Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Mood: zzzzzz Time: 11:28pm Quote of the day: As lonely as you think you are you can always be lonelier. ack, I am so tired. I think this is going ot be a short post... but I guess we'll see. Well I've been really busy this past week. With work and sleep I just really have no time. anyway... I went horseback riding today. It was really fun. But I am so sore! I also went four wheeling and swimming. it was very fun ^_^ it was a thing my friend invited me too. On a side note I had blood work done yesterday. My step-mom took me and I got my results back... hehehe but I'll tall you another day what happened. Lets not spoil anything. I'm going to a cabin this weekend. Pontoon boating, and swimming it is going to be fun! I'll tell you about it when I get back on sunday. Its an over night thing so... Well I think I'm gonna go. Night all! Much love, ~Calla~

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Mood: Happy Time: 10:01am Quote of the day: Books are the commentary of the unsocial world. You know what? Thinking up quote everyday is going to get hard eventually, lol. Currently I'm sitting here eating a bowl of cereal. Its good. My parents finally bought 2% milk again. Boy that 1% stuff is so watery >.<' yey milk!!! anyway, I couldn't sleep last night. I had a poem going through my head over and over again. I couldn't sleep until I wrote it down. so here it is. One For One for the party, One for the lies, One for the boy that made me cry. One for the pain, One for the loss, One for the love that deeply cost. One for the body, One for the soul, One for the heart that stains the floor. One for the dead, One for the sorrow, One for those that won’t see tomorrow. One for my friends, One for my family, One for myself in my insanity. One for the mind, One for the ache, One for the emptiness that I must fake. One for the brother, One for the sister, One for the dark nightly whispers. One for my demons, One for my fright, One for my screams into the night. Twenty-seven cuts upon my arm. Twenty-seven cuts that bleed in awn. Twenty-seven cuts that mark this life. Twenty-seven cuts that end this strife. Twenty-seven cuts of burning shame. Twenty-seven cuts of endless pain. Twenty-seven cuts till the perfect death. Twenty-seven cuts till my final breath. One for the darkness, One for the moon, Lastly, one for the life that ends too soon. and that'll be it for me. hopefully I can sleep tonight. But I don't know I have a friend coming over ^__^ wooo!! hehe cya all! Much love, ~Calla! Comments (16) | Permalink Monday, June 20, 2005 Mood: ? Where are I? Time: 11:45 PM Quote of the day: Sometimes trying to prove someone wrong hurts you a lot more than you would have thought. *sighs* =_=’ *sits* -_-‘ *eats some soup* ~_~ *turns account back on* -.- *eats some more soup* o.-‘ *yawns* o.o’ ok, I think I’m awake now. I’m sitting here eating some Batman soup my parents bought. I don’t know. It’s better than work food anyway… *yawns* ok *sigh* here’s what happened, I really didn’t mean to turn it off my site. I was just going to turn it off for a sec and fix a new theme for it when I looked at the clock. >.> *GASP* I had to run to work. (still need to get that new layout up) I was almost late <.< so I’m sorry Constance I really didn’t mean to upset you. I hope you can forgive me. *finishes soup* Anyway, as I got to work (at 11 am – remember this) I was kinda tired. I worked the night before till 12:15 PM ish. Nk The morning went well… But like an idiot I was asked to cover someone else’s shift and I said yes. So today I worked a 12 hours shift. (13 if you count driving time) But everything feel apart at 5ish. First off one of the cooks never showed up. No nothing, not even a call. Needless to say he is probably fired. And all they had was a nooblet cook who knew little more than me. So they stuck me cooking from 5-9 when another cook said he could came in. (He did by the way) But it was horrible. I sill had to close lobby and we were getting slammed all night. I did it and it was OK but it was annoying as heck. =.