Saturday, July 28, 2007

Mood: lazy Time: 11:43 AM Quote of the Day: "hmm..." Okay so I am sorry i havn't been able to get on and I probably won't be able to post regularly until school starts up again. My father has banned me from using the internet everyday. But when school starts back up I can post and redo my site, so I am sorry but I got to go before I get yelled at again. Much love Calla

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

Mood: I donno rushed? Time: 10:27 AM Quote of the Day: "Time time where has all the time gone?" Hello!!! everybody. I am sorry I have not posted but a lot of stuff has happened! Lets see my last post was, ack, almost ten days ago. I have a good excuse!! My brother came to visit and I didn't know he was coming so I devoted all of my time to him. He is so cool and I hadn't seen him in like four years. so please forgive me for being away. Ok here are the standings of the new layout voting: The topics: 1. Angels 2. Demons 3. Crystals 4. Pretty Girl 5. Pretty Guy 6. Fire 7. Dark Magician Girl 8. Butterfly 9. Callalily The votes: 1. ll 2. ll 3. ll 4. 5. 6. lll 7. l 8. 9. ll So it looks like a fire layout has won. I will get right on that. and if anyone thinks they has a wonderful picture with fire in it I am looking for some more. I don't think I have enough for a full layout ^.^;; Alright Oh! and I got the new Naruto Ultimate Ninja 2 game and I have been playing that none stop. Sooo yeah sorry about that too. I have almost beat it though... Anyway I miss you all I will try to get to your sights tonight when I get back from work. So peace my dears. xoxo Calla

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Mood: Content Time: 9:56 AM Quote of the Day: "When you smile it makes me happy. I love to know you are happy too." Hello my wonderful friends on MyO. How is everyone today? I am fine, but I think I am going to go to my favorite Japanese food place tonight. I just feel like sushi. Like really badly do I want sushi, lol. Lets see, today is my first day off in quite awhile. I might even finally go see those movies I wanted to go see. POTC3 and Shrek 3. Has anyone watched them? Are they good? ^.^; I do not go see movies that often so I am behind on what are good to see and not to see. I need help with ideas for a new layout. Here are what to chose from if you would be so kind. Pick three and them I will make a preview for each and then choose from those later. 1. Angels 2. Demons 3. Crystals 4. Pretty Girl 5. Pretty Guy 6. Fire 7. Dark Magician Girl 8. Butterfly 9. Callalily 10. and if you can think of another one let me know. Well I am off to go play or something. Have fun today xoxo Calla

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

Mood: Confused Time: 12:37 AM Quote of the Day: "I have never had so many people that I could dislike following a breakup with my other." Hello everybody. How are you all today? I am doing just fine. I just got home from work. twas ok and all that jazz. Still waiting on those hot guy pics so nyah sorry I will have those up asap. What to talk about. I guess I could start posting chapters of my book. Did I ever tell you I was writing a book? I may have a long time ago. Anyway I really need to get my but in gear about finishing it so if you are all interested I might start posting some chapters and ask your advise. Sound cool? So hm, the boyfriend thing is about to drive me crazy. Lets see what did I say in my last post... *checks page* ... Well not much so here is the low down. He hasn't had a job for a few months -.-; and I told him that if he did not have a job by the time i got back from vacation I would break up with him. Well he didn't so I broke up with him. *sigh* I think I made a bad choice because I can barly get him to talk to me and I am kind of lonely. He has this other girl hitting on him and I really want to hurt her but I know it is not my place. any ideas as to what I can do? Lets see here *looks over notes of the day* I slept till 10 AM I guess I am still getting over jet lag. My internal clock is still a bit messed up. It should be better tomorrow. Well that is it. Cya all on the flip side. xoxo Calla

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Friday, June 15, 2007

Yo

Mood: Sad Time: 6:38 AM Quote of the Day: "I don't want to be alone, but how can I be with someone I do not respect? Someone that is not responsible? Someone whom I don't know if I love anymore?" Hey, How is everyone? I miss you all so much, but I am going to try and write everyday now. ^-^ Lately it has been ok. *sigh* *smirk* I guess I just missed talking to my real friends. I want to know how you all are doing? anything new or interesting happen while I was on my 'trip'? I just broke up with my boyfriend of over a year. Last night to be exact. I don't want to go into that right now though. I just got back from my trip to italy. There are a lot of super hot guys there hehehe. I will post pictures when I get them all. Well I am going to browse profiles now, peace. Xoxoxo ~Calla~

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

One last post?

