Friday, October 8, 2004

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*sigh* yeah I'm sorry but I'm going to be a little to busy to check your alls sites today. Today is the big game between the biggest rivals in the site. Well as far as high school football goes. Cape VS Jackson and I am so going lol ^^ Yeah tomorrow you'll be getting a new piece of my work. Unless i decide ot post some of it right now... not sure ^^;; I think I will, no, yes, no, yes, erm... grrr... fien I will ^_~;; lol but onto other things... again I am sorry for not geting to those of you that have just started coming to my site. I thank you so much I'm just a little busy. I promise I will tomorrow *huggles* but until then I must be off. oh yeah heres Chapter 3. Chapter 3 Young Girl Walking down the hall Eyes on the floor Ever respectful And silent galore So sweet and so innocent Considerate and kind Yet even the shadows Wedged deep in her mind Covered in darkness Her world she obscured From everyone else For the silence adored She thought of the pain That cut deep in her soul About death and destruction And loss and of lore So frequent, so new Let earth leave its due She cried and she bled Then gave up the end So many things That no one would know Left in the dark To bring in the show Her heart and her soul Did she try to give When she left this world She could not forgive The world started crumbling As she fell to her knees She drifted with ease So young yet ever forgotten ****** Dear Phillip, I am sitting here writing a letter you will never read. Sad isn’t it? I’ve thought about your choice. Becky Brown… Yeah she’s my friend. She’s very cool. Has her own sense of style. That’s why I like her. She is very bright as well. I can see why you chose her. I can be like her. What does she have that I don’t? Is it her sense of humor? The way she walks? Or could it be the way she looks at you? It could never be the same way I look at you because mine is filled with love. Reserved only for you. You told me that word was too strong though. I guess I can’t use it. OK, I really like you more than she could. I’ve known you longer. Liked you longer. Understood you longer. You tell me there is a darker side to you. If that is true than there is so much more between us than like things. We are bonded together at the spirit. Our hidden lives prove it. I’ve wanted to tell you mine for so long. Your never gave me a chance. Oh why didn’t you give me a chance? I never knew how empty I was until I met you. How can one go through life without realizing the emptiness inside without their partner? It could have grown since I met you. I suppose or I could just never have seen it before. Either way I am so empty without you. I was so blind but you help me see. Stupid I know but it is true. I love you and that will never change. Oh Phillip… I weary with this burden I carry. You don’t know but being the one my friends rely on is so tired some. I took on this burden so I have no one to blame but myself. I live to make them happy… no matter the pain it would bring me. I’ve talked so many out of suicide that I’ve lost count. A few I couldn’t save, those were the ones that hurt the most. To be able to help but not help at all, I think that’s why I lost the one I did. I’m just so tired of fighting. Fighting this battle we live through. Why does life have to be a battle? If it only brings pain why? I don’t understand. I love it though. How sad that the fight is all the keeps me here. Even dealt the poor hand I was its interesting, even fun. I hate it but love it. Is that possible? I want to be open with you but you could never understand. No one could. I am alone. So here I am. Goodbye xoxoxo Kara

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