Sunday, January 16, 2005

I hate people, I hate cars, I hate the world, but I love everyone here... strange dont ya think?

AAACCCCKKKKK!!!!! I AM GOING TO DO SOMETHING I HAVN'T DONE IN A LONG TIME!!!!!!! SO LISTEN UP!!! I'm going to write a poem... well edit one I wrote in class. Just let me go get it... *gets up walks to room* *walks back sits down* *ahem* The White Dandelion Make a wish as you blow, To spread little seeds far. Sit and watch them dance on air, See them fall down, so dead, so nothing. All through life we are taught, The immpossible can not be. But even now, with those seeds, Do you not make one for thee? Have you ever seen an angel? Have you ever wanted to fly? Have you ever tried to catch the moonlight, To cage its glow by your side? Why are we taught to grow old so young? Why must we learn to cry? See now the young are getting older, Ever younger are they that sigh. Our fathers say straiten up. Our mothers say stay my baby. They world says to us, don't trust. So we fight on alone. If you've read my words and understood, And think its just about right. Take another dear white dandelion, Make a wish, Then blow. ~~~~~~~ I want to say I'm sorry, to everyone. Dreamy please don't be discouraged. I love you all more than my family, so your gonna have to cut me some slack. We are all still growing up rather slowly. But I think theres gonna be a time, When even children as young as 5, Will be expected to know what right and wrong is. I don't know why I can not cry or why I want to see blood. As I drove home I thought to myself just pull over into another car. But then I think someone else might get hurt, so I stay quite far on my side. The cut is little more than a centimeter long, so it really doesn't count as far as cutting goes. I'm just so frustrated with the world. I hate how people can be so stupid. If theres only one damn size of onion rings don't be a smart ass and and order a blizzard without telling me a size then saying 'oh I thought you only had one size.' Dumb @$$ (something that happened at work ignore) I love my little hole downstairs, surrounded but my darkness. It makes me feel somehow whole inside, while some just need people around. (ug they drive me crazy) And the people that can be happy all the time?!! I want to slap them and show them the world is bigger than their head. This is why I don't believe in god (sorry to those that do) I just don't understand how he can watch all this go on and not intervein as he should. If he kicked adam and eve out for eatting some fruit don't you think we should be kicked off the earth already? I miss my brother, I miss my sister, I miss not having a mother. I hate my father and my new evil step mother and I hate having to move every other year. I want to cry, I need it badly, but I lost that ablitly long ago. I don't need words, I need arms to comport me, and I will never confide in a stranger. (I hate them there stupid... you all don't count) I'm sorry to rave like that, I think I'm done. Dreamy please I'm sorry, I love you, don't go. Your part of my family as are most of ya'll (hmmm well almost all *gets hit in arm* owch! ok nvm all ^-^) Dreamy this is for you: YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED I typed them 15 times just for you. I'm sorry plz... You all are my family. I thank you for your concern. It makes me happy to know your here, to confide in, when I know I'm lost. I love you ~ Calla ~

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