Mood: None Time: 11:18AM Quote of the Day: Sometimes your heart wants you to be alone and thats when you know you wish you could scream. Hi, how is everyone? I've missed you all a lot. You didn't know but I kept up reading on all of you, though I may not have posted everytime. I really wanted to talk to you, but I really couldn't. Heres whats been going on lately. When I left, I was having major issues with family, friends, and relationships. I was almost raped, a member of my family passed away, and I fell into a deep depression. I could not speak to anyone about this because it was just so painful and anytime I tried, my chest would catch on fire. After awhile, I traveled around and one day I ran into a lady that told me I was plagued by demons. That very night I could see them and I could feel them reach at me, into my heart. I could feel every happy emotion I felt be ripped from my body, replaced by the same icy cold ache inside of me. Everytime they came I couldn't move, I was helpless. I could just close my eyes and hope sleep would take me before the pain did. This is why I couldn't write or talk for so long. Anytime I tried... I could feel their nails in my heart, forbidding me to speak. I was bound by my sadness, and it was a very lonly time. Around this time I met a guy who took advantage of me and tried to rape me. I know I was probably suppose to tell someone but I couldn't, I just tried to avoid him. Which was hard since I worked with him. Hes gone now, which helped. I when a few months without really talking to my friends and I met another guy a few months later. he was really nice, but I think I only dated him because I was trying to fill that void in my heart and I think I push him to hard. Whats worse is I fell in love with his best friend while I was still dating him. I didn't want to hurt him but I didn't want to be with him. He didn't give me the security I needed, he couldn't understand I was consumed by demons. I was never as scared of myself as the day I broke up with him. I was emotioness. I felt at that time that I had already lost all my emotions, I was terrified, but did not do anything. This other child, Brandon, I call him a child because he is younger than me. We dated for awhile and we shared similar interests, making our time together enjoyable. I even stopped seeing the demons at night for awhile. But they came back, after I found out he had cheated on me with another boy. My soul, burned inside of me and my entire body could not bear that kind of pain. He begged my forgivness, but how can you give it to this child that brought the pain back, with even more behind. I wanted to die, that is how bad it was. Death seemed more of an option for me at that time, and I bled myself to releave even a little bit of the pain. But I think he finally got it because he helped me get rid of my demons. He taught me how to drive them away and even put his own life on the line when he tried to help me. They don't bother me much anymore. Maybe every few months or so. but their mostly staying away. Which is why it doesn't hurt as much when I try to type now or talk about this. Im sorry I've been gone so long, but I wanted to make sure I wasn't going to fall down again. My friends, though I am now changed and have grown-up a lot this past year, with you accept my apology for not writing or reponding. I still love you all, and I have missed you all so much. I do hope you still want to be my friend, because I know I want to be yours. Xoxoxo ~Calla~

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Saturday, September 10, 2005

Mood: Meh *scrambled brain Time: 11:31 PM Quote of the Day: If you find the one will you talk to them? Listen to them? Learn from them? Or will you just pass them by... I have been so busy. I go to school than I work. If I'm not working I have an after school class and drama club. But the thing that irks me the most is that they banned MyO at my school. I am so pissed! I can no longer post from there T_T' go figure... I'm sorry I've been so scrambled lately. Please don't hate me if I never go to your sites anymore I just don't seem to have time anymore. -sigh- yeah about that new theme... its ready I just can't put it up right now. I have to finish an essay and stuff. meh, again I am sorry. I'll write again tomorrow and it will be more interesting I promise, Much love you all! Xoxoxo ~Calla~

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Saturday, August 27, 2005

Mood: -,_,-‘ *tired annoyed pissed ready to cry* Time: 12:20AM Quote of the Day: Sometimes your all isn’t the best. For some people just take your good nature and use you until there’s nothing left. ----------- This has been edited for the younger audiences ---------- I am going to be ranting so if you don’t want to listen to my ranting skip until you see POSEY in big letters at the bottom. ^_^ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This had to be the WORST Night of my life. Lets start with I am quitting my job. Yes f*** yes. I hate my job I hate the customers, I hate being shorted someone on a busy night! My manager and I both quit tonight. We put in our 2 weeks. Firstly the main manager, Katie, Didn’t give me the days I asked off for the next week so I had to find people to take my shifts. F*** that. She also thought it is very good to short us one-person every time I work. You can not serve hungry people in both up front and drive through with only 3 people. Maybe in some crazy forgotten realm yes but Not in the REAL world! F***ing S***! I didn’t get out of there until midnight where I did a horrible job. My reasoning?! Why the H*** Should I put myself out there for this job if it doesn’t even pay well AND they make my job harder by having to train new people every time I work AND get Shorted a person every time too! What the H*** is wrong with this picture? You give it your all and they just slice and dice you up. I Can Only Do So MUCH! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA*takes breath* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~POSEY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ On a lighter note my new theme is almost done. I like it but its not YGO. Sorry guys. I just need to fine tune a couple more things. Oh yeah I have just hit 3000 hits!! YEY!! I work again today. But then I’m going to do something fun. Then I need to do some projects for this coming week. Then I will be done, Yey. I need to put my Resume in at some other places too. Hmmmmm…. Well that’s all I have, cya! Xoxoxo ~Calla~

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

Mood: Meh Time: 2:03pm Quote of the Day: Time is a thing we all must manage (yes boring I know but out of time) Well hey there. I’ve been really busy these past few days. I haven’t had a chance to update all week. The first few days haven’t been that bad. The only class that could be annoying is my college writing class. The teacher is so boring. Anyway, hey what’s up? I’m working on a new theme for my site but I can’t figure out how SKF and some of my other friends gets there text box to have a scroll thing. ~_~ If you could get the code for me that would be great. I have to work tonight and I really don’t want to. School isn’t really that bad. All the classes are easy but they still give me homework that I would rather be working on THAT than going to work. So yeah blah. Anyway that’s all I have today I have to get back to computer class. TTYL Much love, ~Calla~

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Monday, August 22, 2005

Mood: O_O -paniky- Time: 6:31 am Quote of the Day: When we start somethign new its easy just to forget about it later and move on with something else. But when we stay with it and finish it, now that takes skill. I only have time for a short post today. ACK I have to go to school in a few mins. I'm still so tired and I couldn't fall asleep last night for anything! OK ok I have this... and that... OMG I almost left my schedule at home. ~_~ umina umina lets see that and that oh WHERES MY BACKPACK?!!! oh right I already put it in my car. Ok I think I have everything now. I'll update later today about how my first day went. Or it could be tomorrows post. I have a lot to do today. anyway you all have a nice day... -NOOO I DON;T HAVE TIEM TO EAT!!!- ... see ya all later! xoxoxo ~Calla~

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