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Friday, February 9, 2007


   Well That’s Something That Doesn’t Happen Everyday...
Today was...weird. It all happened at school. This guy named Ryan was telling this girl that he was dumped by his ex-girlfriend, and that she called all the girls that hang out with him whores. He told me, so I was called a whore by this girl I never met. Which is the reason why I didn’t care. But I laughed and said, “How can I be a whore if I’ve never dated anyone?” Ryan asked why I hadn’t dated anyone, and I told him it was because I was done with love, being heart-broken 7 times. He told me that I shouldn’t let that get me down. I wasn’t, really. Also he said some other good stuff, and he said I was a nice girl. (^^ *feels special*) So anyway, school was going to start in about 10 minutes. Lisa, James, Stefi, Jared, Ryan and I were all standing in a circle, talking about weird stuff. The 5-minute warning bell rang, and Jared and Stefi left. Ryan asked where my 1st hour was, I said it was right down the hall. He said, “Well, then you don’t have to leave just yet.” I guess I didn’t, no one else was leaving. A few minutes later, he motions me to follow him away from everyone. (Uh... kay.) So this is what he says, “I’ve know you since last term in Meteorology class.” I nodded and he continued, “And, I do like you. I know I shouldn’t ask this right after a relationship, it’ll look bad, and I know what you’ve been through, but... would you go out with me?” I stood there, in complete shock, then I started laughing, He asked if I was surprised. That was an understatement! So he asked for an answer, and I asked if I could think it over. He understood, and I went to class. I felt really weird. I was really putting thought into this. At the pep fest later today, Lisa said I was kind of scaring her because I was completely pale and talked really quietly. Thoughts and questions were going through my mind. One kind of stuck out: “What is he’s lying?” I was really confused, but soon sorted it out. I would tell Ryan my answer at lunch.
So lunch came around, and I told Ryan my answer: I wasn’t ready, maybe later. The only true part was the “I’m not ready.” I did tell him he was a really nice and sweet guy, which is also true. But why I turned the offer down are of my own reasons. Because, mainly, I don’t know how to love. I don’t even know what love is anymore.
I feel a bit bad, because I know he was probably looking for a yes, and I know that this probably will never happen again. I do feel that I did the right thing. But I guess I should put this behind me. What’s done is done.

Sorry for that long rambling, this is just so weird... A guy finally faced me and asked me out and he probably actually meant it.... honesty isn’t easy to find. This is something that doesn’t happen everyday, ya know?

*~*Kibou*~*
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