiny teardrops,
Leaving footprints down my cheeks.
The path that awaits me
suddenly seems like a pilgrimage,
one foot,
next foot,
step,
step,
I see you.
I see her.
You smile.
She leaves.
You ask how I am.
I lie.
I reply that I'm fine
Even though my heart has just crept up into my mouth and is jumping up and down on my tongue like and Olimpic diver waiting to hit the water.
I want to say that I miss you,
let you know that every minute I'm awake I think of you.
I want you to know that I miss your arms,
your smile,
your lips,
I want you to know that I'm incomplete.
My body hurts,
my soul bleeds.
I ask how you are.
Hoping agaisnt all hope that you tell me what I want to hear.
You reply,
your answer not including what I wanted to hear.
My eyes atempt to strip you down to your soul
Searching for what I once knew so well.
they get lost,
but find their way back to reality when they graze over the ever-fading hickey,
just above the collar of the shirt she bought you.
My heart leaps off the end of my tongue,
wanting you to see the way you've hurt me,
wanting you to hurt the same way.
it falls to the ground.
She calls you.
You hastily say good-bye,
as you trot over to her,
stomping,
squishing,
mutilating,
my vulnerable, fallen heart.
Not even pausing long enough to scrape it off the bottom of your shoe, like a discarded piece of gum.
She wraps her arms around your neck,
brings her lips to yours...
Your ears still turn red.
People pass, as if I don't even exist.
I want to scream, cry, shout.
I want someone to find my heart,
bring it back,
piece it together.
I turn away,
hoping the one day it won't hurt.
As much.
And hoping that I will again be able to call you
and have you come over to me,
be able to buy you shirts that match your eyes,
and leave the telltale hickey just above the collar,
and will still be able to make your ears turn red from the friction of our lips.
I walk away,
Knowing my heart will not follow.
(Exhale.)

Now I am done!
Long huh?
It took a while to type to!
Well tell me what you think! ^^
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Monday, November 5, 2007

...My update...
No quote. Sorry everyone.

Well...It has been a few days huh? Lately I have been...Talking to friends, sitting and thinking, trying to put my life back together, and hanging with people I haven't seen in a long time. I have also been writing alot. Music, songs, ect. Most suck though. Anwhoz...I am gonna go.

Love-
Heru.
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