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Tuesday, December 6, 2005


   FYI. this post is a little messed up. this is what i felt last night. i'll post again after school.
I JUST CAN’T BELIEVE IT!

I had a crush on this guy for about a year. We started out as friends and I started to like him, and he started to like me. Why I liked him? He was funny and he liked to play Duel Monsters. (Yay!) but... something happened and he started using me. I pushed it to the back of my mind, and this past summer I got sick of holding it back. And finally, I said, “He used me! He used me to get what he wanted and I didn’t get an equal not even fair payback. And after he PROMISED!!!” I saw him and i just wanted to say hi. But, he wasn’t really apying attention. Ok. Fine. Then, I went up to him when I saw him at lunch (the lunches overlap. He was in first, I was in second) I went up to him and said, “You, are such a jerk!” and I shoved him. He had no reaction. And that didn’t surprise me. I thought, “if I ever see him again, I’ll teach him a lesson.” Or in better words, well not really, I was going to kick his ass. I haven’t seen him yet. And just last night I got this flash. Almost like a vision. I saw something, and I realized I HAD A SOFT SPOT FOR HIM!!! It’s very tiny, but it’s there. I couldn’t hurt him as bad as he did me. [on the inside] I told my friends before if we were walking in the halls, and saw this guy, I asked them to hold me back. Because I didn’t want to go after him and start beating the living daylights out of him. Not because I liked him, I didn’t want to get in trouble. Now, I have a soft spot. Maybe the tension is going away. I hope this soft spot doesn’t grow. I like someone else. And this other guy, *scoff* he’s out of my mind.

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