=’ But that’s why I wasn’t here all day. I get to close again tomorrow night. I’ll try to get to your sites sometime but I really need some rest. G-night everyone. Much love, ~Calla~ Comments (11) | Permalink Saturday, June 18, 2005 Mood: eh can't complain Time: 1:02 PM Quote of the day: Silence is a humans greatest flaw. We talk when it doesn't matter and we don't talk when it would. How is everyone today? I just finished my dad's German Chocolate cake. It looks really good... if you like pecans and coconut (yuck) Bah I just went upstairs to look at my cake and he was eatting the icing! Bah! Oh well its his cake I suppose... Tomorrow is going to hurt. I work a 12 hour shift. ~_~ 11-Close I think I'm gonna die! Oh well. at least I open and close. That way I won't run out of anything. meh. I'm really tired. But that wasn't because of lack of sleep. (I think I got a full 8 hours last night.) but work was very stressful last night. We had 2 $300 dollar hours in a row followed by 2 $400-$450 hours. (thats a lot since the regular hour is about $200) I dropped a tray of food. Nearly had an asthma attack and it felt like someone had taken a sword and run me through my heart. over and over again. It hurt so bad. I probably need a check up but my dad doesn't believe in doctors. I'm going to leave yesterdays post up. If you didn't read my beginning story its still there. Or you don'have too. Doesn't matter. anyway I have to go. Much love, ~Calla~ Comments (7) | Permalink Friday, June 17, 2005 Mood: annoyed Time: 12:06am Quote of the day: Forgotten are our dreams at night. Forgotten are we now. Forgotten we all will become unless we learn to shout. I am so very tired. After word last night. (which was fun I got to learn how to cook.) I went over to my friends house were they we having a party thing. Lets see, there was: Savannah, Kellie, Chelsie (spelled wrong I'm sure), Her two younger sisters, and Alisha. Chelsie was really the only one I talked to while I was there. But the longer I stay up the hyperer I get so I'm sure they all were hating me by the end of the night. mmm lets see. I was the last one to fall asleep because I just couldn't do it. and I was the first one to wake up. So lets see I probaly went to sleep at about 3am and got up a little after 5am =.=; I had to take my freind savannah home but I really didn't have that much gas. I'm surprized I even made it home. I have to get gas tonight when I go to work. Then I can home and slept for another 4 hours or so. I feel so much better lol. I finished the intro to my story. Would you like to read it? Immortal Games Prologue Deep in a wood somewhere on planet Jod resides a small house. Falling apart at the corners it looks barley livable. A window or two are broken and the foundation has sunk on one side tilting it to the left. A small garden struggles to grow on a side of this house. So over grown with weeds it is that it looks nearly dead. A man struggles trying to collect the harvest from it. Panting he lifts another vegetable from the tangle of vines. His gnarled hand places it in an old basket. As he leans over to pick another plant he notices a boy cloaked in black walking down his road, the only road that leads to town, to anywhere. Wearily the old man rose to his feet. His heart seemed to hurt as the boy came closer. A black hood covered the face, hiding it in shadow. “What brings you out this far traveler?” The old man asked. Without a word the boy removed a piece of paper from inside his cloak. Placing it in the other mans hand he spoke in a harsh whisper. “Have you ever seen this child.” Looking at the photo a memory came back to the old man. A memory of a young beautiful woman dressed in a nightgown. A memory full of sorrow… and pain. “I think so.” Replied the old man tiredly. “When.” Sighing deeply before answering, “She was my cousin, no my friend. I havn’t seen her since I was a boy.” He hands the photo back to the boy. Taking the photo back the boy pushes back his hood. The old man froze with fear at his eyes. An ice cold green as he had never seen before. As cold as the stars and infinite space above him. “But you remember her.” The boys’ eyes look deeply into the old man. He saw the memory of the girl, the sad story of this old man, and her not being here anymore. Glaring at the old man the boy spoke one last time. “You will meet her in death. I promise you that.” A whistling cut the air. A sound not easily forgotten, the sound of steel breaking bone. The old man falls backward with nothing but a short gasp of lifeless breath. Raising his hood back over his head the boy looked up at the now darkening sky. His vow of revenge echoing in his head and the loss he felt the day he made it. He leaves the old man in his pool of blood and walks back to the woods. His ship waits silently for him in the gathering darkness. Looking up one last time he grits his teeth. “Your end clik is coming, Anora.” That is all I have today. cya! xoxoxo ~Calla-san~ Comments (7) | Permalink Thursday, June 16, 2005 Mood: So very tired Time: 11:33am Quote of the day: Dreams are a part of our world too. When you can’t sleep something is wrong. When you can’t dream you are detached. When you can’t think than you are frozen with so much pain that your body refuses to work. Now that is true pain. How is everyone? I’m tired. I couldn’t sleep last night. I kept waking up at odd times. 