Thursday, December 30, 2004

Hear my voice, listen to my pain. for when I am alone, all I feel is sorrow

from anothers site: Have you ever hit someone forcefully? yes Have you ever thrown anything at a moving car? yes Have you ever been in a fist fight? I think so Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? probably Have you ever hit an animal on the road? no Have you ever seen a Beatles film? no Have you ever cussed? yes Have you ever been on a subway? yes Have you ever taught a little kid to cuss? no I hate people that do that. Have you ever cheated on a test/exam? yes Have you ever skipped school? no well yes if you count faking sick. Have you ever egged someones house? no Have you ever gotten a computer virus? yes Have you ever cried for no reason at all? I've wanted to but couldn't. Have you ever missed someone? yes so bad it hurts. Some I'm adding: Have you ever felt actual pain on your heart? Yes If so what from? My parents... They just don't understand my dreams. How often do you get depressed? Far to much If you do get depressed do you let other people know? no If you get depressed how do you vent? Writting is my solitude If you didn't have the thing above what would you do? I would kill myself Has anyone ever tried to take your venting style away? Yes my parents How do they make you feel? Like I don't deserve to be breathing. Why do they make you feel like that? Why do you keep asking me questions stupid quiz thing? I'm only asking because you need them answered. No I don't Than why are you still typing? Because I have now where else to go. And? and this is the only place I can be myself even if I scare them. Which I'm sorry if I do. And? I got nothing else fine we'll move on, Have you ever talked to yourself? Yes When? Right now, arn't I? When was the last time you cried? ... to long ago Why did you cry? My father gave away my dog so we could live with my new step mom that had cats. When have you wanted to cry? All the time Why didn't you? Because I can't cry anymore. There are no tears inside of me, only lonelyness. Who makes you the most depressed? My parents Why? Because they won't pay for my college unless I become what they want me to be. They say writting to a fools dream and it doesn't pay out. Only losers follow that dream and I won't have a daughter sink that low. (din't really say that but was hinting it) Why do you think they feel that way? Because I'm there last hope at something great. My brother ans sister failed highschool and at least I was making good grades. I'm his last chance to be his acomplishment his one thing right. and I just don't want to be it anymore. Are they pushy? yes Are you tired? Yes Do you want to scream? Yes I also want to kill him. I want him to feel the pain hes brought on me. I want him to bleed his heart out to know how I feel. I want him to scream. I want him to cry. I want him to know that all hes ever done to me is bring me pain, sorrow, and a deep yurning to be alone, away from all boys and people. He is why I don't date. He is why I hate all men. He is my own black angel. Do you want to do anymore quiz? No

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