3:30, 5:00, and on until I finally just got up at 7:30. I havn’t been able to sleep lately. I don’t know why. I’m so very tired but I just can’t sleep. -.-‘ I think something is wrong with me. I feel sick if I eat and I can barely function. I can’t concentrate and my mind is all foggy. I tried to write yesterday but I just couldn’t get my words to come. I’m going to try again today to write. But I really don’t know if I can do it. Maybe I’m not suppose to be a writer. I would be very sad if I couldn’t write anything anymore. Its like I just don’t have the ability anymore. I feel left behind like a lost puppy or something. I’m doing the same thing over and over again. I work, I clean, I eat, and I sleep. Nothing really changes. (Except less sleep) meh blasted schedule I’m going over to my friends house tonight for a sleepover after work. They wanted to do a beauty thing but I’m going mostly to be able to spend time with my friends. (and avoiding the beauty part of it all together) I need a vacation from my life. We should all get together. Meet in some distant country away from this life. Now that would be fun. ^-^ Ok I’m going to go work on it now. So I may be posting the next little bit up a little later. Before I have to go to work that is. I hope it’ll be ok. Much love everyone! ~Nakamura-san~ That’s my name in Japanese. It means ‘Center of the Village’ cool neh? ^-^ Comments (12) | Permalink Wednesday, June 15, 2005 Here we are again, Apart of something that we can never stop... time: 8:13 am Mood: A little tired and kinda sick (stupid sniffles) Quote of the day: :Even if we fail to see each other for years life has a way of bringing old friends back together. So remember that if you are cruel now and nice later your friend will remember you as you left them." Ack I am so tired. I finally hit everyones site yesterday so I can get back to the regulars -.-zzzz I woke up this morning at six! SIX! What in the Name of Ra am I doing up at Six! _-_' BAH! Lets see what is there to talk about... Oh yeah fathers day is coming up and I plan on baking my dad a german chocolate cake. I also bought him a mug warmer thing that will always keep his coffe hot ^_~ He better like it. Or I just won't be able to talk to him for awile. Now that I am free I can go back to joining some clubs here at MyO. If you know of any that would be interesting to join plz feel free to tall me about them and I'll decide. I was in a couple before but I forget what they are now. (oops) Anyway, I have to work again tonight. and I am finally going to get to work on my story. I just have one more important thing to do but it will only take me like an hour so I have the rest of the day to myself. *smiles* Maybe I'll even get it up by tomorrow. Possibly even be tomorrows post. Now that would be fun hehehe. Anyway I must be off. I'll make my morning rounds but them I'm gone until I get back from work tonight. Hope you all don't hurt me if I don't get to your sites today. Love you all muchly! ~Calla~ Comments (14) | Permalink Tuesday, June 14, 2005 So how is everyone today? Do you like my new site? I’m working my way down the list right now. I have to hit everyone at least once before I hit the frequent updaters. I’m at M so If your below that you should be getting a post from me soon. Mmmm I have to go to bed but I do hope you like my new theme!!! Much love, ~Calla~ Comments (17) | Permalink Saturday, June 11, 2005 I hate thinking up a new title every blasted time, lol Mood: ~_~ zzzz…. Currently doing: trying to avoid cleaning my room. So how is everyone doing? I’m doing OK I guess. I just got off of work and really need to take a bath lol. I smell of work, bleh. I am so about to hit everyones sites I know I’ve been gone a lot but I’ve been working just about everyday. I only get one day off a week =\ I am so tired. I really need to start working on my story again. I need to get the first few chapters done within the next week or so. (I made myself a little schedule.) But if I don’t stick to it I’ll never work on it. I just need to ration my time. I must sleep to much I have to take a few more hours out on that. Lets see here is my schedule now… 1:30am - 9:30am: SLEEP (<- do I really sleep that much?) 9:30am – 12:30pm: Goof, eat, waking up time. (AHH!! I goof for 2 whole hours?!!!) 12:30pm – 3:30pm: drive somewhere, friend time. (o_o;) 3:30pm – 4:30pm: Play on the computer/games (-_-;;) 4:30pm – 11:30pm: WORK (T_T’’) 11:30pm - 12:30am: Take bath, get ready for bed stuff (blah) 12:30am – 1:30am: lay in bed trying to fall asleep (deep sigh) ACK! I really need to change that. Lets try something else… 1:30am – 9:00am : SLEEP (Well I have to have it in there somewhere) 9:00am – 10:00am: Goof, wake up, eat maybe (Okay…) 10:00am – 12:00pm: write on story (or) TV/computer time 12:00pm – 2:00pm: Friend time/eat 2:00pm – 4:30pm: Write on story (or) TV/computer time 4:30pm – 11:30pm: WORK (T_T’) 11:30pm - 12:30am: Take bath, get ready for bed stuff 12:30am – 1:30am: lay in bed trying to fall asleep *SIGH* Anyway I do need to work out my time better. If any of you can help that would be great. Well time to hit your sites. Cya! Xoxoxo ~ Calla ~ Comments (13) | Permalink Tuesday, May 24, 2005 Well I have been having a horrible first week off school. Wanna hear about it? Well to bad your gonna. Friday: Nothing really slept, ate, slept, worked, slept Sat: Same as Friday Sun: This is a whole long drawn out thing. Last night my Aunt B came into town and we all go down to the Pilot house to eat, Well we spend hours there with just them drinking and smoking and us kids get a headache from all the smoke. When we finally get home they blast the music and I'm trying to be polite and sit with them outside but it was just really annoying and they kept talking in circles. Finally everyone left. (All in one piece) for the most part. And them we when to bed. Mon: Finishing off my horrible weekend… The morning was worse though I wake up and we have breakfast and my Aunt and my parents go up to St L. to take her to the airport. Well while their out I decide to play on the Internet. My phone gets disconnected about the time there was a major wreak in Cape. (It stayed off until just before I went to work) So I was going to go to the library to call my home phone to see what was wrong. Well Blast it I'm a horrible parker and as I'm trying to park outside the blasted building I get to close to the blasted pole and it knocks my side mirror off. So I'm panicking and I grab my mirror and drive to the closest body shop. They estimate that it would take $200 to fix my car. Through out the thing I am freaking out about what my dad is going to do when he gets home. So I cash my check to see how much I have to fix my car but its not enough. So I'm driving to DQ to finally call home and it tells me my phone is out of service. GAAAAA!!!!! Then I go home and my parents are walking the street and they stop me. (I was home once before and left them a note I went to work to call our phone to see what was wrong. I also said my car got hit in it) They look at it and my dad says he can fix it with hot glue and some stuff. Tomorrow so I'm out a car for Tuesday and I had plans. But my own stupidity ruined my chances of doing ANYTHING. And it is such a drag. I called the body shop place and told them to cancel my appointment tomorrow. (My phone can back on them) but them I had to go strait to work. We were super dead, then super fast, and I closed by myself with a really cute cook and a nice manager. But I was so far behind I was freaking out. I had a major headache because I was crying before my parents came home about what they were going to do to me. About 30 min. till we closed I started to tune everyone out and I was the only one on headset. When I'm finally get to go home I can not concentrate on the blasted road because I’m so annoyed at my own stupidity about breaking my blasted car! Then I rested and got on the Internet for awhile That about all that has happened so far. I do hope my summer gets better *fake laugh* ~_~ *sigh* Much love, ~Calla~ Comments (9) | Permalink Pages (24): [ First ][ Previous ] 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 [ Next ] [ Last ]

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